I sat there confused and bewildered. The feeling of fear fought against the sheer excitement raging inside my mind. I understood nothing about the strange aura seeping out of my body, yet I found myself dedicated beyond belief to understanding and manipulating this otherworldly aura. Many thoughts swept through my mind each along the lines of "I've done it." "I've awoken qi".
But after some time, the growing feeling of excitement became almost animalistic, thoughts like "if I knew this was possible, I would have held on for at least another 3 months" the pain I went through no longer in my mind at all. As if there never was a time in which I lied on the floor crying out in pain. Fear of pain was replaced with a desire for more qi more strength.
"I want more" I nearly yelled out. My face twisting into a beast-like smile, with teeth that appeared so solid that they could rip through steel. while clenching my first nearly forcing my fingers to rip through my skin. The sudden realization that id got much stronger didn't even register in my mind.
My body was drenched in sweat, sitting hunched over, glaring at my arm that appeared to be cloaked in a blackish white aura. Moving ever so slightly as though there was a cool wind blowing from all directions. After the feeling of bewilderment left me.
My mind instantly jolted awake, a slight shock was slowly traveling throughout my body causing my body to tense up until it reached my head sending a painful contraction than expansion feeling throughout my conciseness. A sudden desire to shoot lighting out of hands to breath fire, to shift the earth. Freeze the heavens, every stupid fantasy I had as a child shot up to the surface of my mind.
"I won't fail you young Alexander" my mind raged out. The sudden realization that I'm now essentially a superhero caused me to deepen my concentration. To completely detach myself from the world. I'm little Alice going down the rabbit hole, but instead of falling I dived in with a smile that would scare the devil and a burning desire that would silence all wishful fools.
I find that in every superhero movie the hero is always some dumbass that is for some odd reason afraid of his/her superpowers, some dumb desire to be normal haha. Not me, the first thing I did was try bringing this newfound power under my control. I wanted to see if I could in any way manipulate the qi to create some kind of weapon. The first thing I wanted was some offensive power, shaping the qi into some knife-like object was my first mission.
After some hours of sitting hunched over failing to shape the qi into a knife. I decided to try some other shapes the first was a sphere then triangle until id got through most of the basic elementary shapes that I could imagine. Surprisingly most of the shapes worked perfectly fine.
Though at first, they weren't as solid as I liked, I found that if I poured more qi into the object it became more real and started to carry some of the attributes of a real object.
After my first success, I found myself just moving forward towards the next then the next and so on. Nothing could break me out of my deep concentration. It was as though I was attempting to find the limits of qi. when I found out what I could use qi for, the only thought that flowed through my mind beyond that point like an unstoppable river was "What can't I do?" and with this thought in mind.
I simply continued from one success to another. Not affected by my success after trying some odd shapes like Möbius Strip which was just some vague shape one of my teachers mentioned during a class in middle school. After failing to create the Mobius strip.
I started creating a primitive theory of what qi molding was all about. At least at the beginning level, seeing as that's where I'm at.
My first theory was that I can't mold qi into anything I don't have a vivid image of in my mind, the reason behind this is because qi is at least to me. like a computer and if every aspect of it is not programmed to have or do a certain function then it cannot do said function.
Every minuscule piece of qi needs to be assigned a role, a destination. And if I can't do that then the object falls apart. Vague notions like knife, bowl, gun won't work.
I either need to create an image of a knife, bowl, or gun, with things like weight, shape, size, materials, etc. In mind that I want the qi to be molded after or use an already existing object and simply have the qi take its characteristics. But no matter which path you choose to take you needs an extremely vivid imagination and understanding of what you're molding.
After such a shocking realization I had to put my new theory to the test. I decided to start with what I thought was an interesting starting point. I decided to focus on molding a flower. First, I needed to find a decent flower to mold my qi after.
And for the first time in what seemed like days I got up off the floor walked outside and looked for a flower. The night sky appeared to smile down upon me, blessing me on my martial arts path. I welcomed the sudden approval of the dark night, by speeding my arms wide and taking a deep breath.
After sometime just about 1-3 minutes of running around at a speed that I could never imagine running at before swishing past everything, weaving in and out of the trees as though I was some kind of spectral being.
Taking in everything near me. My eyes couldn't miss an insect taking flight or an ant-eating its meal I could see the shifting of the wind and the different levels of heat in the air. I could see it all and move at a speed that could only be described as inhumanly.
