What am I going to continue this path? This is worthless!You will die very soon and nobody gives a fuck about it!If you were on my position right now....uggghhhh it's just like your brain was eating yourself just to get your satisfaction but your heart was cracking into pieces if your brain continue on it's improper operation.That's why many people dying inside before totally they disappear in this cruel world.But sometimes I wish we could live if we're all 'dead' not only inside but in outside too.forever.

"Okay class,the nervous system is the part of an animal that coordinates its actions by transmitting signals to and from different parts of its body.*blah blah blah blah*"

Sighed in boredom,that's all you can do to Ms.Castillo's class.Because you already knew the lesson and it just repeated all over again in your school life.

So you decided to lay down your head on your desk and close your eyes, Ms.Castillo is just an old hag , you didn't care about it.

But you jolted up when a ruler hit your head ,you looked up it was the old hag holding a ruler and on the hand was a book.

"Miss (l/n) you're sleeping again in my class!?I guess I will buy you a notebook for your detention records."

All of your classmates laugh, taunting you like a child.But Ms.Castillo shush them,you took a breath and sighed in annoyance.

"Yeah it was pleasure if you give me a notebook as present but Ms.Castillo, is your neurons decreases?I noticed that you didn't get retirement because of your slow works."

You answered with a hint of sarcasm and annoyance,you just taunted a teacher. Really. You are such a little savage.

The other gasped when they heard it, the other snickered ,and the others just whispered on what the actual fuck did you said to an old hag or asking what neuron is.

While Ms.Castillo just stood in front of you with her angry face glaring at you and you just laugh with your ass off in your mind but in the outside you're just staring at the old woman with a straight face.

"Class dismissed."

The face of your teacher was like to explode before saying the class was dismissed.But no one moved, this makes the teacher exploded in anger.

"I SAID, CLASS DISMISSED! GET OUT OF MY SIGHT!"

Your teacher yelled at your face making the whole class to get up and pack their stuff before leaving the room and you did so. Ms.Castillo came back to her table and sat at the chair, glaring at you while you were walking out of the room, putting your hand behind with only your middle finger sticking up.🖕

You walked down the corridor and walking up to your locker to get your important stuff.You walked again and you hear your cheerleader classmates whispering.

"She is such a stupid, you know! All of the teachers were gone mad when they talking to her!"

"No one can handle her, she is such a kid who grow up in the streets so she have that irresponsible attitude."

"Yeah!I heard that!plus I heard that she stole the cellphone of our principal."

You heard the three girls whispering some rumours about you and some insults making your hands formed into fists.You walked passed them before looking back.They looked at you with their disgusted faces.

"The true, we are just poor not beggars.I am not a thief,and mostly, I am not stupid not like you sluts, I will not wear some revealing clothes just to get some attention from some fucking perverts.Three of you are fucking stupid, because you're believing on some stories without evidence."

You said bluntly before kicking the locker besides you, it made a loud sound enough to catch the other's attention.

One of the girls was about to slap you but you smacked her face using your palm before slamming her head to the lockers just using your one hand while your other hand was on your hoodie pocket.

The two went surprised at your action, they helped their friend to get up glaring at you.The other students started to watch the scene.

"That's for judging me, I'm done with a Puta like you so get the fuck out of my sight."

(Puta means bitch)

You leave the school even you have another classes at PE, Math and English.You were done with their bullshit.

So you went to the main gate of the school to grab your bike.You quickly went out of the place without giving a fuck on the security officer chasing you to get back because cutting classes was like a crime.

When you reached you home, you run to your room like a madman and lock the door.You know that your mom was probably drunk so you have to lock yourself in your room for some drunken 'momzilla' protection.

You slide down the door and quickly sat on your chair, turning on your laptop and prepare your drawing materials/devices.

Because you will have a live streaming about your arts.You really loved the steampunk style so it was the most requested from your followers.

For about a year ago, you started making fanarts, manga strips and also light novels about today's issues and some stuff about teenagers and otakus .It became pretty popular within months so you continued your career until your followers called you 'Demanding Millenialist'.

(Yeah like Eromanga sensei)

You started to draw a character, a boy with blonde hair and...

You think for moment and think about the colour of the eyes.

Brown?

Nope. Too normal

Violet?or blue?

It's too dark.

When you finally get the right colour, you mixed the possible light shades of green to make emerald green.Yeah.Pretty cool and eye catching.

When you draw the face, you draw the rest.Body,clothes, details,and for the final touch, the steampunk background.

Your character was wearing white shirt,brown ribbon,vest,top hat and slacks.

When your were done, you finally end the streaming, you sighed happily when you see the comments.Compliments, support and suggestions.It makes you smile even you have a shitty day.

