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Happy 1st of March to you! Pasensya na kung late updates ko, super ngarag kasi ako sa requirements. Also, minsan kasi wala talaga akong maisip ilagay. I’m not the author kasi na may reserved chapters. What you see is all of what I have. :p Kaya kung wala pang UD, it means wala pang nasusulat. Hehe.
PS: Bukas na ang results ng final interview ko. Hoping to pass! OMG!!! Thanks to all those who prayed. And to all those who gave their goodlucks to me! Whew! This is it, pansit! >.<
Next UD: March 8. – Mhariz ♥
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• ALYNNA MARIE PAREDES •
Ang buong akala ko ay ikikiss ako ni Sky sa cheeks pero binulungan lang niya ako na 99% okay na daw kami. Nakakabwisit, infairness. Ibinuwis ko nga yung takot ko sa heights, nagpatali na nga ako sa harness na mukhang hindi naman matibay, at kung ano ano pa ang ginawa ko para lang makuha yung pagpapatawad niya, tapos ngayon bibitinin pa rin niya ako ng 1%? Ang lakas din talaga ng trip nitong mokong na ito eh. Hindi ko talaga maintindihan kung bakit ko pa siya nagustuhan! Hmp!
“Hoy! Ang daya! Bakit 99% lang?!” reklamo ko sa kanya.
“What?” natatawa niyang sinabi.
“Anong what?! What what-in ko mukha mo diyan eh.” Napipikon na ako. Hehe. Ang pikon ko talaga.
“Nobody’s perfect.” Natatawa pa rin siya.
“Ah ganon ah!” tumingkayad ako para halikan siya para mapunan yung natitirang 1% pero umatras naman siya agad na siyang ikina-out of balance ko. Nahulog ako sa mga bisig niya. At ang hinayupak, natatawa pa rin! Grr!
“You can’t use that technique on me again, lady.”
“At bakit?” tinaasan ko siya ng kilay.
“You kiss gives me 10%, remember? Lalagpas tayo sa 100%. It’s called disqualification.” Natatawa pa rin siya. Bwisit!
“Aakyat ako ulit!” tinuro ko ang rooftop kung saan ako nakatali at handa na sanang tumalon kanina.
“I doubt you can. Ang duwag mo kaya.” Lumakas pa lalo ang tawa niya.
“Ang daya mo talaga!!!” sigaw ko sa mukha niya. Wala akong pakialam kung matamaan man siya ng daig pang shower kong mga laway. Pinagpapapalo ko rin ang kanyang muscular na dibdib. Grabe, may abs sa braso!
Hindi siya sumagot at hindi rin siya umilag sa mga palo ko. Imbis, niyakap lang niya ako habang natatawa pa rin. Ang gwapo ng smile niya. At ang sweet ang itsura namin. Para kaming mag-jowa na ulit. Kilig! Hehe. Grr! Landi! Umaandar nanaman yung haliparot hormones ko kapag si Sky ang kasama ko!
“Yes, I am madaya.” Sabi ni Sky. Ang conyo ng dating. Edi... wow.
“H-Hoy, bakit mo ba ako kinukulong sa mga yakap mo? Alam mo bang ang close close na natin? Kulang nalang…”
“…we kiss?” tuloy niya sa sasabihin ko sana. Totoo naman talaga eh. Sobrang lapit niya kaya sa akin!
“Oo! Pero hindi mo tinutuloy!” inis kong sinabi. Nagmukha yata akong medyo desperado sa kanya pero hinayaan ko nalang. Nasabi ko na eh.
“I love teasing you.” Sabi niya. Nang-aasar. Paborito talaga niya akong ganituhin!
Naiinis na talaga ako sa kanya. Ayoko sa lahat yung binibitin ako. Pero alam ko naman na doon talaga tuwang tuwa si Sky. Tuwang tuwa siyang malaman kung gaano niya ako pinasasabik sa kanya. May pagka-sadista yata ito eh. Pero hindi ako pwedeng magpatalo. Kailangan kong mag-isip ng bagay na siya ang maiinis. O siya ang matatameme. Kahit mahal ko siya, hindi ako pwede magpatalo!
