"Tion.... Why..."
Tion's death... has been affecting me for these past 5 months... I... just can't accept it...
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"Kianna Percival? Kianna Percival!"
"psst- the teacher's calling you"
ahh... right...
I raise my hand... and she just continues her call...
"Kianna... I know that you loved Tion but... do you really have to be down about it? there's plenty of fish in the water!"
"sorry Mary... would you mind not talking about that... it's kinda pissing me off..."
"s-sorry! I won't disturb you anymore"
there's... really nothing I can do without him...
tonight... I'll do it tonight...
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the phone rings...
"yes?"
"hey? Kianna, where are you!?"
"you don't need to look for me... I'll just see you once you're ready..."
"Let's talk about this first! just wait for me! I'm in the elevator right now just-! wait for a second!"
nothing will change my mind anyway...
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barging in, opening the door rather violently and panting, one of my best friends... Pia...
"Haaahhh... Haahhh... Kianna... are you.... haahh... sure about this?"
I chuckle a bit... "sorry... sorry, it's just that... why do you bother to save me?"
"I'm... not here to save you... I just want to confirm things"
confirm things... I guess... it won't hurt. she sits down in an air vent and I sit down in the guard rail just sly at the end of the roof...
"number one... what did Tion do to make you like this Kianna? is there such a reason?"
a... reason...
"I... remember him... as my friend ever since I was little... he wasn't shy nor was he pathetic... but... when I knew about his past... his... circumstances, I just... fell for him... like that..."
I... really don't know why.
"so you're saying that because of what's happening to him at that moment that you loved him?"
"I... may seem like an asshole because of that but..." I look down at the roof, wondering if I could somehow escape this... "yes... it just... felt like I had to protect him..."
"okay... I think I get it... number two, what do you think of me?"
"you're... rather upfront about that... I... think of you as a friend... my best fri-"
she... kiss me... without another thought...
"that... will be my last kiss... sorry... I don't even know if that will change your mind..."
"i-... It's my turn to ask... why?"
"It's... the moment I found you with Tion... I... also fell in love... at... both of you... that might've been selfish of me but... when I see you like that... I just... couldn't... I can't..."
her tears drop and she suddenly burst and collapse...
"so-... sorry Pia... but I don't see you like that..."
"I know... but... it's... a memory I'll carry through tonight..."
she clears her face and stands up
"so... what'll you do now? Kianna?"
"I'll... still drop... what about you?"
"have... you ever heard the song nine point eight?"
"haha... so... you'll be coming with me?"
she smiles wryly... even standing on my side facing the outside of the building,
"nothing... will be the same once you disappear... no one will worry about me since my family doesn't even know that I'm gone"
"it's... great to never even think about family once you're knocking at death's doorstep... asking..."
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"so? you ready?"
without another word, with a synchronized motion, we take a leap of faith and drop from the roof.
with smiles on our face, she takes another kiss as her goodbye and then-
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"so... you finally commit your sin..."
a... god?
"I regret my creation... truly do I... I shall give you another chance although don't expect another chance, serve this as your punishment. live with your memories intact and suffer. the world you'll be sent in will be your hell"
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I wake up... is... this hell?
"move! damn brat!"
... they're... speaking... in a different language... but... why do I understand?
[I shall give you blessing to your convenience, forgive me but I have a task for you, if you complete it, I shall give you the chance to see your lover once again]
voices... in... my head...
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"who... are you?"
I... "Yuna... Aiha... what's yours, little child?"
"I... was called by the name Kirin... I have no name..."
[this child, protect it with your soul and you shall see your friends once again]
... I... don't know why... why do I have to do this?...
"excuse me... I'll be going back now"
"no, let me come with you..."
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"Yuna! would you mind guiding her?"
"who? your child? I thought Mei was in charge of that?"
"I'm sorry for troubling you... Mei is currently on her own researching something, can you please?"
"just... I have one condition, care to listen to a lonely girl?"
"I'm... fine... but please make it quick"
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"Kirin... why do you bother saving the world? there will still be deaths, you can't save everyone, why are you bothering?"
"why?... why indeed... I was ordered by a piece of paper and I immediately followed it without another thought, I just believed that it came from my creator"
"but your creator left you... why do you even bother?"
he stares in the unpolluted sky, with beauty such as this... it could also be said as miraculous....
