Shufen didn't feel anything, she felt numbed after hours of staying in the rain. She felt number after the pain and misery. She felt numbed after screaming so much, and she felt numbed after all the things she experienced but she's still willing to forgive them.
Shufen has considered forgiving them but she cannot forget. There is that side of her brain that is constantly saying she has to forgive her family. That it was her for fault for being born. That it was just a phase that will go away and be one with the past.
But she knows. She knows better. She knows that if she ever did forgive them, she'll go crazy. Shufen felt her clothes fell off her body as Bao changed her wet clothes to new dry ones. She felt the chill after being wet by the rain.
