With all that I have done for people....I never thought loosing someone would make me feel something. My love that settled in my soul has burned out.
The tear filled paper in my hand crumbles, the world around me..it. It feels like I am falling. I do not care about anything else today. I will not care tomorrow. If I have to raise my child alone, they it can happen. I have no choice but to let it suffer the harsh reality of the world. I can't give it the love it needs without him..
I take the seed everywhere I go. I wonder if my love will return but who knows. There's a pulse in the air. I can feel it getting stronger with every step I take. It's gotten to the point where walking becomes and issue.
Even the months after I have my first born, she withered away like dust. Losing people is painful compared to a necklace. Once again..I run. I run out of the home that made me feel free, breaking away from the hope I felt months ago. I ran to the point where I fell next to a river.
I looked into the waters and saw her..Her soft caramel skin, brown eyes and smile. Mother always told me that the water can convey emotion. The storms, rain, waves and even the tsunami's. If I could hold them both one last time I would. If I could hear them giggle, run, cry and smile, I would be satisfied.
The seed rolled out of my pocket and fell into the river. Floating away as a harsh breeze swept me off my feet. It felt like my soul was being sucked into a vortex and it was then that I heard a cry.
The firm hand of a man touched my face. He brushed my hair out of my face and there he was..my love. It was hard to hold onto what really went on.
"Honey, you're awake. Why did you run away from us like that? People were scared you were going mad." he said
"I-I don't understand. When did I run?"
"After Alaia was born, you screamed in the middle of the night. You said I was dead and you..I couldn't help you. We tried to calm you down but then you cried saying the baby died and you ran away. I had no choice but to use my power against you. After that, you fell next to the river. The other gods and goddesses came down to explain how your sadness had taken over. While you were recovering, I took care of our daughter but I think she really wants to see a woman who is heartwarming." he said, placing her on my chest.
The tears rolling down her cheeks brought me to tears, so I held her closely to my chest. Once she stopped crying, the world in my eyes began to shift, knowing that I was in a world of lies. The sky was blue and the season was warm..just like my soul that found it's way to me once more.