"my creator's orders are absolute, there's nothing else that I would be bothering with. if you have further questions then I suggest asking once you relaxed a bit, there's a child waiting for you"
I put a joyous facade, as if nothing was wrong with me
"yeah... Yeah! c'mon Kirin! don't I have a job to do!?"
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I'm in a bar... singing because Theia asked me
"so? are you fine with this?"
"of course, I'd say that when I sing, it loosens me up a bit"
... lie...
"ho? I don't see it that way... but I don't have any reasons to pry further, I'm guessing that you don't want me to am I right?"
I put a wry smile and she just smirks
"well, I'll be going now, please do prepare your belongings just like I said."
I nod and began preparing to go home. just as soon as I was about to leave
"ni-... miss... was that... nine point eight?"
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"so... you know the song?"
"i-...t was... my favorite... who... are you?"
"Yuna... Yuna Aiha, what about yours?"
"Rin... No-... surname..."
"w-well... it's nice to meet you. I'll be going now, will you be waiting for me for my next song?"
she nods and I wave goodbye to her...
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I'm back in the garden where I've been hiding... the skies'... too relaxing... I feel like I want to be with them...
"so... you're here once again?"
"Kirin... what do you want?"
"Nothing, I was just going to ask you for a favor"
"This again? I keep telling you Kirin, I won't be a babysitter for them this many times, just let your sister take care of it again"
"sorry but she's already here. Liliya, please stay with her for now, I need to manage the next one"
"affirmative... I... Y-yes... K-Kirin..."
"good, try to fix her way of speaking too. well, I leave her to you"
haahhh... this is honestly annoying... I'm not good with children, let alone robotic children...
she just... stands there... staring...
"gahh... fine, fine... just my lucky night..."
"miss Yuna..-"
"just. Yuna... I don't like that kind of formality... so? do you have any questions?"
"yes... mind I ask, what should I do once I fulfill my mission?"
"ahh... that... well... let me ask you this, what do you think your creator is doing?"
"creating?..."
"Wrong! well... it's kinda funny if you say it like that, your creator is some sort of a dreamer, meaning that he always dreams the most beautiful outcome for him, if you want to find out more, why don't you ask yourself why you were created"
"why...?"
"well, don't take it from me, I don't know what his true goal is and I can't give two shits of a rat's tail about it... just keep in mind that you are your own person, if you're having a hard time and you can't escape, just think of the person that you either love the most or the person that's really close to you, at least, that's what I think"
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I feel like I'm taking care of my daughter... hahaha...
"Y-yuna... why do you always look at the stars?"
"hmm... probably because it's relaxing, I don't know if there' gods or higher beings but... seeing the starry sky just tells me that there's a lot of people that are experiencing the same shit like me... people who hide people who suffer... but... ... Hey, have I told you that your creator somehow looks like my lover in the past?"
"lover?... what's that?"
"ahh?! ehh... um.... a lover is someone you look up to, you really want to be close with them and... it's the first person and the last person you'll ever remind yourself when you're about to die... wait... I'm not supposed to say that to a child..."
"it's okay... miss Yin already told me about that... it's where people die and go to even or hell right?... when a person dies, you won't see them again..."
"yeah... you won't see them again... it's way too early for a child like you to understand..."
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"m-miss Yuna..."
"Rin, I keep telling you to never call me that... haahhhh... well, what is it?"
"miss Liliya asked me to tell you that she wants to talk to you"
"huh? o-oh! alright, just tell her that I'll be in the garden as always, so Rin? how's the new room? is it to your liking?"
"I'm... still getting ready for it... o-oh! I'm not asking for help... I can do it on my own..."
"well... as long as your fine with it"
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"Yuna? are you here?"
"ahh... Liliya, you do know that I'll always hang out here when I have time right? you don't need to ask, just call me if you want"
"y-yes..."
lying under the comfy patch of grass is always a great feeling when there's nothing dragging you down...
"so? did you want to ask me something?"
"y-yes!... well... it's... you told me 23 years ago about... the person who'll... no... nevermind that... what does love feel like? did you experience it Yuna?"
