I just got done moving my stuff into Scarlet's and my room and then she asked if we could talk I didn't know what to do so I just gave her a look. Scarlet even asked me two questions this girl is interesting and very bold.
She asked how I like my new life and the second question was what did I do with my life. I don't know how to respond to that really. "Scarlet I am not a big talker really not just that but I will only answer what you ask after no more for a while".
I told Scarlet that I love my new life but it comes with a price and sometimes I can handle and control it other times not so much. I also told her that I had a few jobs but quit because of what I was going through and I try to make each day count.
I asked her how she has been and decided to ask a couple questions myself like why did she give me this life and then just leave me on my own and my second question to her was why did she leave me as long as she did granted I am grown but it would have been nice to fully know the person who gave me this life.
I get everyone has there reasons and I bet she has hers I am just scared that she never wanted me in her life or to be apart of it all she could do was look at me then look down. Something is bugging her and I just don't know what but I know it's not time to open those can of worms up yet.
She looks back at me with a very sad face like she is about to cry I wonder why and what could be so bad in her life that she had to come all the way here. I don't get it but I want to but one of us has to open up first now I am thinking those questions weren't right to ask she is my maker.
I feel bad because I asked and now it's like she is in shut down mode. Apart from everything my past still haunts me the things I had done and people I slaughtered and murdered in cold blood.
Maybe being here isn't such a good idea I'll make cash fast and get far away from here she's got a baby on the way and not just that from what I can sense is a lot more issues then I maybe I don't know and I don't think her or me are ready to open them doors just yet. I just need to find a job fast so I won't be or get in her way.
I am just a big problem to anyone and no one wants me around and I have no idea why I just have that feeling. I keep thinking that there has to be more for me then what I have and I have to find out what it is. Scarlet left the room and came back like she read my mind she hands me two fat stacks of cash all in one hundred's and told me do what I want and left again. She said she was going to bed and left me with my thoughts.
I took the money and put it in a safe place so when I leave I have it on hand I don't know my next place or move but I have to do something to get away. I can't kill myself the normal way because I am a vampire and I can't take a humans way out and if I was to kill myself it would be the sun or some other painful way and it doesn't sound so pleasant. I have nothing and no one but yet now my maker decides to try and help and yet I don't wanna leave but I have too this isn't right. I go to our room and open her coffin lid and peek at her sleeping face and kiss her forehead and close the lid and go to bed myself with all the pain and hurt I carry in my head and the burden that will always will be with me.