*LIGHT BULB!*
Bigla kong naalala yung mga chat namin. At syempre, ang pinaka naaalala ko sa lahat ay yung nahuli siya ni Shibama. Hindi ko pa nakakausap si Sky tungkol doon at hindi ko pa rin siya napapaamin tungkol doon. Kahit medyo halata na si Sky nga iyong nagcha-chat sa akin bilang si Ash, gusto ko pa ring marinig mula mismo sa kanya na siya nga iyon. Gusto ko marinig galing sa kanya na ginagawa niya iyon kasi hindi niya ako matiis. Gusto kong sabihin niyang nagawa niya iyon dahil mahal pa rin niya ako.
“Chat.” Simpleng sabi ko. Pero syempre, pinalilisikan ko siya ng mga mata. Gusto ko mag-ala detective ngayon eh.
“What?” kitang kita ko kung paano nawala ang ngiti sa kanyang mga mata at labi pagkabanggit ko nung salitang iyon. Ha!
“Ikaw yung nagch-chat sa akin, di ba?” tinasaan ko siya ng kilay.
“No way.” Tumingin siya sa malayo. Huli ka na balbon! Umamin ka na kasi!
“Kaya mo ako chinachat kasi mahal mo pa rin ako hindi ba? Aminin mo na kasi.” Tinusok-tusok ko ang tagiliran niya gamit ang aking daliri para asarin siya pero hindi nagbago ang ekspresyon ng kanyang mukha. Seryoso pa rin pero hindi rin maalis na hindi siya mapakali. Bwahaha.
“Dream on.” Sabi niya. Aba! Ayus ‘to ah! Nag-jojoke nga lang ako eh! Sineseryoso naman niya agad. At take note, nagwalk-out pa!!! Iniwan ba naman ako dito sa school grounds! Pasalamat siya at yung mga ibang nanunuod na tao ay nagsiuwian na. Kundi mapapahiya nanaman ako dahil sa kanya. Grr!
Ang tigas tigas talaga ng ulo nitong si Sky. Pride kung pride. Pinaglihi ata siya doon. Ayaw magpatalo. Ayaw umamin. Ayaw niya lahat ng ika-mumukha niyang talunan. Pero iyong mga pag-uugali niyang iyon ang tunay ding nagpa-ibig sa akin sa kanya.
Mamaya pa konti, aalis na sana ako sa school grounds kasi wala na rin naman akong kasama, pero nakita kong bumalik si Sky at naglalakad siya ngayon papunta sa akin. Ewan ko pero bigla nalang bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko, pabilis na pabilis habang palapit siya sa akin. Hindi ko maintindihan kasi kanina naman magkasama kami, pero ngayong palapit siya, nagwawala nanaman itong puso ko. Iba talaga ang epekto sa akin nitong lalaking ito. Wagas!
“Did you really lost the thunder necklace?” tanong niya nang nakalapit na siya. Hindi ko siya sinagot ng salita. Pinakita ko lang sa kanya ang necklace na natatabunan lang ng damit ko. Suot suot ko pa rin ito.
“Simula lang binigay mo ito, hindi ko na ito hinubad pa.” ngumiti ako sa kanya. Ngumiti rin siya sa akin at hinalikan ako sa noo bago muli siyang umalis na sa school grounds at iniwan nanaman ako.
Hindi man niya direktang sinagot ang tanong at ang mga paratang ko sa kanya, parang nakuha ko na rin ang sagot na kanina ko pa hinihintay. Ang itanong lang niya kung suot suot ko pa ang necklace at ang ngiti niya nang nakita niyang nasa akin pa ito, sapat na yun sa akin sa ngayon.
1% more, Ynna. Malapit na.
***
Masaya akong naglalakad palabas ng ECB dahil sa naging pag-uusap namin ni Sky nang biglang may humarang sa akin na isang babaeng kamukhang kamukha ko. Sino pa ba, kung hindi ang ate. Sa isip isip ko, ano nanaman kaya ang gusto niya sa akin? Hindi pa ba siya nasasawa makipag-away sa akin? Hindi pa ba siya nasasawa sa walang kwentang pakikipag-kumpitensya niya sa akin?
Pero biglang nawala ang palaban kong aura nang nakita ko ang mga mata ng ate. May namumuong luha sa mga mata niya. Kinusot ko pa ang mata ko para makasigurado sa nakikita ko at totoo nga. Mukhang galing sa pag-iiyak ang ate. Bigla tuloy akong napaisip kung ano ba ang pwede magpa-iyak sa kanya gayong nasabihan ko naman na si Dave na alagaan ang ate, nasabihan ko na rin si Dave na iwasan niya ako kapag nariyan ang ate.
