It has been nice to have Alivaric to stay with us for the week its a shame to have him leave and he's been a big help. At night time hunting on my own is great and I feel so free. Keithstone also loves having him around it really helped us by a lot and everyone always leaves and never really stays. Alivaric is staying until after I hunt and after I am going to have to figure things out on my own. I love Alivaric just as a friend and he's been more then kind and a good friend. He's seen my good and bad days and my sorrow and pain Alivaric has helped me through it all it's like having a way older brother who protects and helps out when he can.
OK OK I am getting way off here and stuck in my head as my son and Alivaric just stare at me. I make Keithstone his food and feed him and he's on sippy cups I still call them bottles and I leave him eat and I tell Alivaric I will be back soon and not to worry I go to my room and pick out the most sexy outfit I can think of that I own. I go back to the Human club/bar and I see Demetrius so I walk over and say hi and I can't shake the feeling but I know he knows about us as in Alivaric and Dorian other then myself. Demetrius and I have a good chat and I asked a few questions and he didn't answer them like normal humans would. I decided to cut the chit chat and went out on the dance floor and danced to a couple of songs. Demetrius brought me a drink and I turned it down and then with out another word I left the place.
Demetrius followed me and found where I was at he was still pretty weak and it was nothing but blackness around us because it was the dead of night and only a few more hours and it will start to get light out I had to think of something quick either turn him into a monster or help the man out I only had two choices and I didn't know what one to choose just yet. I wanted and needed blood though to and I needed it more then anything. Demetrius walks over to where I was and he said he knows about us and that he wouldn't say anything to anyone like they would believe him anyway. I felt as bad for having the thoughts that I did and he wanted me to turn him and wanted nothing more then to be what I was and that's when I made my decision and I couldn't turn him not because he wanted me to but because of he had a whole life ahead of him and he doesn't know what a broken heart truly is because he wouldn't have to live with it or even through it.
My heart has a never ending pain and suffering because I had lost the one who made me feel love and taught me what it was and how those feelings felt more then just great and perfect. Demetrius who looks so much like my Willstone just an older version and I couldn't not just that but Willstone was a werewolf not a human like Demetrius is. I slit my wrist and asked Demetrius to drink and he would heal and be just fine and back to normal. I never told him what was on my mind or in my heart because I will never let anyone that close not ever again. Demetrius did what I had asked and he took big gulps of my blood before I healed he asked the normal questions like will I become a vampire and will I have powers and all the other million questions added to that. I answered every last one of his questions and he didn't seem to happy with me. I decided to give him my number and I told him we would talk more soon or some other time. I told him what I was going to do and why. I went back into the building and found what meal I wanted and I snatched him up and he followed my lead and I took a big bite and my fangs puncture his neck as blood fills my mouth and damn does it taste so good.