Warning: This chapter has heavy topics maybe difficult for some readers. Parental Guidance is recommended.
I saw a short timid orange hair boy coming toward me. He was kind of cute but he looked so lost and scared almost like he was gonna throw up his lunch when he runs fast! Super quick! He runs to the bathroom. I was confused what I did. While he looked at me. "IM SO STUPID!" I say with frustration. I'm so glad he didn't hear that. I thought about how is he gonna like me? I walked to the bathroom cause I was definitely not worried about him at all. I just needed to see if he was all right. He came out of the stall and he ran away. That day I felt a feeling and I don't hate it but I don't like it either. I was unsure at that point and Later that afternoon. I walked home. It was a train station near by my house. I thought about killing myself once or twice by the train. Once I saw him and he lived next door to me. Everything changed I Hadn't thought about doing it. All I thought about was him. He saw me and sprinted inside. I got really frustrated and yelled, "Why do you run away from me!" My parents heard me outside and they came running out. "IT IS NOTHING! LEAVE ME ALONE!" I went running to my room. They don't get it. They don't get that I like him. I know I just saw him but I feel something for him. All he does is run away from me. I take a bag of candy and eat the entire bag. I sob! "IM JUST A FAILURE!" I yell my heart out and listen to music. I fall a sleep with my arm wet with my tears.