“Ate, bakit ka umiiyak? Ano ang problema?” panimula ko. Umasta akong aalalayan siya. Hinawakan ko ang kanyang braso na siyang bigla naman niyang pinalo papalayo.
“Don’t touch me!!!” sigaw niya. Napaatras ako.
“Ate..”
“Niloloko ka lang ni Sky! Niloloko ka lang ni Sky!” sigaw niya ulit. Kumunot ang noo ko sa pagsigaw ni ate ng tungkol kay Sky. Bakit niya sinisiraan si Sky sa akin gayong malapit na kami magkabati?
“Ate naman, tama na.” sabi ko.
“Bakit ba sobrang sunud-sunuran ka diyan kay Sky? Bakit ba sobrang bait mo?! Naiinis ako sayo! Bakit sobrang bait mo!?!?” umiiyak niyang sinigaw sa akin. Hindi ko alam kung ano ba ang pinanghuhugutan ni ate sa mga sinasabi niya sa aking ito. Hindi ko siya maintindihan.
“Hindi ako niloloko ni Sky, ate!”
“Niloloko ka lang niya! Ang tanga tanga mo! Kitang kita naman ng lahat na niloloko ka lang niya!”
“Oo! Oo! Sa paningin mo at sa lahat ng taong hindi nakakakilala sa akin ay mukha akong desperadang manliligaw ni Sky na gagawin ang lahat para sa kanya. Yun lang naman ang basehan mo hindi ba ate? Yung mga nakikita mo yung mga pinaniniwalaan mo!”
“I hate it! I am just saving you! You see, I really don’t care about you but… but… I hate how you are pushing yourself down just so you can be with that Sky!”
“Marami ka kasing hindi alam! Wala ka kasing alam sa akin!” sigaw ko sa kanya. Ngayon ay umiiyak na rin ako.
“Tell me, then!”
“Alam mo bang sinave niya ako sa mga bully noon? Alam mo bang pinahiram niya ako ng jacket niya para walang makasilip sa akin? Alam mo bang chinachat niya ako lagi at nagpapanggap siyang si Ash para mabantayan niya ako?! Wala kang alam! Wala!
“Kaya huwag kang manghuhusga sa lahat ng mga pinagdadaanan ko kung wala ka namang ka-alam alam! Minahal ako ni Sky bilang ikaw noon, at kahit na nakagawa ako sa kanya ng malaking panloloko sa katauhan, mahal pa rin niya ako. Ngayon sabihin mo sa akin, hindi ba pagmamahal iyon?! Ha?”
“Stupid…” sabi ni ate. Umiwas siya sa akin ng tingin.
“Kung si Sky na hindi ko kamag-anak ay sinusubukan akong tanggapin bilang ako, kaya mo rin yun ate. Hindi ba dapat ikaw nga ang unang makatanggap sa akin dahil kapatid kita eh!”
“Stupid! That’s bullshit! I hate… I hate that I cannot hate you despite all of the things you’re doing to me!”
“Ano ba ang ginagawa ko sayo ate? Ate minamahal ka na nga namin eh! Ano pa ba ang kulang?!”
“Same as your explanation above!”
“Ano?” naguguluhan kong tanong.
“Sila Karen at Debbie! They are my bestfriends! Pero what?! Tumatakas na sila sa akin so that they can help you in your craziness over that Sky! Alam mo bang sila nalang ang meron ako ngayon?! But wow, surprisingly, in a blink of an eye, they are already on your side!
“And Dave! Fucking Dave! Nung una, naiinis ako dahil akala ko mas gusto ka na niya sa akin. But then, mas nakakainis pala yung malaman mong lahat ng iutos ng half sister mo, sinusunod ni Dave.”
“H-hindi kita maintindihan, ate.”
“Ikaw ang nagsabi sa kanya na mahalin ako right? Ikaw ang nagsabi sa kanya na iwasan ka na niya right? Akala mo ba hindi ko yun mapapansin? Anong akala mo sa akin, walang utak?! Damn! You are controlling everyone around me! You are controlling everyone that supposed to me mine! You are controlling my life!
“But you know what I hate the most? I hate that by this moment, I should be hating you! I should be doing things for your life to be miserable! I should be making your life a living hell. But I can’t! And I don’t have any idea why!” sigaw niya.
