From that moment on, I spend my life watching, and taking care of my father. He's one of the precious gift that I have received this year, and I don't want to lose him in my hands.
Luckily, I've been losing the heavy load that is under my back and maybe because I have seen my father smiling every day.
"Son?
"Yes dad?
"You are the most precious thing that ever happened in my life, and I feel so sorry for leaving you and your mother with such a lame reason."
I can see in his face that he regretted everything and I believe that this time, he has this true intentions with me, and his true love for me.
"Dad, I know that you regretted everything and you are already forgiven. We can do this dad! It's just a cancer, and you are a strong and faithful man… we can do it!"
He smiled so genuinely saying, "You never fail to give me courage son. I thank God that I have given a wonderful son like you. I may not at your side as you grow but believe me when I say that you never left in my mind and in my heart."
"Stop the drama dad" I replied while laughing.
"Oh well! I don't want to waste my tears son."
"Hahaha stop joking dad! By the way I prepare our breakfast for today. So…"
"Let's eat!"
"You're not hungry huh?!"
"Not so son, just a little."
We have a fun time together talking about silly things. Never would I expect that from the very short moment that we have together, I feel like I have my father since I was born. I've been longing for his affection, his love, his care, and his attention, and this time, I will give my best to make him stay. No matter what it takes.
"Dad, I'll just take a shower. I still have work."
"Okay son. Do it faster it's almost 8."
"Oh no! I thought it was too early! Thanks for reminding me dad."
I have been scolded lately because I'm always late. Well, I can't blame myself because I'm so busy and I still have my father to take care of.
"John? Our manager wants to talk to you."
"Okay ma'am."
I know what will happen after passing the door of my Manager's office. I don't want to lose this job. I've been dreaming of this since I was just little, and I don't want to take this away from me. It's been a decade since I started my work in her and I cherished every single one of those.
I gladly greeted our manager and slowly seated at the front of her table. She replied with a serious and a strict face, the way she did every time she fires someone. I can still remember the time when she fired my girlfriend, who come to be my ex-girlfriend. Yes! You heard it right.
"John? I saw your DTR and I noticed that you are tardy lately? Is there any problem?
"No ma'am."
I don't want her to share my situation right now. On how hard it is that I have to take care of all the things in our house most, especially to my father.
"I'm giving you a warning John. What you are doing is not good anymore. You are already aware of the rules, and regulations here in our company and if you want to stay longer, then you have no choice but to follow."
"Yes ma'am, I'm very sorry. I promised to be early starting tomorrow."
"Good. You can leave my office now."
"Thank you, ma'am."
Now I know the feeling of being scolded by someone. Ever since I never experienced it. Even my mother and my grandparents, they never did that. That is only because they just let me do things to whatever I want and that's the reality about me. No one actually cares for me.
"John! Come over here!"
"What is it Francis?
"What happen to the office? Did she scolded you?
"Well of course, is there any other reason that you can think why I was being called?
"Maybe she confessed that she likes you? Yieeee"
"Stop joking Francis! It's not funny."
"Sorry John! So tell me the reason?"
"It's because of my tardiness okay?!"
I can't help it but I spit all my anger to Francis. I just can't bear myself to be angry because I did not defend myself.
"Woah woah! Take it easy bro!"
"Sorry Francis… I just feel frustrated."
"Just calm down, and accept it. It's your fault anyway right?
"Yes. But Francis I'm really trying my best to go to work early, it's just that…."
"What? Tell me?
"I need to take care of my father first and besides, I just can't leave him without feeding him, taking him to a bathroom and all the other stuffs. Do you understand my situation?
"Yes I do John. However, you have your work and you also need to be in time. The solution will be…. You need to wake up early and prepare anything for your father and for yourself so, you can come here not before the calling time. Is that alright?
"Okay. Thank you, Francis."
I just reply a nod without even thinking how hard my life was now. I was not able to manage my time at work in taking care of my father. If only I could resign, I would probably do but money is also in need. I'm happy with my father now, but it's just so hard to deal with this kind of situation. No matter how early I get up, it's still useless. I can't help myself seeing my father struggling in pain while I myself go to work for him. It's still useless.