For some reason, I don't like inviting people over but when my siblings invite someone over we always get along like we are friends, but we aren't. I wish I could be like my siblings and be able to hang out with friends, I guess you could call that jealousy, but that's just one thing that I am lacking. I seem to always notice the things I do wrong than the things I do right. You could say that's just the way I think and the way I was raised, I'm a rusty item that has a lot of damage and people are deciding whether they should help me or leave me alone. I don't like going to therapy because they want you to talk all about your past and the things that I don't want to bring back. But that's their job.