Years had passed and slowly over the years I started to accept and move on to that day.
Because I said to myself that I can't be forever stuck at that day.
And I can still remember the big jar full of papers her mom gave me in her funeral and it said....
'It was to soon to say goodbye but as I think of it its not literally a goodbye because I never once thought to leave you, always remember I'm just here by your side spiritually.'
'I thought we will spend our lives together, so when the doctors said that I have a Glioblastoma I teared up to sleep everyday but as I thought of dying I know that I will never be alone because God is always with me'
'Amo te tam multo, Nunquam vale dixit, quod numquam erit: et abierunt, pro te ego autem dico in altera vita simul'
'You can love someone..... I will never be angry, I will always support you whatever you do that includes being happy, but don't forget to say it to me.....I would love to meet her.'
Thats the letters and many more inside the jar.
I remembered spending my day reading it all the letters and her diary.
But now I'm in front of her grave its her birthday tomorrow but I may not go here on her actual birthday because I have an important dealer to meet.
"I will go now, cor meum" after that I drove to my company.
"Sir, you have a mail" my secretary said and gave me a white envelope.
Once I'm in my office I read the letter or more like an invitation and it said....
Long time no see, brother. Kael, your invited to my sons birthday, go and make sure your hands are full not empty okay?. | From: Your handsomest brother, Jacob.
Well its on friday next week, I'll try to be there.
ANGELA focus on this, this is your first surgery as a surgeon okay?, FOCUS.
"Gab, don't over work yourself" Our head doctor said then he gave me an envelope.
"You have a mail"
I took off my surgical gown, gloves, and my mask and got out.
But before I head outside the hospital, our head called me to his office...
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Once I stepped in our house my family embrace me for a hug.
"At last your here" my older brother said.
"Well the hospital moved me here in the Philippines." I said and my brother handed mean envelope.
"Its an invitation for Jacob's sons birthday this friday" he said then took my stuff to my bedroom.
So I ended the day just wondering at our house.
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Its already Thursday and tomorrow is the party and now I'm here in the mall to buy some gifts not until I bump in to someone I know.....