CHAPTER 5
DECISION
Louise
I don't have a sleep thinking of what would be my decision coz I don't want to regret it. But it seems that if I refused they'll force me to do it. While I'm on the way to the faculty department I feel so nervous.
When I came there my hands become cold, I knocked on the door and search for Miss Sanchez and I can feel that she's waiting for me. She smiled and let me in, the other professors stare at me that's why I feel like a high school in principal office that will be given a punishment. "What's your decision Miss Madrigal?" she asked me with a smile that made me so nervous yet I fake a smile. "I'll accept the offer that you gave, I will join the pageant" I said that makes them to smile so wide. "Nice decision, I thought we will force you to join the pageant. For years we always offer you to join yet you always refused. Okay later after class you will see who's your partner and the one who will help the two of you on the talent portion. Come here later, is it clear miss Madrigal?" she said before I attend my class.
I'm thinking if I did the right thing, besides it's not bad to try new things and explore for it. Maybe it's the time for me to try contest that not related to academics which I can enjoy more. Maybe mommy will be happy if she will know that I join the pageant at least I try coz sister Loraine hobby is joining pageant and modeling yet they are so proud of her. Maybe it's the perfect time to be out on my comfort zone and do the things that out of my habit.
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When I arrived in the cafeteria the tables and chairs doesn't have a vacant anymore coz my professor dismissed us late, I'm ready to go and eat on the restaurant outside yet Jennica called me that's why I look at them. "Louise there's a vacant chair here, we reserve that for you" she shouted I feel embarrassed so I come to them while smiling hesitantly. People keep staring on our side yet they shrugged it off.
"Louise what's your order? I be the one to order, my treat" Archer said with a smile so I smile too. "Order anything, it's up to you" I said to him. After a while he came back with the food, I thank him and started to eat, too. When I arrived here they are eating already and I'm trying to be use of with them. I don't want them to feel awkward so I try to do their habit, too and join in their chichat.
They want me to join on their hangout yet I have to refused because mom will punish me if she finds out that I didn't go home on time. I can't say the real reason to them coz I don't want them to think that my mom is strict, it will affect their image. Even my mom didn't treat me right yet I don't want to ruin their reputation in my friends. I feel bad on my friends because I lied at them but I'm doing this for them to save them in my mother's wrath. When my mom finds out that I have friends, they will do everything to make them leave me alone and if I don't follow them they will hurt my friends. How wish I had a normal life which I can enjoy and do everything I want without a hesitation. A family that treat you right and make you feel that you are part of them and that they will support and understand you.
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When I came out of the room I saw a guy leaning on the door and approach me when he noticed me. "Hi, are you miss Madrigal?" he asked and smile. "Yes" I said and held his hand to me introducing his self. "I'm Michael Jared De Guzman your partner in the pageant, it's nice to meet you" he said with a smile so I introduce myself, too. We went together in the faculty room while having chitchat to ease the awkwardness and to be use on the company of each other for the pageant.
When we reached the faculty room we saw Ms. Sanchez with someone whose beautiful and smiling at the two of us. "it seems that you enjoy the company of each other by now and you two get along well that's why the two of came here late" Prof said with sarcastic tone that's why other woman laughed, we felt ashamed because she said it sarcastically.
"You shouldn't scold them Prof because it will be helpful for their performance to have the chemistry. By the way I'm Angelica Padua you can call me Ms. Angel" she said gracefully and we introduce ourselves to her. She asked us what are talents do we have to decide what would we perform in the pageant. They decided that we will sing while I'm playing the piano and Michael will play the guitar.
Ms. Angel said that she will be the one assist on us in the pageant because she saw a chemistry in us. She gave us tips for the pageant especially the do's and don'ts. She's fun to be with she made us laughed on her jokes and make us comfortable so she shared us many things. Tomorrow is the start of our practice with the contestants of the other courses then after that we have practice for the talent portion.
I'm starting to like what I'm doing and I'm proud of myself because I try the things which I think I can't do the things I know that I'm not good at. Expect the unexpected and I want to change myself for the better to have a better version of myself. A part of me want to do it for my parents to be proud of me, I hope so. Haist, good luck self!
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