But one comment catched your attention.

'So what would be the name of your new character?'

You gulp on the sudden realization that you forgot to name the character.But you just shrugged it off, you can't think one unique name because the others are common!

"Ugghhhhh."

You groaned in frustration and lay your body on the bed, you're blaming yourself for not naming the new character before showing it to public.

Then your phone rings, you look at your phone to see a notification. It's just news about some experiments from US government that exported to your country this morning.

But your country doesn't have any connection to America, your country and America was almost rivals.

(Just go with it if you live in the states.Just think a country who didn't existed in Hetalia 'kay?)

Ummmm interesting.....

You clicked the notification and read all about it, it was about cure for some blood problems or brain supplements.It was exported because of some scientists in your country wants to test it if it works or effective.

It just like some sort of pharmaceutical organisation who wants to help others to cure their health problems.

You think for a moment and started to browse in the internet for some entertainment, but you didn't know, you fell asleep.

~Meanwhile~

"Are you sure we will not get busted?"

A man stand in front of the office table, shuffling through the papers in the binder he was holding.And there's a blonde man in front of him but he was facing the window.

The man was scared all of the sudden calls of that blonde man to him.It makes him eagerly to go home with his wife and daughter but it will never happen,he was stuck here and there's a possibility that he will get kill by the blonde psychopath.

"Yeah I'm sure about that,once we get the samples inside that country it will get all over the place right?then they will blame the US government about that!Our experiment will be success,and we will take down the US government after that."

The blonde laughed in victory making him to shiver,oh god this is would be his end.

"Y-yeah I'm not sure about that."

He mumbled while stepping back to escape the room but it was a BIG mistake.

"YOU'RE.NOT.SURE.ABOUT.THAT?"

Finally the blonde whipped around staring at him with that terrifying eyes were like on demons.

He became frightened when a gun pointed at his head.

"ANSWER ME."

He was forced to open his mouth to insert the gun.He cried enough to make the blonde to laughed.Then suddenly he fell down on the floor, his head were almost crushed.

[#2]

Alfred stared at the screen in awe when he was watching the live streaming of this popular artist named 'Demanding Millenialist' he was fascinated that the said artist draw a character looks like Arthur.But without those bushy eyebrows.

The artist loves steampunk style and it takes hundred thousands of views so quickly but the artist never show it's face, just that original voice.Making the artist's fans think it was a girl.

'Thanks for watching my daily live streaming and thanks for your support and compliments so see ya later bye!'

That happy voice makes Alfred was developing a crush on the artist that he didn't know what she looks like or how old she is.

"You are so fascinated about zhat artist non?"

Francis said on the other side of the room, sitting across to Kiku who were drawing some yaoi doujinshi.

(Yep, zhe otaku trio)

"Hai, it's been two hours since Arfred-san rooking at Demanding Mirreniarist's Tumblr."

Alfred blocked his laptop on their sight, blushing in a million shades of red.

"I-it's not like that dudes!I-I just idolized her because she had that incredible talent!yeah like that!"

The two chuckled and proceeded to their work and Alfred stayed silent with his face still red.

~Time Skip~

[Back to you]

You woke up on the sudden knock on the door with that annoying voice of your mother.

You opened it to see your mother, she was rather angry because of that face seems like to explode in redness.

"What is this!?Read that before you come downstairs, I have to deal with you about that."

She handed you a note before stomping back downstairs.You looked at the note and stared at it.Yeah a letter from principal that you have to be a librarian for a month to pay your cutting classes,hurting your classmate and for taunting your teachers or being a unrespectful student.

Great,a librarian for a shitty month.

You went downstairs and sat at the single couch with your legs crossed looking at your mother like you were having a good time with her but it makes your mother annoyed.

"Tell me.Why are you doing those things?"

She said a little bit angry but she was worried about you.And this makes you feel angry, your father died because of her so you hate her.

"The question, why did you do something bad on me? Because that's the reason why I became like this!"

You ran off the house even it was raining,you went to the woods and take a rest in a abandoned cabin.

You lay on the dusty floor and cried, remembering the painful memories you didn't want to recall forever.

When your father died,your mother became an alcoholic bastard and every time she went home,she almost killed you by beating you up and putting you in a sack hanging it on a tree for days.

It was happening every time,making you be used on that kind of abuse.And making you to die inside.You became a savage and always having a trouble in your town even you're just a girl.

You learned how to fight all by yourself and earn money without help of your mother.'She is just a puta.'you always thought to yourself.

I'm already dead inside, all my feelings and care were gone.All I need is to fight over this cruel world to live.Life killed me inside and I want to destroy the others too.