Tears dropped from her cheeks. She could no longer hide her emotions. It sets Tim into panic mode.
"For goodness sake! Why are you crying? This is driving me mad Pam. What is the problem?" He really thought that he can talk to Pam cleanly about Lissy's ordeal but now he is more concerned on what her problem is. He was looking forward to see her smiling and not crying.
"I'm sorry..."
"Sorry for what? Did you cheat on me? What is there to be sorry about? I cannot guess Pam!"
She is now a little afraid of Tim, she had to bit her lips to control it from moving involuntarily. She was stammering, "the day before you left I accidentally read the message in your phone."
So this is why she is being strange that day. Not because of missing him but because of the message he read. He stared at her with his cold eyes.
"I am sorry I did not intend to read it but it happened. I don't know how to ask you." She wiped her tears and pulled some tissue to blow. "I was afraid you will tell me that you have to let me go because of her."
Tim is irritated to the max, clearly she was very bothered of something that she should not be. What is more irritating is that she seems to think he is the father of the child. She made a conclusion without asking him, "why? Why do I have to leave you? Tell me!"
Tim was very commanding, his voice was ice cold and if gaze can hurt she is probably black and blue already.
"What if she demands you to be responsible of the baby? What will you do? I cannot even have baby with you."
This somehow made him feel slightly better. The trust issue is not the main point but is not necessarily out of the picture. It's the baby thing. Somehow he knew this is her weakness.
"Tell me honestly were you thinking I am the father?"
There was a long silence before Pam could react, "there is a possibility...you were together before got married. Did you not make love with her?"
Tim could no longer press her to a corner on matters regarding trust issues, but he is still hurt.
"You were thinking about it for almost a week. Are you just going to let this create a gap between us? Then what? will you just one day stop talking to me and be gone?"
"I know I am partly at fault here, but how am I suppose to start that I was checking on your phone? That I am invading your privacy?"
"Why not?! I would rather you do that than be like this! The problem is exactly this! You don't tell me and you think or act on your own."
She was speechless, he is even willing to let her check on his phone. She suddenly felt too guilty.
Tim knew he had to arrest this behavior Pam. She cannot let her go on like this. This will break them again before he even realizes what happened.
"Pam I don't mind in future that you check on me. Even if you are just suspecting me of cheating on you, confront me. Yes I had faults too, why did not tell you about the message. Do you know why?"
She turned her head left and right like a kid.
"Because I myself is surprised why she had to message me about being pregnant. It crossed my mind is she going to claim I am the father? But I am sure 200% it's not mine!"
"So you did not made love with her before?" She shyly asked.
"We had sex once, and if there is someone who could have been impregnated, that is the bathroom. And it's a good thing that my semen just went away from my palm to the drainage. Otherwise this pregnancy thing could have been an issue!"
Pam turned red at how Tim is explaining.
"She is pregnant with someone else. She is on the way 22 weeks. If it was me then I am probably cheating on you but I never cheated on you! Never! Do you believe me?"
Pam nodded her head. If Lissy was in Shanghai there is no way that Tim and Lissy would have met between July to August. They were in touch almost everyday.
"I wanna hear it! Do you believe in me?"
"Yes I believe in you..." there was dead air after saying this so she went on and say, "I am sorry Tim."
"I don't want you to say sorry. What I want is for you to tell me what you feel regardless if it's good or bad especially if it concerns me. We do not need to agree on all things but you cannot let me be blind sided on issue Pam...stop doing that."
"I know that's why I am saying I am sorry for keeping it to my self. I am sorry that my head went wild without even asking you."
"I am hoping you will not hide anything from me moving forward. I will not accept any reason from you if you decide on something concerning us without telling me. There is no room for that!"
"I understand, I will talk to you if there is something bothering me."
"Good! Pam you are the most important person in my life now. I am sure you will away be number one in my heart. I will not lie, I care about Lissy as her ex boyfriend not because I love her, but because I am human too. However, it doesn't mean I will neglect how you feel just because I feel sorry for her. Whatever she ask of me in the future I will or decide on that considering how you feel if you are uncomfortable or unhappy. Do you understand?"
"I will tell you her story maybe tomorrow." Tim felt like he needed time to let Pam understand what Lissy has requested. "For now that story is not important." Today is a difficult conversation but always they should talk about it and not avoid it. He can tell that her face have lighten up.
"Will you call me tomorrow then?"
Pam just nodded her head and smiled. Finally that smile is what he wanted to see earlier to relieve him of the stressful thing that he learned from Lissy.
"Who am I to you?"
"Why?"
"Why are you asking why? Who do you take me for?"
She is confused but to avoid pissing him, "my husband."
"I am disappointed earlier and I probably will have a hard time sleeping."
"Are you seriously considering me as your one and only husband despite our distance?"
In all honestly she answered "yes!"
"Then I wanted to see you boobs now!"
Pam was speechless but she raised her tank top anyway and looked sideways.