We were finally here...
Along the way, truly that I said before, I was sleeping like a baby and K pampered me also like a baby. After we took a small breakfast at nearby cafeteria, we waiting for our bus talking about random stuff and he happily go on with it but sometime he loves to put some funny story in between.
We share our moment by some story teller about our background. I just know that he lost his father couple of years back, the day he initiated to talk to me, that was his day started without a father by his side anymore.
I was devastated hearing his sad story. How was his father fight for his leukemia but defeated at last, the cancer win the game of Life. I was crying for him. I don't know how the feeling loosing someone I love but think again, I was already lost both my parents with some money they earned, some title they got, some friends they gained and some status they obtained pull me away from them.
But never mind...I'm always know of what I want and now one of my dreams became true: having someone to call boyfriend. K is my boyfriend. My first ever boyfriend.
Then he told me about his mother. She was fully blind since two years ago after his father died. Before this she still can see a bit by bit around 15-20% eyesight but loosing his father makes her gave up on her life, slowly her eyesight becoming less to see.
Last couple of years ago, her another 5% has already gone and the doctor declared that she lost her eyesight forever and gone blind completely.
I was double heartbroken upon discovery mostly about his family life.
What can I say more? He just sitting beside me with his smile-y faces like always appeared on his self. His eyes also. Not even sad but I could see he wasn't gave up at all.
"You might wondering why I could be like this, right babe?" he look me down.
I just nodded still in a crying state couldn't utter a single word to him.
"That was all because of you..."
Huh? Me? Why me?
I blinking look up at him didn't understand.
"When I was first time saw you walking alone, I knew you were just already revolves in your own world didn't care about others. Every single time we almost bumped together, you always in your own world didn't realised I was looking at you and one day I said to myself that I wanted to be in your world. I wasn't me now before I met you. I was much to in a gave up person, always feel defeated.
I keep questionings God, why did You test my condition and my family condition like this? Why can't I be having a happy family free from any sickness free from anything worried? What will happen if my parents gone and leave me behind?
Now, I've already got the answer. He guide me to you, babe. Since I lend my eyes on you, I don't know when I was like this. Whenever I was around you...I smiled not because so much happy to see you only but God up there knows something about to happen with us. We were send to each other to completed with each other."
I did nothing to you K. Looks like you were rescuing me from my black holes of my life not the other way around but now...I don't know...
Looks like we belong together...
"It took me two years just to stare at you. I really wanted to be around you all the time. Some kind like a magnet pulling me closer to you. Now...I hope we were inseparable forever because deep down me knew you were meant for me..."
He whispered the last sentence closer to me.
This is his confessions to me?
"Do you love me, K?" I couldn't wait it anymore. Please tell me the truth.
"Yes." he looks so confident.
"Why you didn't say so to me? Took you two years to woo me, K?" I swept away the tears just to look at him to understand him more.
He smiled.
He just smile...at me with his eyes put all the concentration on me...
And I was swirling into his dark abyss of his black orbs. It's dark like a midnight full of twinkling stars represent himself like the sky full of stars dedicated only for me.
Am I his first lover?
That thoughts came crossing me suddenly. My instinct says that I was not his first lover...
"Am I not your first lover, K?"
He smiled even more and nodding his head answering me directly.
"Do you still remember her?" I asked boldly but my inside it's started to burn within.
"Them..."
"Them?" I looked away. How many lovers did he have before? 2? 5? 10? or more?
I could feel his gaze on me.
"Jealous much?" he said it stilled on his smiling mode.
I gave him a kind of look. I'm not sure if I'm jealous or mad but more to I don't understand myself either. We just declared yesterday but on our first day...I prominently showcases my inner-self to him.
"It's all history, babe. I'm not gonna go back with them even if you don't want me anymore..."
I could detect his emotion trailing out when he finished his sentences.
"You just sounds like a defeated lover couldn't pretending our love line anymore... don't you ever said that again. You know that what we said it's becomes a prayer. You want us to be like that?"
I questioned him just to show how much it's disturbed me clearly on him.
"I know babe. I was testing you!"
I smacked his arm didn't like what he did to me turning away giving him side looks, sulking away...
I could see he smiles again leaning closer trailing kisses on my ear.
"Stop that! It's tickles me!!" I pushed him away and he just laughing at me.
"Can't wait to discover the tickle spots on you, babe!" he teased me with his double meaning words.
"Never! You won't discover it!" I said it with confidence but little did I know his fingers already make a move behind me.
"Really?" once again he teasing me.
Soon, I jumped on my seat, gasping once I feel something on my skin under my shirt. I stand up looking for something crawling out from its hidden.
"What's wrong, babe?" he sounds concerned but I could senses his amused tone behind it.
"I don't know...there was something there crawling under my shirt!" I claimed pointing at my seat.
He searching for something that I mentioned but couldn't find anything. He shrugged it off just like that.
"It's nothing here, babe..." he patting back the seat asking me to sit down back.
"You can seat here if you like..." he said patting his lap as an offer for me.
The heat rose up crawling under my skin to touch my cheeks. He stifling his chuckles but it's exposed and leaving him laughing teasing at me.
"It's nothing here...come..."
He waved me to come sit down beside him but I chose to sit away from that seat before afraid that thing would be under my shirt again.
He followed me and took a seat beside me just to make sure I was fine didn't looking around searching for some 'intruders'.
He might thought I was a funny person but I was totally, extremely ticklish person. Who didn't tickled if something happened to touch your forbidden spots for some fun? Of course you could respond to it immediately! Worse you can't even control it!
Huh! Off that topic!
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"Mom...we here!" he claimed out loud calling his mother and told her we already here.
I was standing there waiting for a person call mother.
Soon, I could see a silhouette come closer walking to the door.
How happy K once his gaze fall for that person upon seeing her smile widely for us.
Whaaattt?
"Mommy?"
I was gawking there couldn't believe my eyes at all.