I open my eyes to... nothing... wait no... that... can't be right... there's no such THING as nothing... I think ... but then what am I seeing now... would it be pure darkness or a blinding light? what are those any way... I have no clue what these... noises are- words... I think they are or what they describe. yet I completely understand the meaning of the words I'm... saying? thinking? it doesn't really matter now does it... wait... who am I talking to? and more importantly... do I even have eyes?
I don't really... feel... anything... no emotion... no sensation... no... anything... and yet I can still speak... or I guess I'm thinking due to the fact I can't hear anything... or maybe I'm just deaf...I can't help but feel like... I'm not alone... and it's as if...I'm not real?... like I have no past... no control over the present... and my futures all ready been decided... or just being made up as we go along... with no direction or destined way or path. it should be terrifying... knowing you have no control... right? that someone or somethings watching you if you go by normal standards...
yet... I find it kind of... comforting...I'm never truly alone... and I don't have to worry about my past, present or future anymore... did I ever? do I even have those?
Am i just here... no origin... no purpose... nor reason... just existing without reasoning... am I even alive? maybe I'm dead and that's why I'm here alone in the Gray... that's what I'm going to call this place... since I can't really... see? anything? do I even see? it's most likely black or white here... whatever those look like... so I'll just call it gray....hey...am I just going to... exist? just with... you... and my thoughts? I don't even know what I look like... I don't really know what anything looks like huh..... am I a... girl or boy... or even human? perhaps I have yet to be born ? that might explain it... except for the fact that I'm completely self aware... and being watched... and possibly controlled...
Would you be upset with this? having no control and being watched? but you only have control over you and nothing else... right? and theres so many people that it's hard for no one to see you... right?
can anyone tell me what's going on? I know you can hear me... maybe it's you who can't talk... but i think i might be able to hear you... in a way... the same way I'm taking to you right now...
I'm bored... can whatever made me do something? I know I must have come from something... and I sould have a purpose... right?... or am I just here because I am here? am I even here? am I real? I don't know... just give me something to do...
"sure"
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da fuk?