Your body is wonderland. For whatever magic there is, this is Pam to Tim. It was hard to understand why Pam thinks she is never good enough for him. The feelings that connect him to her is unexplainable. It's a beautiful feeling that more than meets the eye.
Tim was like a raging bull, he started with missionary but Pam has been tussled in different positions. Because she was light weight Tim was able to move her easily. Tim filled her countless time. By the time he finished Pam is almost lifeless. She is terribly exhausted and probably burnt all the calories she had taken the day. The room smelt of love and sex. Neither is bothered, Tim scooped Pam who slept in fetal position with her back facing his chest. He whispered, "I miss you a lot..."
Like in most dramas and novel the morning after for Pam is not waking up with sunshine from the window. There is no window in her room, she loves to sleep in complete darkness. Instead she is awaken by continued mashing of her breast. When she moved to turn a kiss landed in her forehead and the hand mashing her breast, squeezed her butt. Even if she knew what happened when she opened her eyes and found Tim staring at her she still felt embarrassed. She buried herself under the comforter. She is not sure if this is a good idea as she can see their naked bodies. She also did noticed some blood stains underneath and traces of bodily fluid that dried.
Tim scooped her body towards him, "come over here. Are you embarrassed?"
Pam did not respond and kept her whole body under the blanket including her head. She could see that nice skin and well toned body.
Tim pulled the comforter up and saw fixed gaze on his chest. "Are you enjoying your view underneath?"
Pam was surprised that they are face to face under the blanket, naked! Her face is all red. She remembered everything last night. She let the spirit of the liquor cover up her shyness. She did not stop Tim at any point. Even her plan of escaping is now hazy.
"You did this to me, you have to be responsible about it!" Tim said this while running his hands on her waist.
Pam looked at her aching body both her breast are covered purple and some other part of her body that her eyes can reach. This has always been the case even before. Likely her neck is filled with hickeys but Tim is all clean. How black bellied! What does - - did this to me means?' She looked at him with questioning eyes.
"Pim you cannot leave again..." Tim's eyes became teary. "I will go crazy if you do it again! You can't be that heartless..." His voice was choking.
Pam inserted her arms to Tim and embraced him. She once again cried just like last night. "I am sorry Tim! I didn't give you a chance to talk things out. I am really sorry, I didn't know how to face you before. I also don't want to force you into something just because I got pregnant."
Tim realized that everything last night was clear to Pam's head. She was truly feeling sorry for him.
"I plan to completely disappear in your life until this project." Pam suddenly remembered Lissy. Tim did not know she is aware of the engagement break up. Somehow she felt guilty that she took advantage of the situation.
"Aren't you considered cheating now?" She sounded worried.
"Why? I am free and single!"
She continued with play pretend. "Aren't you engaged?"
"It's broken."
Although she knew about it, still Lissy and Tim were in a relationship. Can she consider herself a rebound? Or a rekindled love? But he has not said anything. Will she continue guessing what they are now? Life's lesson taught her it is never good to assume and cowardliness does not help clear things up.
"Tim I have never loved any man in my life but you." She had never been this courageous however she does not want any mistakes again because of misunderstanding.
"Don't be forced or take pity on me. I allowed this to happen. It's at least a good memory I can bring with me to Sydney."
Tim kissed her. Pam is startled and embarrassed they have not brushed their teeth so she struggled. "Tim aren't you disgusted I have not brushed."
"Pim, never have I been disgusted in you whether you have not bathe, washed or brushed until you suddenly left me without a word. That is the most hateful thing about you. Even that took me more than years to realize. The lack of you are days that I hate the most!"
He has not misheard 'she has not loved any man but me.' He felt proud all of a sudden. This girl who made him felt so little at that time when she disappeared actually loved no one else but him.
What Tim said completely dissolved the doubts in Pam's heart. "But you had Lissy..."
"I know! When I met her she somehow reminded me of you. I can see some hints of you in her. Maybe it's her eyes it was just like yours."
"She is a lot prettier than me even smarter."
Tim held her even more tightly and said, "when I saw you again for the first time after 7 years, my heart skipped a beat. I was afraid after 7 years all my efforts to throw you out of my system will go down the drain."
From now on he can only be honest and forthright with Pam no more no less. He continued, "I tried to spite you. I was in a hurry to get settled with Lissy to prove to you that I am a lot better than we were before. But she was not you. I felt guilty for quite sometime so I decided to propose and advance the marriage but..."
"It's not important." He doesn't want to go down the details.
"What is not important? What is the 'but' all about? If you don't tell me I will feel like I ruined your relationship. A 3rd party. I was actually planning to leave for Singapore then Sydney on Friday," she bowed her head as she told him this. She can only go all out honest with him. She has gone lowest of low before. There is no use to keep her pride. She loves Tim, only him.
Tim pulled her out of the embrace and cupped her face. "You plan of leaving me again?! Do you dare?"