After all the pain and sorrow, I decided its better to have Michelle as a friend....an angel whom I will admire and love from far...
It is not an easy task to just skip her off but eventually I will let her go...hopefully time will help me, move forward....
I am lucky in a way, we don't have the exact subject combination as Michelle which means I dont have to force myself,when it becomes too unbearable...
I decided to embrace myself along with the pain, as it was the only way, to walk towards a new path...
A path, where I stay along the sideline and watch Michelle... till we graduate and our path bifurcate.. and it becomes a distant memory.. ..
The next day, as a sign of a new beginning I got up earlier than usual and, cleaned out all the trashed.
Mrs Bispectacle sloth, our landlady did not appreciate at all when she saw me holding my big disposal bag....as I walked towards the waste bins.
" I prefer tenant who keep their rooms clean and respect their belongings" She said sarcastically.
" Yes, Madam. " I replied apologetically.
" Destruction of property, will lead to additional charges. " She added, before she left.
Oh! come on! I am not a destructive person!!!..
oops!! She might have heard me punching my pillow, and screaming inside the pillow... during my frustration days I thought...
Anyway, she has not told me to vacate yet... so, I should be careful and take what she just said as a warning sign...
After my bath, I thought as I looked at myself in the mirror, hmm... let me commemorate my new beginning with a new look...
I dressed up, and went to a parlor and got an A shaped hair cut, straighten and colored as well... I felt lighter and better, as if a load has been removed from my shoulder.... I even went and had a nice cup of coffee....
Before returning home, I had a big bowl of chicken noodle....which I enjoyed, it felt so long to have the feeling of warm spreading slowly ... I also took a walk back, without boarding on the bus...
While passing by the candy land shop, I felt slightly tense... my hand clenched to form a fist,while the other grab on to my sling bag... it was all an involuntary movement... till I passed on, the shop.
*Click*
I opened my door and entered the room. I was somehow mentally and physically tired that I flop onto my bed...
I replayed the moment, when I just happened to look inside the candy land shop and saw Michelle.... as usual, she was looking so cute and alluring at the same time even with the work apron....
Our eyes met, she smiled and waved at me...ah...that killer smile... I was so tempted to get an ice cream then and there....
But, this time I walked on as I wave back at her... she has no idea that she was disturbing my bodily functions... oh, how ignorant you are my dear... I told Michelle in my mind....