"Mommy?"
I was gawking there couldn't believe my eyes at all.
She just standing there look exactly like the way how she was always dress up when I was younger. How on earth did she was K's mother? How—
Couldn't contain my speechless state, I just run and hug her tightly.
"Oh...my baby L...Oh my God."
I cried. Crying because for so many years I found my nanny that I called mommy, finally. I smiled in my crying still couldn't believe that today was my one of greatest days in my life.
"How—how I missed you Mommy...for all this years I've been looking for you but you just moved away. I'm sorry...I'm sorry...I'm so sorry about Daddy..."
She patted my back like she used to do whenever Mom and Dad leaves me behind.
Mommy and Daddy were the only two people that always be there for me but only for three years after my parents dicided to get divorce. That was the last day I saw them when Dad sold our house and brought me away from there.
I lost contact with both of the couple. When I asked Dad he just scolded me back because I was always pestering him. I just want to know if he knows about Mommy and Daddy whereabouts but he refused to listen to me.
Changing option, I did asked Mom the same question. She just ignored me like I was never existed in the same room with her continuing ignoring me with her job.
What more can I do? I was so young back there. I did try looking around in hope that I could meet them back but nothing. I had to swallow back my memories of them down to the abyss.
Until I let alone the memories at the back of my head, hidden away from my consideration I had to build up my own self. Nanny-less for the rest of my divided life, going alone to shape my own life, parents-less.
I had to endured everything alone.
Now...I'm not gonna leave Mommy again, never!
"Oh my poor baby..." she cried too. We together immearsed into our mix emotions.
I don't know how was K reaction because right now... Mommy was my main priority. She was the only one left after Daddy passed away but I got extra...K happened to be my Mommy's son.
What a greatest coincidence!
Then, he was hugging us both there at the door didn't care about the world...
Took us about half and hour to keeping down the sudden thunder of emotions, cooling down the swirling emotions when Mommy invited me into her house.
"I'm sorry L...a bit messy here..." she said it walking in front of me like she wasn't blind at all.
She was 'seeing' her house by heart. How she was just this old. The prominent wrinkles all over her delicate face. Her eyes shining glazed with white fog covering her entire black orbs. And once again my tears rolling down my cheeks. How she has changed. A lot. Not a better one but...
K patted my shoulder and gave me his gentle smile. Looking at him, the tears couldn't stop even I have tried to make it stopped. A soft sob escape from my trembling lips and my nose started to water. The more I swept the tears the more it coming out like a tap water.
"It's okay Mommy..." I could say it stifling my sadness back. I had to breathe in and out for several times just to make the sadness go away as long I following Mommy to I don't know where.
To the kitchen, finally. I sat beside her holding her hands never let go.
"I did not know you were my L so I just prepared a simple dishes for you as K special girl. Never in a million years I thought I could meet you...well more to hear you here." she smiled patting the back of my hand that I engulfed her hands tightly.
"I would love what ever you cook for me, Mommy. Even just a sunny-side-up egg every morning or some poach egg for me. I won't mind to eat them all."
Leaning closer to her side, I place my chin on her shoulder. I missed her so damn much! I missed her homey smells. Simply to say...I missed everything about her. So sad that I wasn't be able to hold Daddy like the old time anymore.
I smiled just looking at her.
My home... she's my home...
K and me help out at the kitchen, preparing all the essential before we eat together. I spoons her like she used to feed me whenever I requested it. Being the only sibling...I lack of love. I don't know how to love until Mommy and Daddy came into my life and changed that by teaching me everything from the small gesture until I gain the meaning of love.
All my world was them. Back from school I was with them, settling my homework with them, I was playing with them and basically they were both my parents, without any kinship between us they never stingy to share the love they had with me but I've never thought before that they had a child until today.
"Mommy~"
"Yes, dear..." she bend to me 'looking' into my face.
"Why you never told me K was your son back there? Where was he when you both with me all the time? Did you leave him behind?"
She let out a soft laughed at me and pause a few moments before answering me.
"He was loved to stay at his dorm all the time. If he wanted to come home, he just returned at your old house and stay in the room all day long. When you were at the school, he was out reading his comics and when you're back, he hide in the room never out. So...he never met you alive except for your pictures on the wall..."
I gave K disbelief look about his life with us before.
"You were always around but I've never knew about it. Wow— I just...it's hard to believe that but you..." I scoffed."Are you afraid I might scolded you, K? Why you never come see me there?"
I was overwhelmed with this news—old story that I've never come across if I wasn't met with him, Mommy and all this...
It's all written...this is the path that we came across but most importantly, we were much more than this before.
Living under the same roof but stranger towards each other.
He chuckles shyly looking away didn't dare to look at me in the eyes.
"He was a shy boy back there. Spend most of his free time by reading his comics, hidden away under his blanket..." Mommy tell me about his younger self.
"Yeah...more like I was always being bullied quite often. Then I was moved away to other school. I did lived at your old house everyday but never had intention to let you know about me. I saw you but I was too shy to look at you let alone to say hi to you."
"And now...where was the shy boy went? Holiday away?"
"I bet puberty did changed him but it was too late for him to initiate the first move when your dad declared he was selling the house so we had to move out." Mommy expressed her funny thought first but soon her tone becoming more shaken.
"Tell me more... I wanted to know every single thing what really happened after we've been separated..." it took me a lot courageous to get hold of my emotions after both of them turned silent didn't say a word.
I went my eyes back and forth between them two. The look on her face showed that the struggles that they had to endured. She tried to hide it from me but my keen eyes never leaves to detect her exchanging features. Same goes with K.
I could see his hardship on his expression. The way his brows creased into something, it appeared like he put a lot of effort just to give the best for both his parents but it took him a long journey to accomplish it. I bet Daddy only had a limited time just to taste his son achievement before he left forever.
They shared a lot with me including K's funny moments, stories about his first time flirting, how he got rejected by his first flirting girl. Mostly about himself. Mommy just happily spilled out the whole content didn't hide anything away from me.
And the rest of the day...we spends our quality short term time together. We cycling together. Laughing and teasing non-stop and finally...I'm able to spend my night sleeping beside Mommy on the bed while K was on the floor with thick layer of comforter underneath him.
How I wanted preserve Mommy into time capsule and bring her with me everywhere didn't care what people are talking about it. Can I keep her with me?
"Babe!" he whisper-yelled at me just to make me put more attention on him.
"What?" I replied with the same tone.
"Let's go fishing tomorrow?"
"Fishing? Where?"
"You will know...soon..."
Thinking...
"So...are you agree?"
"Okay!" I sneezed away for couple of time.
"Are you okay?"
"Yeah...I'm okay..." and now I yawned stretching my ached muscles get ready to sleep.
The eyelids started to off duty for tonight, a bit thickness and heavy with the sleepiness. She invited me to the dreamless land to stay there all night long.
Just like that I'm off!
"Babe?" he called me quite a few times but I was into another dimension couldn't reply back.
"Oh! You sleep already?"
That's the last thing I've heard before the sleepiness took me off to the dreamless land down there.
Goodnight!