Despite being grateful for Ame who sent me to a world which can grant all my whims, I never knew the dates even though I lived here for a while. How many days had passed in my original world? Is it really fine if I wanted to stay in this ideal world? Such questions swarmed my mind every moment I had my mind idle.
It's in the middle of the class, where my social studies teacher was explaining something I had already knew from a study session a week ago before everything happened. I laid my gazes out of the window, obviously daydreaming.
"You, the short haired girl over there! Mizuhara is it?" The sensei asked.
I slightly flinched and quickly stood up by reflex.
"Could you repeat what I had explained over here? What did Genbu do to avoid war with his brother, Genji?" Sensei asked. His expressions were as confident as he is certain that I'm unable to answer his questions. If a perfect explanation is what he needed, then I shall show him all the abilities I tried so hard to hide.
"Genji is a brother who Genbu looked up to in his childhood. Thus a war with his beloved brother is certainly the last thing he wanted to happen. Genbu knows that he couldn't best his brother in the arts of war, so he tried to reconcile with Genji, but to no avail. In the end, Genbu looked for an adviser who lived as a hermit in the mountains and even convinced him to join his side. Genji, who is fully aware of that is still stubborn on sending troops on march despite the disadvantage."
"Then, what happened?" Sensei asked curiously. Apparently this is not mentioned much in the textbooks. Including little details as such is really interesting for someone who is enthusiastic to his subject. I continued my answer.
"Genji went to Genbu's camp for a talk a night before the war. In fact they talked about the old times. Genbu finds out that he is only capable of fighting and not much in handling a country. Thus they agreed to join forces and built a strong country that eventually unites all Hoshido in just two decades."
The whole class dropped silent.
"Mizuhara! You have a good understanding on the topic! I'm impressed! However, please pay attention in class as well." Sensei said, from a enthusiastic tone to a stern tone. I nodded and sat down. Classes continued, I opened my notebook to take down anything extra sensei said.
It's lunchtime, Yuuma and I met up at the staircase towards the rooftop, no one is going this way during lunchtime. Since it's always locked. I'd say, we are already much a couple now, just without a confession yet. Although I'm aware of this, I'm still very embarrassed and unsure what to do with Yuuma. We took out our lunchboxes and started eating. I didn't dare to say anything, since I'm still unsure how he feels towards me. Perhaps I could change his thoughts by leaping through worlds? I never knew.
"Rinka, just now, you explained the little details about the part where Genji avoided a war with Genbu is very clear, it cleared a lot of doubts in the topic for me, I'm really thankful for that. Perhaps... We can study together anytime soon?" Yuuma suddenly said. I knew it! He is trying to create a chance to get closer to me isn't it?! I agreed his invitation, to come to my house for studying. Perhaps he would come to confess to me? That's what I wanted! I can't hide my blushing face. Our lunchtime just ended like that. We returned to our class, with a lot of classmates suddenly swarming over.
"Are you going out for real?" One of them asked, and suddenly everyone asks the same. This is the scene I wanted to happen on me when I was in my original world. Perhaps this world has its own charms that I wanted to stay. Both me and Yuuma gazed at each other, then denies it together. We then looked at each other again.
"Ehhhh? It must be, they are too embarrassed to tell us the opposite!" They laughed them off. The crowd slowly dissipates, both me an Yuuma returned to our seats. During the next class, our gazes occasionally met. I'm pretty sure that he is thinking about me.
Classes are over, I had some quick post study notes to do. So I stayed in the class for a while. Several minutes later, I walked to the school entrance, I saw Yuuma, seemingly waiting for someone. Before I approached him, Haruko appeared next to me.
"It's been a while, Rika-san." Haruko said. Did she just called me Rika? How is that possible?
"Umm excuse me? My name is Rinka, not Rika..." It's my first time denying my own name.
"Nope, it didn't work on me. I came from another world than this, so your change of name will not affect me." She responded. Wait, there is another person who came from another world? Could it be the same as mine?
"Did you mean that you came from the world as same as mine?" I asked. Her expression is rather unsure.
"There are multiple parallel worlds isn't it? I'm not even sure how did the star's ability to send me into this world is even logical, but it sure gave me an expansion to my horizons about the power of gods. I've uncovered less information due to some oddities in people around." She said. Oddities, could it be the people around her is behaving weirdly without me?
"What did you mean by oddity?" I asked.
"People around me, they seemed like they are not moving, like... Dolls." She replied. Is it supposed to caused by the fact that I did not know the existence of the people, so they just "exist"?
"You see... Look at that guy over there." She points into the distance. It's Yuuma, he's waiting for me. But what's wrong with him?
"That guy, is your boyfriend is it? He seems like a doll to me. He's not moving, like not living with a purpose. People around here just moved as normal, but some people are not. Maybe, they are people controlled only by a certain someone. This is just a deduction." Haruko said. Is that the case...? Yuuma is controlled by me? What is going on?
I exchanged contact info with Haruko, and then approached Yuuma. I apologised to him for being late. He shook his head, and started to walk off. I followed him we talked about today, the weather, and any other random things. It feels so dreamy to have so much fun talking with him. If it wasn't because of that incident, I wouldn't have to act cold in front of Yuuma.
I stopped thinking about it, and wraps my arms onto Yuuma's right arm.
"Huh? What are you doing, Rinka-chan?!" He said, flustered.
"Can't I?" I made a pity face. It sure melts his heart. He sighed and kept walking. I followed him all the way back home. All these little times that paints the picture of my happiness, is all the times I spent here with Yuuma. A smile I genuinely showed to him, was a smile that never shown on my face for years.
Such days could go on repeating itself over and over again, in fact it's already a month when all my diary entries are almost having the same content. But I don't hate it. Since I wanted to be with Yuuma forever. Just like what I remembered a while ago, a promise to be his girlfriend when we grew up. Perhaps this is the reason he kept trying to talk to me...? I'm such a idiot... If I didn't act cold towards him, could I have that happiness that I dared not to have? No, it's impossible.
The aftermath of being pushed into a toilet room, with a bucket of water, most probably from mopping the floor gushing down from above, or cutting my hair, making me unable to show my face around. Was it because in close to Yuuma? Is it his fault that he is too popular that people will do anything to remove anyone who is too close to him? Is it because I don't want him to worry about me?
He noticed when I cut my hair short. I acted pathetic and tried my best to manipulate examination results so that I get a class lower than him. A lot has happened. That took the word "happiness" away from my dictionary, I never truly felt happiness until that day, when everything happened.
I wondered if I contradicted myself in this. The fear of Haruna, my best friend in high school who likes Yuuma will look at me as I betrayed her, and the trauma of the bully I had received over the years. And a contradicting feeling of happiness? I even forgot how to feel happiness back then. These days should repeat, just like a favourite movie that goes on forever, without making it's audiences bored.