After this, though I found what I was looking for, there was a flower with oval-shaped red petals and a green stem. It wasn't anything overly pretty or eye-catching, all It had going for it was being in a decent place that looked uncrowded.
I realized the trick to molding qi, is all about imagination, you must vividly present an image of the object you're attempting to mold qi into. After walking around the flower, taking samples of the dirt near the flower and studying it, examining the size and width, then I guessed the weight it could possibly have.
I concluded that I was ready to begin, I sat down for some reason a few feet away from the flower, placed my hands out like I was preparing to give someone a big hug.
I started with imaging the flower pistil, that served as the top half of the flower containing the stigma, style, pollen tube, etc., after managing to create this first portion of the flower I moved on to the red petals.
After this, I then moved towards the stamen the portion of the flower that manages the reproduction portion of the flower. After this part I found myself to be extremely tired, and drowsy I fought this feeling as much as I could, choosing to pull my mind forward by moving towards the next stage of the flower.
The leaf portion of the flower was the hardest not because it required more qi or anything like that no the only problem I had was a simple fact that I'm extremely picky, I didn't like it when the leaves appeared big and clunky or small and unimportant. The leaves were a big part of making the whole flower appear impressive and noteworthy.
I wanted the flower to appear deadly, I wanted it to have thin long leaves with gagged edges that moved with the wind. Slicing everything in its path, almost as a mindless killer innocent yet deadly. That looked as though they could rip steal into pieces. This process was made the longest simply because of how much detail I wanted to put into it. Doing this forced me to move away from the original flower, but that was alright I had all the functions down.
Remembering the functions from all the classes I took on plant life. The stem, receptacle, and sepal were the last yet simplest to imagine. My mind was on autopilot just doing whatever I could to get it done. Adding my own unique flares when I had the basic image done. With all of this put together I was done... the final image had a long thick blackish white stem that had dark void like pours all over it, with an all-white ghastly ball appearing more like a cocoon at the top.
All of this was accompanied by long blackish white misty leaves like things appearing to number in the thousands flowing freely in the wind. Just the sight of it made me feel powerful, as though I could slice the world in half.
But that was it. All I had was an image, "it does nothing" I thought while staring at it with an almost fury filled eyes. The great feeling of excitement while creating this wonderful thing now was replaced with a sense of nothingness. After looking at it some more trying to reach out and touch it but all that happened was my hand passing through it.
I realized I could add more qi to make it more solid but that was it, "this is the extent of qi molding" I said with a horsed disappointed voice. After what felt like an unexplainable amount of time staring at my creation. The whole thing began to fall apart. I was caught completely off guard, it felt as though I was trying to control billions upon billions of tiny sand-like particles.
Trying to keep them all in place, while all they wanted was to flow freely. The feeling of my mind splitting in two, with boiling water dripped in-between the cracks formed by my struggle of keeping the qi under my control. Left me seething in pain, even with this I knew I couldn't stop I knew how important this was, so I gritted my teeth and held on for as long as I could.
Just giving in was not what I believed to be the way of mastering qi, I had to control qi bend it to my will not the other way around. I could taste blood filling my mouth a metallic taste that caused my stomach to twist and turn every sensation of disgust were triggered.
I could feel myself holding back the puck, attempting to ignore the rumbling of my stomach. With that battle over I regained control the qi, but the image had grown smaller now appearing only about a tall as a ruler. And as wide as the average arm length. When I realized that I had regained control I called it quits for today. Deciding that I needed more knowledge about qi.
When I got up off the floor, I noticed that I had in a way left the trance-like state I was in before. Everything was no longer turned up to such an extreme extent. Now I could feel just how much had changed inside my body, I had grown just a little taller, my muscles became denser with a slight itching feeling all over my body.
With a slight jab, I managed to break a large portion of bark off a tree a few yards away. I stood firm flexing my muscles while staring at what I just did with a simple jab, I gazed in amazement at what I just did, almost wondering if I truly was the one who did such a thing.
After that I began racing through the forest, the speed was slightly slower than what I did to get here but only because I didn't want any of the branched or leaves to cut up my face any more than they already did. I had to have been moving over 30 mph with ease. When I reached the cabin, I quickly got the book off the bookshelf that I added to the cabin, as a means of hiding the book seeing as Mercia had been talking about coming up here, one of these days. Shit Mercia" I said racing towards my phone on the bed that I recently got.
"13 missed calls," I said while looking at the phone. "I'm absolutely not going to hear the end of this." I thought while calling her back.