Kahit halos tuwing mag-uusap kami ng ate ay puro sigawan nalang ang nagaganap, itong pag-uusap naming ito ang pinakamakabuluhan. Ngayon ko lang na-realize na sinasabihan ko lagi ang ate na kilalanin niya ako. Pero ako rin pala mismo ay hindi rin siya kinikilala ng tuluyan.
Nagulat ako sa mga sinabi niya tungkol kay Karen at Debbie. Ni hindi nga ako kinakausap ng mga yun eh. Pero nung mga nakaraang araw kung saan lagi ko ring nakikita ang ate na mag-isa lang at walang kasama, nakaramdam na ako na may mali. Pero hindi ko naman inakala na tumatakas sa kanya yung dalawa. At hindi kong talaga inasahan na dahil pa sa akin!
Sa mga sinabi sa akin ng ate ay lumalabas nga na kinukulong ko siya sa aking control. Hindi ko naman sinasadyang maging ganun. Pero naging ganun na. Wala na akong magagawa. Pero ang tila ikinasaya ko ay yung hindi niya ako magawang kamuhian. Siguro ay nasa lukso na iyon ng dugo? Hindi ko rin alam. Pero masaya pa rin ako sa mga sinabi niyang iyon. Kahit papaano, mukhang nag-aalala pa rin siya sa akin.
“Siguro ate, hindi mo talaga kayang kamuhian ng tuluyan ang mga taong mahal mo.” Sabi ko sa kanya.
Pagkatapos ng huli kong sinabing iyon? Hindi ko na alam ang nangyari. Hindi ko man lang narinig na nagsalita pa si ate. Hindi ko na alam kung ano rin ang nangyayari sa paligid. Parang biglang nanlabo ang paningin ko. Biglang umikot ang mundo ko. Pinilit kong maging malakas at tumayo pero habang mas lalo kong pinipilit, mas lalong nagiging malabo ang paligid. Hanggang wala na akong nakita kung hindi purong kadiliman lang.
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• SKY JAMES ANDERSON •
Name: PAREDES, ALYNNA MARIE ARQUIZA
Age: 17 years old
Birthday: December 25, 1997
Height: 5’4”
Weight: 45kg
Hometown: Panglao Island, Bohol
Father: PAREDES, PETER CUARESMA
Mother: FORTALEZA, LALAINE ARQUIZA
Sister: FORTALEZA, JANINA NICOLE ARQUIZA
I was busy searching the net for more details about Ynna’s real identity when I suddenly saw a hate blog about her. It was made by her sister, Janina. I can’t believe how she can do that to her own sister. All Ynna showed her was love and respect and this is all Ynna get as a prize? What a fucker. That’s when I realized how lucky I am to have Ash. He might be annoying most of the time, but I know that he will never do hate blogs about me.
My fists clenched. I never wanted to see anyone say bad things about my girl. Especially when I know that she didn’t do anything bad at all. I felt that I needed to do something. But before I make a move about helping Ynna be in good terms with her sister, I believe that I should be fixing our mess first.
Since it’s the weekend, I decided to meet up with my team, The Vengeance, tomorrow morning at our family restaurant at The Fort. I really wanted to clear things out with them. It has been weeks since I last talked to them. I was spacing out so bad because all they do is to help Ynna and her courting tactics. As girly as this may sound, but I was kinda feeling hurt because that’s when I wanted them to be at my side. But they were all there for Ynna.
But now, I realized that I am just being eaten again by my as-big-as-jupiter pride. What The Vengeance did was the right thing. I realized a lot of things without them. It has been an eye opener for me. I also saw how lucky I was to have Ynna do that for me. Right now, I don’t even know if I deserved all that from a beautiful girl like her. I must really make it up to her, as soon as possible.
I remember our last conversation a while ago. I was teasing her for a kiss that’s not gonna come. Now, I am regretting what I have done. I should’ve kissed her passionately. I should’ve said how much I love her. We should’ve been together by this moment. But I also believe that everything happens for a reason, maybe we really should not kiss that time for me to fix everything first. I need to fix myself first. Tomorrow I am talking to The Vengeance to clear things up. And with all my strength, I will also talk to my mom and dad tomorrow. It’s going to be a big scary day.
‘I must take a long rest. Ynna, please stop running on my mind.’ I thought as I slowly closed my eyes to sleep. She never actually stopped running in my mind, because even when I was asleep, all I ever dream about is her.
***
Morning came and I am already here having breakfast with The Vengeance. We were all quiet eating our meals when I decided to stop the crappy silence.
