It's been some time since that eventful night with my noona. we're entering December already, so we are soon to enter a new millennium.
People are really excited about it, even Hwangbo-Noona already told me to prepare for it. I also got a new Noona, and a new member of our family, it was a half Australian noona called Jung Ryeo Won.
I like talking with her because she talks English pretty good, so not only does she make me practice it, but I also sometimes despise honorifics in Korean language.
But anyway, she's really introverted though, I guess coming back to Korea from Australia isn't easy at all. I can understand her though, I've lived too much time in Guryong village that this seems fake to me.
Also, Hwangbo debuted in a group called Bros, and will be debuting with "Chakra" the next year, I don't know the exact date though. The members will be the four noonas, including the recent Ryeo won noona.
As I thought, they have an Indian concept, Hyung already had everything though after the group, from the costumes, the songs, and obviously the concept. I'm really happy for them, but I've never forget my dream, and Hyung knows.
The thing is, he doesn't think I'm serious about it, every time I've told him, he seems to misunderstand it as childish behaviour, not that I blame him.
Even though I got closer to Hyung during this months, he still keeps somethings to himself, his relationship with that actress has seem to progress a lot, seeing that she would be supposedly coming for some time next week, but the thing that really worries me are his usual night escapades.
He never tells anyone about it, not that he should, but just notifying us would be great, at least just telling us he's going out.
The thing is, I'm the only who has noticed it, and I don't want to put pressure on the Noonas, they're worried enough about their debut, now more than ever.
I don't think Hyung is just "living his life", his night activities are definitely not good, there's something wrong about him, he's losing appetite, if I say, he's even losing hair. But today I will find out about it...
He was as everyday, in his office, at the other side of the house, he usually stays there with his recorder, or whatever he wants to use really, but that office is where spends the majority of his time. After arriving at his door, I lightly knocked the door.
— Come in, Chris-ah. — I could hear his reply from inside the room.
I quickly entered and glared at him, after all this time, this was a thing I learned from noona. Glaring was actually an art, it could be aggressive, cool, even kind if you did it well.
Noona said that my eyes were really expressive, so it was important to handle it well when staring at people.
— How did you know it was me — I asked.
— There are only two people who would bother me here, Hwangbo and you. Hwangbo doesn't really knock, so it could only be you. — He answered back with his ever present cheeky smile.
That one I learned too. Pairing that smile, with my eyes, I have to say, that's my secret weapon.
I ignored his answer and directly approached the subject. Dilly dallying wasn't really my thing.
— When were you going to tell us?
— About what? — He went from his initial comfy posture, to standing on the edge of his seat.
— Night activities.... — I replied almost instantly.
Startled he stared deeply at me and sighed.
— I should've assumed you would notice right?
I simply nodded and stayed silent, waiting for him to continue.
— Adult business, you shouldn't meddle with it. — He tried to shrug me off like that, but I wasn't up to his bull.
— The day we first met, we talked about Park Do Joon... You've been taking the Volvo all this nights, it started the last month, you only take the Volvo when you go out for business. It's about that Do Joon right?
He weirdly stared at me and asked.
— Why would you think so?
— Hyung, I've never hidden anything from you, all this time, I treated as my family, only Yuri noona, Hwangbo noona, and the other Noonas, and you have been really treated that intimately after my accident. I know whenever you're not really yourselves. You've started to live frugally, the big member of Roo'ra living like that? You definitely have a money problem. Also, I now know you enough to see that your cars are your life. When was the last time you went out in your little baby? As I remember, it was like a month and a half ago when you went to visit Yuri-noona with me. As I see it, something is clearly happening, are you going to tell me or not? — I asked, starting quite softly but angrily by the end of the speech.
Even though I acted as if I was calm, I was really nervous inside, now I had overstepped countless boundaries, but I was getting really worried about Hyung right now.
After about a minute of us deeply staring at each other, he heavily sighed. Then he asked.
— Do the girls know about this?
I shook my head. He then continued.
— Want to go for something to eat? The girls will handle themselves.
Before noticing, we were already at his little baby riding through Gangnam.
Even now I was nervous whenever I appeared in public, I guess Do Joon left a deep scar, even deeper than the one Hongman left me.
After accommodating at a cheap restaurant in Gangnam, while we waited for our food, he started talking.
— I think I know why Damian left you with me... you're not the only one who had problems with Mr Park.
I could notice how his voice broke multiple times, but I stayed silent.
— Some years ago, he also ruined my life... I was almost at the verge of suicide because of him. — Hyung was getting more emotional with each word he said.
— He approached me some years ago, at the time I was at my peak, the big Sang Min, greatest producer of the year... and member of Roo'ra, one of the biggest groups in South Korea. How could I compared myself to a "little figure" as the father of Gangnam. More so, he offered me his help, or threatened me, is a more accurate word I think.
I think I know where he's going, I heard about that rumor. Still, I kept silent.
— How could I ever accept a deal like that? — Anger was clearly visible on Hyung's face at this moment.
— Me having to depend on someone to keep progressing, it was outrageous. As was obvious, I declined his offer. But the king of Gangnam gets what he wants... All it took was one year, I lost a majority of my fans, A great part then turned their backs to me, another part raised their voice against me. I was accused of a so called Plagiarism case that I'm sure never even happened. My restaurant's activities got worse and worse with each passing day... the only thing I have left is my music, and the girls... And it seems they got Park Do Joon's attention.
I could guess what he meant about his attention, nothing good could ever come from him.
— I won't ever give the girls to him, but going against him won't be good.... Hye Young-ah has helped me a lot, but I don't want her to meddle in this.
— Hye Young, as in Lee Hye Young? She's the actress you were dating?
Hyung simply nodded.
— But, I don't understand, that problem was years ago? Why are you worried about it now?
— The problem was not years ago, this keeps happening. Mr.Park's goons continuously blackmail me. That's the reason behind my nocturnal activities, Chris-ah, I've done a lot of things I'm not proud of, just to keep this facade of a celebrity alive.....
By this point, his eyes were really red. I guess that seeing his state like that was the reason why I, that was usually smart, couldn't notice the hard truth. It was hurtfully obvious, but I couldn't see it....
My hate for Do Joon was increasing exponentially, but while my anger increased, Hyung seemed to calm down. He continued.
— For now, I want the girls to debut, and I'll try my everything so that they do. — Hyung gave me his usual smile, but I could notice all of his sorrows hidden inside him..
How could someone have all those burdens on him? And there was even me adding to his burdens.... before noticing I was biting my lip so hard it started bleeding. Hyung wasnt looking at me, so he didn't notice.
That day, he silently returned home, and neither of us talked with anyone before going to sleep. I could notice Hyung going out once again in the night, but could only ignore it.
Real title: Hyung's secrets.