Adam ,
It had been quite sometime since i had a sound sleep, Lia' s hands were allover me her legs on me too , I didn't know if she was trying to protect me or she just had bad sleeping habits.
She was sound a sleep as if it wasn't her driving me crazy last night , i detached my self from her slowly enough to not wake her up , i went to freshen up ,
When i got out of the bathroom she was still a sleep and it was still early , I wanted her to wake up before i headed out but something stopped me, what if she remembers about yesterday , me trying to force myself into her.
Well the news industry would have hit the jackpot 'Adam Hugo sexually assaults a lady' as the headline,
I went to my therapist first, she would know something about traumas , and i was sure enough she wasn't taking any clients this early.
I lied on the couch for a while picking up where i should start from .
" what can i do for you Adam" asked Bethany Stewart my therapist , i always thought she was a elegant and smart blondie , she's probably in her late thirties if not early forties, picking from her years of experience, but she looks younger,
"I almost killed someone yesterday "
She looked suprised but i could tell she was happy that i was finally opening up after three months of seeing her.
"Why so?"
" i caused her a trauma , i__i forced myself into her"
I pause waiting for her response.
"Were you in your concious mind at the time?"
"Yes__Why did she react while it was just fine?"
I asked staring back at the ceiling
" Adam this isn't about you....it's about her".
She asked and I could tell she was a bit disappointed.
"Shouldn't i talk about her ?".
" no__no Adam please continue ".
I kept my legs down and sat upright,
And i explained to her what happened, everything, plus the parts i hid from Philip.
" well", began Dr.Bethany , she looked at her note book and kept her left smooth leg over her right good thing I didn't loose my concentration , i could tell it wasn't hard for her to take in she deals with these cases everyday, she tilted her spects one of her behavior that i find alluring ,
" well " she began,
"i've ever had a case like this , ...that girl might be a victim of sexual assult —rape , and you tearing her clothes triggered the trauma, the rapist might have done the same , ___ so she wasn't seeing you but what happened to her then, and we rapist face not yours"
She stare at me for a while.
"You shouldn't be hard on yourself you didn't do anything wrong "
said Dr.Bethany moving close to me , but I couldn't stop thinking of how inhuman i was forcing myself into Lia , though I knew it clearly she was getting tensed up I should have known better, i let my emotions get the best of me.
" but still i forced myself into her".
I said looking up to her.
" how could you know , i fact some women love being submissive when having sex"
Beth was always candid, she talked to me with no restrains on formality and that made me confortable on being who I really am . I know she was trying to make me feel guilty but now more than ever i wanted to check on Lia , to see if she is alright.
"Women ... like you"
I smirked at her , this killer move never failed me,
She stared back with a smile and her cheeks flushed pink ,she leaned back on her work desk .
" when is your next patient coming"
I asked .
She glanced at her clock " in twenty three__".
" thats more than enough " i stood and paced to her , i crashed her lips with mine one hand on her chin the other on her waist ,
I devoured her lips senselessly ... when we broke to catch our breath i turned her over and made he bend over her desk , I stretched for the drawers and took a protection, which she had been keeping since we started this off professionalisms relation,
" Ah__Adam the door".
I rolled over the rubber to my already hard shaft and rolled up her short grey pencil skirt .
" it's more fun when you have to worry of being caught"
I wispered into her ear the positioned her legs apart and began thrusting into my therapist hard and deep ,the office filled with her screams and moans , til we both came .
On my way back i passed into a cloth store to get Lia some since I ripped hers last night . I didn't know her taste so i got her a dress , tshirt , jeans and some inners i gussed her size given that i got to measure her first hand , and thinking about it made my realize just how beautiful her body is and how good it felt touching her, i just wanted to feel that again , if only i hadn't force myself into her ,
I got home and I didn't know how nervous i was until i gave a relief sign when i found her not on bed , i told myself that she might be in the shower, but I didn't hear water splashes, so i went in , thats when i realized she left , I didn't want to believe it so i went down stairs checking for her but she was gone , and i had no idea of what first impression i might have earned from her , worse enought i just couldn't pin point why i even cared about what she thought of me ,
I was disappointed and I didn't know why , 'maybe it's the guilt of hurting her' . I told myself.
My phone rang and Kir was on the caller , i picked up and before he could even throw any ill_suited comment i spoke, " she left".
"Ooh" he replied ,
" thats what you could come up with " I replied , I didn't know why but i felt like i was looking for someone to blame ,
" you sound so disappointed pointed i just don't know what to say , but i got her medication from philip i went over this morning ."
" bring it at work" i replied before hanging up .