“Why are you still helping Ynna?” I asked, as straightforward as always.
“Because you are not helping yourself.” Answered Ash.
“I am now.”
“How sure are you?” it was Erick.
“100%.” I smiled. A genuine one.
“So mahal mo pa nga siya?” – Dwight
“I don’t think na nawala yung love. I think nagkaroon lang ng galit. But the love, hindi yun nawawala that easy.” – Austin
“Woah, Aus! May pinanghuhugutan ka ba?” teased Clyde.
“Gago wala.”
“Na-gago ka tuloy! Wawa ka naman Clyde!” – King
“Gago isa ka pa!” Austin to King
“I want to win her back with my own ways. But I am really thankful for all the time and effort you gave to save our relationship. You really are my true friends.” I said out of the blue. I am not that kind of person who give ‘Thanks’ a lot but my love for Ynna made me change for the better. I even thanked Ash. And I can say that I am now praying regularly.
“Shit! Naiyak naman ako dun! Nag-thank you si Sky!” said Viel. Tss. It’s obvious he’s faking his cry.
“Good luck bro!” said Chase with a smirk.
“But seriously, thank you.” I said again.
“Oo na oo na! Welcome na po! Tama na drama!” interrupted Dwight who has now teary eyes. I wanted to laugh but I don’t want to ruin our gay moment. It’s so seldom we have this talks that I wanted to prolong it. They really are like my brothers. The Vengeance is my extended family.
“But I have one last thing to fix.” I said.
“Mom and dad.” Ash answered. He's right.
“Kuya, I want to talk to them. Please help me.” I begged. This is the first time I asked help from him. Also, it’s my first time to call him that way. Kuya.
“Sure. Anything for my brother.” Ash smiled. "And thanks for calling me Kuya."
“Whooo! Bromance!!! Hahahaha! Kapag naayos na yan sa parents niyo, painom ka naman, Sky!” cheered King.
“Sure. We’ll be partying after all is well. Mark my words.” I promised them which made them cheer harder.
The day went by fast. I am now here at the Anderson Head office where in Ash specially made a meeting at a conference room for our family to gather. I hated how it is so formal, it is so business-like. Family should be talking casually at home like what normal people do. But I guess being part of the Andersons will never be normal. I should be used to it.
20 Minutes…
30 Minutes…
1 Hour…
It was an hour waiting in silence when finally mom and dad came at the conference room where Ash and I were at. I stiffened. I didn’t know I was holding my breath not until Ash patted me at the back and whispered ‘Relax, they are your parents’.
Sure, they are my parents. But I have always been very formal to them especially to dad. I always spaced out to my dad. I never wanted to get compared to Ash. I never knew that not wanting to be compared may turn to something like this. Something really awkward. It’s like Ash is his only son because it is only Ash he is always seen with in the company and in everywhere in this earth.
“Sky, Ash.” Mom started. “What brought you here?”
“Mom, Sky has something to say.” Said Ash. Mom looked at me. She’s calm and very pretty.
“Uhm, yeah. I-I…”
“Are you stuttering, my son? Now that’s new.” Said Mom with a teasing sound. I looked at dad and he seem not to focus on our conversation. He’s using his laptop, working, as always.
“Sorry mom, I’m just kind of you know, nervous.”
“Why?”
“I’m here to talk about…”
“Is this meeting about Alynna Paredes and your relationship with her?” asked Mom that shocked me. H-How did she know about my Ynna’s identity, her real name? How did she know that I was about to talk to them about her?
“H-How?” I asked. Confused.
“Son, listen. Peter, Alynna’s dad, is my childhood friend. We were really close then together with Lalaine, Alynna and Janina’s mom. Janina used to be called ‘Nini’ while Alynna is ‘Riri’. They were the cutest sisters back then.”
“So… you… knew… everything…” I can’t make my words right. I was in a real shock. Was I spacing out that badly that I didn’t even noticed mom and his knowledge about the sisters? Is that how bad of a son I have been? And seriously? Riri?
“Yes, I knew everything. I knew that she was Alynna and not Janina when I first met her at our residence back then. I actually hated her for a moment there because she is obviously lying on your relationship with you. She is having a relationship with you and yet she is using another person’s name.”
“And you didn’t do anything?”
“I actually had a hard time asking myself if I were to be on the good side or the bad side… but Richard here made me chose to be on the good side. Your dad here wants you to be responsible enough for your own relationship.”
