I don't remember how we first met. I was lost, lost in my mind and lost in this world. I wasn't unhappy or sad, but I was lost. And then Jimmy came. My Jimmy.
He is a cheerful man, always laughing, always cheerful. His family lives together on a huge farm in a majestic house. To me, it looks almost like a castle. Maybe it had once been one. Now, with our family filling it with happiness, it definitely is one.
I was shy around people, made a living from small crimes and invisible to society. But not to Jimmy. With him, it just clicked. We started dating, and he introduced me to his family. I was afraid to disappoint them - but they embraced me with open arms. His little sisters were the cutest, they braided me a crown of flowers, for the "new queen in the castle on the hill". Jimmy showed me his fish. He is so proud of them, some even have names. His face brightens and his heart opens up when he talks about them. I like to see him this happy. He has little wrinkles near his eyes that only show if he truly laughs. I have seen them quite a lot recently. And that makes me happy.
As I am writing this down, my memory slowly slips away from me. I hate it - so much that I almost start crying. I don't want to loose this memory. This dream. The castle on the hill was only a dream, and so was Jimmy, but it released a feeling inside of me which I want to keep. Nostalgia. I don't know where it comes from. Jimmy felt familiar, and just so real. I want to keep him. The harder I try to remember, the more disappears into nothingness. Only the feeling of an indescribable sadness stays, making me wish to fall asleep and see the castle on the hill again, and to see Jimmy again. But I can't, and it makes me even more sad. I see his face, faded and through mist, but I see it. By his fish pond, laughing. Warmth. Jimmy is pure warmth. I see this memory. The rest is almost gone. By this line, I don't remember much of Jimmy. Much less than at the beginning of this story. I cling onto the last bits of memory.
Fish
Farm
Castle
Hill
Big Family
Love
Nostalgia
True Love
Jimmy
My Jimmy
Unconditional Love
My Jimmy
I don't want to forget the castle on the hill, I don't want to forget Jimmy. But I will. My Jimmy will be narrowed down into his smile at the pond. So I am writing it down, to keep the feelings. And I am sharing them with you, to give Jimmy and his family a home, in your mind. If we forget them, they will die. Don't forget Jimmy. Please. I don't remember his face anymore. It doesn't matter - I know what he felt like. The emotions.
Dreams are Castles in the Hills. Keep them safe, in your heart. In them you will meet your family and friends. Don't let anything happen to them.