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Chapter 21 - Thoughts Unheard

It seems people are inclined to lie to themselves, even if the truth is right in front of us, we can still distort it to make it the way we want it to be.

-💛ella

Let me sleep.

For in dreams, we enter a world that's entirely our own.

Let me swim in the deepest ocean or glide over the highest cloud.

-💛ella

If I could only have this life for one more day

If I could make yesterday be today

I would still choose to be with you

Spend again all the things we do

-💛ella

Gathered stones like jade

Pine trees in a row like jadeite

The youth's beauty unparalleled

Second to none in the world

-💛ella

In the meantime,

there's happiness and distress

surprise and joy, and

Sorrow as well as sadness

But no matter how confusing and baffling the situation is, "escaping" will never be the best solution to all this.

-💛ella

I want to tell you my stories

And I also want to hear yours

Both good and bad

But the most important is that the rest of the stories of life are all about us.

-💛ella

What I owe to the former

How I've been cruel to the latter

I'm at the end of the rope

Little late, they painfully landed

Yeah, sadly, painfully.

-💛ella

Sometimes, when I least expect it, I feel afraid, and have doubts about the future. I can't help that.

-💛ella

"Compromise where you can, where you can't, don't. Even if everyone is telling you that something's wrong, something's right. Even if the whole world is telling you to move, it is your duty to plant yourself like a tree, look them in the eye and say 'no'."

-💛ella

Sometimes I think that I wont meet someone who I hope to meet for a long time.

But when I don't hope to meet,

The person is likely to challenge my eyes.

-💛ella

Sometimes, we're swayed by unimportant things and get lost.

But what matters the most is that, we know how to go back.

-💛ella

We do not wish to know

Any other speech may break

The bond which keep us apart.

-💛ella

Sometimes, in this world, you need to keep something important a secret in order not to fall hypocrite in the eyes of others.

Some things are indeed better left untold.

-💛ella

No matter how you grieved or hated the past

Past is a past that you can no longer change,

If you hold on to it, you can't move forward to your future.

The only thing you can do to keep going is to accept the past and forgive.

-💛ella

Those words still haunt me

Never fail to hurt me

You're undoubtedly cruel

You still speak of those words

Like you care but all is against me

- 💛ella

I want to be like you, too

Be brave enough to face the difficulties that I dared not face before.

-💛ella

We're sailing in the sea without a map

We don't know what will happen in the future

We're filled with fear and uneasiness

But even in the angriest thunderstorm

I'd still want to move forward bravely

Because I believe that we're not far away

From the shore that we want to go to.

-💛ella

You've grown up and learned something. You'll leave someday.

Like a bird who has to find food for itself. No progress will be made if it stays under its parents' wings and wait for the bugs sent to its mouth.

-💛ella

It was all just temporary fireworks. No matter how beautiful it was, they would just end up in the pitch black sky.

-💛ella

I'll bid farewell for my painful past with a hopefull cry, childish goodbye, bitter smile and a blessed mind.

-💛ella

In a strange place,

where there are butterflies in the chest.

You: I don't believe in fate.

I: But I believe in it.

-💛ella

What I've seen and what I've read

Building a block of useless thread

What lies within that cannot be seen outside

And what's visible that hides the truth of the inside

-💛ella

Even if we stop talking to each other,

I want you to know that its possible to love in silence.

'Cause life is real, it's not an enigma,

We wait patiently to see what it holds.

-💛ella

Always remember,

Never accept the world as it appears to be

Dare to see it for what it could be.

-💛ella

Its always like this,

Our timing is always off.

-💛ella

How can I write a song that's about us

If there's nothing between us

I promised that my writing wouldn't last

Then I wrote a poem that's not about you

Only to find out that its all for you

-💛ella-

But life is a game of chess. We have different roles and play trickly; A king is always afraid of losing his queen; And a queen risking everything just to protect her king. We never knew its done until its "check mate". But another game will start all over again.

-💛ella

Just for the moment,

the beauty of budding is the promise,

but the blooming flower's the only possibility,

that the fruit is yet to come

-💛ella-

The old memories that dried-up already crawled out again because of you.

The dried-up tree sprouted leaves.

The dried-up years of not having you tormented me to no return.

How awful.

-💛ella-

A message to me: Getting used to being alone is a really terrifying experience. Go ride with the wind. Fly to the sky. Explore the world.

-💛ella

Many words left untold, Even I tried but dare not to be bold 'Cause I cherish the numbered time we shared Hoping these time could be prolonged as I care.

-💛ella

Love is extreme without reasonability Two people involve in balance harmony Yet in one-side feeling it's indeed pitiful Breaking a firm passion can be as regretful

-💛ella

I am a queen I reign to command

I fight to conquer

Yet I didn't get what I want

And didnt own who I like.

-💛ella