"didn't I told you that before? well... rather than that question, why don't I ask you something, are you in love right now?"
"N-NO!... not... that... I know of..."
haahhh... how I envy you...
"I'm... asking you if... I can discard these feelings..."
"huh? why?"
"My... battle sense are dulling... if I train, I can't help but think about him and... it... hurts..."
"it's because you're still not truly honest with it, just let it live for a few years and you'll make up with it, just be careful about it alright? sometimes, those feelings can turn you into a monster"
she stands up and bows, leaving me watching the stars alone...
"haahhh... I'll have to talk with Theia for that..."
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looking at them is like seeing a complete family... I'm happy for them...
[your mission]
"it's been a long time since I've heard this voice... so? what am I supposed to do now?"
[an extremist has now targeted you to die for the purpose of fulfilling her master's orders, you shall die in her hand]
"so... I finally finished m mission... so? when will she kill me? how?"
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silence huh...
don't get me wrong, I like this world, I finally felt that I had peace, serenity, I like this world more than earth... I wish I could've lived more than just a simple hundred years but... alas... nothing's meant to be kept for eternity... life will end even when I'm gone, enjoy it to the fullest whilst also wishing for death is something I have been bearing for these years... my mind hasn't changed since day one... all I wish was to see my Tion again... at least... even if he doesn't remember me anymore...
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"so? are you ready? Yuna?"
"Yeah..." with a convincing excited smile, I head out in the stage of the cafe with a guitar and coffee
this... will be my last... huh?
-a-ahh... excuse me, please quiet down everyone, I have a message for you all...-
everyone in the cafe, even the noisiest of the customers were silenced, sat down and focused their attention to me
-thank you for your attention... *ahem*... this might be a bit of a surprise but as some of the people who have heard rumors... "psst, c'mon Rin". . . this is Rin, Rin Aiha, she... um... she's my long lost sister and have the same talent as me, but... that's not what I'm here for though...-
"Y-Yuna! w-what are you doing!?"
"hehe... sorry, I got a bit ahead of myself, you should go along with it, you have a much more talented voice than I have and you could still improve, given the time, you could surpass me, you can't learn something from me though, that'll be like copying me, anyway, go where Theia is right now, it might be dangerous for you if you stay any longer"
with an embarrassed face, she hides and heads to the back... her cuteness is just something that I love to tease...
-now, if everyone might be asking why I'm saying this all now, it's because this might be my last concert, I'll be working on Kirin's orders from now on and I won't be coming back, though since this will be my final day, I'd like you all to listen to my last song, like the others, I've composed all of these myself-
it's a lie... I just know the songs from hearing it multiple times but, this last one is what I'm certainly proud of
-if you're all done with everything, I promise that this will be the greatest night for the cafe des Ursa, hopefully you all have a great time-
with the mic in my lips, I utter the song I finally composed and perfected in the last 10 years... it might've seemed long but this 8 minute song will be my greatest final moments...
[I'm not a composer guys, I only know how to sing. Riri, help me out here]
[once the song has finally been composed(if ever) there will be an update or a chapter dedicated to it, or probably a video if this lockdown subsides]
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the concert finished and Theia congratulated me.
"well, for our songstress to utter those words are something, so you're finally giving your torch to Rin?"
"yes... now... I have a guest so do you mind?"
"I'm guessing that I'm unneeded in this conversation? fine then, hopefully you have a great time in the afterlife, Yuna"
so you knew huh... well.. nothing will change...
a... silent whisper... barely audible yet why does it feel so familiar?
"I-... I'm sorry Kianna..."
a sword pierced my abdomen without resistance, I barely feel the pain yet my consciousness is fading...
"Pia... so you were here too?"
I cough out blood and see only the face of my assassin... it... really is Pia...
finally losing my consciousness, I returned to the place where I first saw death...
"so? how was your feeling of another life? since you followed my mission diligently, I shall give you your reward"
a blinding light formed out of nowhere and a ghost of Tion... or... what looked to be Tion...
"I only told you to see your lover, not a conversation, I will be giving both of you choices once time has arrived, for now, you will have to sleep in the Ethereal realm"
losing... consciousness... slowly... I see Tion's face once again, with a smile on my face, I finally lose everything that was human...