“D-Dad?” I repeated. When I looked at dad, he’s still looking at his laptop. His eyes is very serious.
“Yes, he asked me questions. Do Sky love the girl? Do that girl love Sky? Do they look happy with each other? Do they look like a good match? Do you believe that they have this what you call ‘Spark’? And when I answered all ‘Yes’ in all questions. That’s when I have decided to be on the good side. I know that everything is going to be alright in the end.”
“W-Woah.” is all that I can say. Ash, too, was quiet. I can’t believe that dad did that for me.
“Son, if you think that I don’t love you, think again.” That was Dad who’s talking. He is now looking at me. I wanted to cry like a little boy I was before. I never expected this moment to come. Never in my entire existence!
“Your mom and I are doing everything to make your life a good one. That’s our duties as your parents. Yes, I am disappointed when you said that you don’t want to take care of our business empire. And yes, I made Ash do all of it. But that does not mean that I don’t love you anymore or I love you less.”
“Dad, I’m sorry…” I bowed down, realizing all my childish acts.
“I knew how you liked that girl named Farrah before. I made a fake engagement thing to help you. I even told the country that our business is falling that is why Anderson’s and Alonzo’s need to merge.”
“Wait… what… our business wasn’t falling at that time? So all of those is just to set me up with Farrah?” I asked dad.
“Yes. You were very devastated that time because Farrah and Dave became together. I never wanted my son to be down that’s why I made such a crazy thing any dad could ever do to his child. I’m sorry for that.” Dad said, laughing. So, all of those engagement crap is just a joke! Now I knew why it never felt real.
“Dad, I’m…” I can't contain what I was about to say.
“Son, I know that I am not close with you. But I always see to it that everything is well for you. And as for that Alynna girl, I know she’s the best for you."
“She is… She is dad.” I agreed.
“Yeah. When you became in a relationship with her, you have been smiling a lot. And I even saw you praying at our altar – which you never did before.”
“Yeah.” I smiled. “She’s changed me to be my best self."
“And may I add, she is also the reason for this mini conference meeting of our family.” Added mom. Dad laughed at mom’s injection.
“And I believe that she will also be the reason for our broken relationship to be now fixed.” I said looking at dad’s eyes. He nodded. His eyes teary. And so are mine.
“Aww. Let me give my boys a big hug!” mom cried while hugging the three of us. I let my tears flow too. They are my family anyway. They should know the weakest part of me.
I never thought that this day would ever come. Thanks to Ynna.
***
Mom, dad, Ash and I parted ways after our mini dramatic meeting. My parents and Ash has a lot of things to finish in the different departments of the business. While me, I decided to drive home and have a rest. It may look like just any normal day to anyone but for me, this is one of the biggest days of my life. This is one of the days that I will truly not forget until I die. This day is now bookmarked in my heart.
While driving, I received a call coming from Shibama. What does this gay have to do with me? I answered that call and wished that it was Ynna on the other line, just using Shibama's phone because she already has no batteries.
“Hello.”
[Papa Sky! Emergency!] Shibama screamed in horror.
“What?!”
[Si Ynna! Nasa hospital! May dengue daw! She’s critical! Please come!]
“Wait, what?! Where is her hospital?” I stopped the car in panic.
[St. Lukes Quezon City!]
“Okay I’ll be there in five. Are you with her?”
[No! I’m still on my way too!]
“What?! Who’s with her then? Who brought her there?!”
[I don’t have any idea! Let’s just go!]
“Okay. Bye.”
I quickly reversed my car going to Quezon City. Who could’ve brought her there? Quezon City is very far from ECB. But I am somehow glad that she is at St. Lukes for it is known to be one of the best hospitals in the country.
Damn.
Fucking.
Traffic.
I punched the steering wheel. Fuck! Arg! This is all my fault. She must have got the dengue when she was on her harness to ask for my forgiveness. Or maybe she got sick because it was raining then and both of us were soaking wet at that time.
I hate myself. My supposed to be purpose here is to protect Ynna by all means. But what I did right now is to harm her. I was about to give her the news that everything is now alright regarding our relationship. I was about to tell her that my parents already approved us. That my parents and I already compromised. But how can I do it when she’s lying in a hospital bed with a total stranger she is with and I am here, stuck in a fucking traffic jam?
Oh God, why now? Why now when everything’s cleared?
Save her, please.