I can hardly sleep because of what happened lately. It keeps running on my head and I just can't control it. I felt happy on the part that I had already met my father but I'm sad at the same time because I know that he'll still leave me anyway. I don't know what kind of mindset is this but the truth is that I don't believe too much because I know for sure, people will still fail to do their part.
In the morning, I woke up late and suddenly, my phone rings.
(Kring…kring…)
It's my father calling. "Good morning pa."
He then replied, "Good morning my son, see you at the cafeteria, goodbye."
"Ahh… okay"
I just don't know, but he's so strange. Its like he's after for something very important. He's hurrying every time he calls me. I don't know what he's up to? But anyway, I hurriedly fix my things and packed my bag for work. I even forgot to eat my breakfast because I don't have enough time to cook and eat. I just bought biscuits at the end store and eat it while I'm on my way to work.
Our manager walked closer to me while I'm entering at the front door of our office saying, "John! Too early for tomorrow's work huh"
"I'm very sorry ma'am, the motorcycle that I am riding suddenly burst the wheel, and it takes to long when I ride another vehicle." I replied. Lying would be the best way to make an excuse because I think it is not a valid reason if I will tell the truth.
"I see. Hmm…." Said Mrs. Jane. "Okay go to your work now!"
I first did my paper works, and went to the sales to entertain costumers. I just can't imagine myself how lucky I am now having a wonderful job that has bigger salary. On the other side of the coin, I felt very homeless. We have our house but can't consider to be my home. A kind of place where I can feel a lot of supports, someone to be called a family and someone I can wake up in the morning with full of excitement every time I open my eyes. And I don't have that one. My grandparents always leave me for their another home in our province, and it's so sad seeing myself being so alone in a small house. I really want to give up in life but my dream to have a beautiful house, and to have a loving family keep me going.
Now that I also have met my father, maybe he will also be the reason to keep me alive and find the strength in my weakness. I'm scared to trust people again, but I know father will always be my father. No matter how you wanted to turn your world, he will always be.
"Hey!" said Fredrick one of my co-workers in Fridget company.
"Oh! Fredrick!"
Fredrick replied, "Here we go again, you always leave yourself hanging. What happens you man? Wake up! It's not good for a salesman to think deeply until you're out of control, it will affect our customer's."
"Oh sorry man, will never do it again." "I was just thinking if it is possible that you can bring back all the love that you felt for your family?
"It's always possible man! Don't think things negatively! Love will always grow if you believe in it. Trust me.."
"Oh well, thank you!." I replied.