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Chapter 75 - I need to process

I'm. I don't have a word for this

I don't know what happened

Yesterday I was mad at myself for no reason until I started to brush my hair, I got

Mad at it and immediately wanted to cut it off, I did not though because it would be stupid of me to do that on an impulse. Instead my rage vented to the walls and mirror around me but i did not hit them either instead I hit my arm with a flat palm, it Stung. I continued to be mad but then started to deflate and just pity and unlike myself, not hate it was not at that level just pity and sadness. After that I went to bed and had a very stressful dream where it felt like I didn't really sleep at all. I woke up more sleepy than usual then after sleepyhead wore off I started feeling sick and I also got chills, and around eleven I started feeling uneasy, which turned into stress, by the time twelve came around I realized I actually had something to review, I got even more stressed and when I went to look up material on the computer for it, I realized I couldn't see because I was crying, by the time I realized it I was having a panic attack, I couldn't breathe I started coughing until finally I felt a wave of sickness and threw up, I still could not breathe, I tried getting help but I could not speak it came out in raspy coughing, I also couldn't see, when I finally managed to hit the call button nobody answered, which is fine I don't expect anyone to be at my beck and call they were probably dealing with their own issues in life, so I had to stay and use half a tissue box as my crying comfort, after I calmed down I had to ask for my review sheet to be pushed back, and had another panic when I realized I couldn't talk properly. I'm now calm but I still don't know what the trigger was,

Yes the review sheet was one, but what was the original?