Its been nearly three weeks since I and Matt have been friends.
It was great.
I never got angry and he never made me.
We were doing a practise exam in Maths.
Matt nudged me sneakily.
"CeCe, what's the answer to number 23?" He whispered. I rolled my eyes.
"I'm not telling you," I said blankly.
''Oh come on, it's just one question." He whispered back, annoying me.
"Matt, I can't just keep on telling you. You've asked me 4 times now." I looked at the front. Miss Lili wasn't here today.
We had another teacher called Mr Henry who was very strict. And I didn't want to get caught. I promised to myself I would not cause any trouble and I'm sticking to that promise.
"CeCe, please. I really need to know." Matt said, making puppy dog eyes in need for food.
I looked at him and he looked so desperate.
I sighed.
"Okay, the answer is-'' Cerina Cecil! Matt Rhodes!" I looked at the front to see Mr Henry staring at us.
I bit my lip.
I looked at Matt who didn't seem bothered at all. "Sorry, sir," I said apologizing to him.
"No, CeCe! This is the 3rd time I heard you two talking in class!" He shouted at me.
"Sorry, sir. It won't happen again." I said, apologizing again.
"Of course it won't. Both of you. Get Out!" he shouted pointing at the door telling us to go out of the class.
My eyes widened. "But Sir-" I was interrupted.
"Don't talk back to me!" He shouted again at me.
He pointed at the door again and I hung my head low, staring at the floor.
Matt got up and walked out like nothing was wrong. Everyone stared at us. Hans looked at me and bit his lip.
I sighed.
I got up and walked out of the class.
He shut the door behind us with a bang.
Matt was leaning on the wall, laughing.
"Did you see his face? It was worse than Miss Lisa's!" he made a remark but I was just staring at the floor.
I ignored him and walked to the bench. How dare he act like that? I was trying to be on my best behaviour and he ruined it for me.
"CeCe!" Matt shouted behind me. I ignored him and sat on the bench. He sat with me on the other side of the bench.
"Are you mad at me?" he asked slowly in a low voice.
I couldn't control my emotions anymore.
"Of course I am, Matt!" I shouted at him. "You have ruined it. You ruined it all!" I added angrily.
"What?" Matt said, surprised by my reaction.
I looked at him.
"Did you expect me to laugh with you? Because what you did might have ruined it for me." Matt came closer to me.
"CeCe, it's not your fault."
I laughed coldly. "I know that, you idiot." I walked away. He followed behind me.
"Chill out, he won't do anything."
I rolled my eyes. "I promised myself that this school would be a fresh start. I would not get in any kind of trouble. But look at what happened."
"I'm sorry, Cece." He said, putting his hand in his pockets.
I looked at him.
I was so angry.
"I just hate it, okay?" I said, feeling annoyed. He looked at me closely.
"What do you hate?"
I sighed. "I hate it when people shout at me. It gets me so angry and I lose control over myself."
He smiled. "I get that."
"How do you even understand!? You get shouted at all the time! And whenever you do, you just shrug it off!" I shouted at him. "But I can't. I can't let a guy raise his voice at me." I added.
He tried to put his hand on my shoulder but I just shrugged it off. I was angry right now. I knew it. I haven't been angry for weeks and now it has built up inside me. I tried my best, I really did but I just can't seem to let my anger go.
"CeCe, I'm sorry." He said, putting his hand through his hair. I didn't want to look at him, I just feel so angry and annoyed at this moment. He came closer to me. "Look, CeCe I-"
"Just go away!" I screamed at him.
He moved back, scared of my voice.
I looked down. Oh no, he's scared of me.
A tear fell down my cheek.
I can't believe this.
I quickly hid my face in shame and ran away.
He really thought I was going to hurt him.
I wouldn't... would I?
He didn't run after me this time and for some reason, I wasn't happy about that at all.
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