I just want to sleep.
My legs are literally going to give up on me while Matt persists on running around and looking around for almost everything while I'm trying to keep him away from places where lots of adults can be and away from people, in general. I'm trying to keep up with him and every time he let go of my hand, he runs and excitedly tells me where he wants to go, then I'll have to run towards him and hold his hand again because I was scared of losing him around the packed place filled with controlled humans that may or may not be completely evil. And I have to smile, that didn't help my situation at all, it just makes me exhausted. So I stopped Matt and kneel down in front of him with a serious face and he stares at me shyly.
"Sapphire, I get that you're happy and excited but if you want to go someplace else, don't let go of my hand and tell me instead so we can go there and I won't die of a heart attack in case you got lost." I told him while holding both of his hands, wanting him to know that I'm scared of losing him.
"But...you need to stay alive for me in case I get lost so you can find me." He says, joking around but looking at me shyly as if he knows what he's doing. I rolled my eyes playfully and chuckled.
"Sapphire..." I warned him and he nods while pouting.
"Okay...so can we buy cotton candies now? I saw some huge cotton candy and you know what? It's shaped like a butterfly! I want to get those...." He started rambling again and I looked around to see where we are and I sighed when I realized that we're far from where those cotton candies are made. But I obliged to his request and walked with him beside me, staring around in joy and I smiled at it but I also feel sad because they're tricking children who don't know a thing about what's happening and they don't know about the dark horrifying things that are happening in here, and if they ever find out they'll be completely traumatized and it will ruin they're happy minds and childhoods.
The people around are grinning all the way to their ears and eyes like fools, and I really tried my best in looking okay but they're glancing at me every now and then with suspicious glares and I stared back at them, trying to figure out them and how they exactly act. For most, they act dumber than dumb, they're just grinning and they act all giddy like a spoiled brat that is a daddy's little girl but is so dumb and happy all the time, it makes people sick. Well, at least it makes me sick. I don't know about other people but they make me sicker than sick. They all look pretty much the same, except their differences in appearances. They're all walking in sync and they sometimes laugh and giggle creepily in sync too. They would all look at me when I'm acting a little different but they won't stop with what they're doing, and thankfully Matt doesn't notice them. They're all very similar to robots and maybe they are robots but I don't know. And they don't really look like one especially when I witnessed a teen girl, her knee was bleeding and it looked nasty as hell but she and those people around her are just grinning and I could see the pain in her eyes but it was quickly covered by the strange shine in their eyes and she just grins while tears fall out of her eyes down to her cheeks.
I couldn't let Matt see it so I dragged him away as quickly as possible and tried making jokes to lighten the mood up even though I'm physically tired and I was so not in the mood to joke around because I am literally sick and haven't got any sleep, not even for a few minutes. I probably looked like I'm dead so they're suspicious of me but they will quickly avert their eyes away when I flashed them a dead ass grin.
Matt and I walked around and I admit that my whole body never felt so sick before but I just shrug it off and mentally scold myself for being like this when there's more huge crisis that is happening around us and I have to be prepared no matter what. We stopped in front of the cotton candy store and there were lots of people inside so I mentally groaned.
I looked at Matt. "Stay close and don't let go of my hand, okay?" He nods and tightens his grips on my hand and I smiled tiredly at him and I looked ahead of us but the whole surrounding becomes blurry and wobbly. Everything was spinning so I closed my eyes tightly and quickly prayed for my dizziness to be gone. I opened my eyes again and ignored the stares on me, we just moved in the store and I slightly felt relieved when there was no one in line but people were waiting for their cotton candy of choice.
We walked towards the counter and I plastered a huge grin when the guy and I's eyes locked with each other and he stared at me wickedly. "What may I get you today?" He gritted out of his teeth and he looked down at Matt with those dead eyes. I quickly pulled Matt away and hid him on my back.
"Look at me for fucks sake, boy. I'm the one who's going to do the talking and you're going to be the one who's going to make sure you hear every single detail of what I will order. Because for the love of God, I'm pretty tired with your bullshit even if we just started." I spat out to him with a menacing tone of voice and a grin that is very terrifying because I am getting furious.
He looked at me as if I was speaking a different language that he can't understand but then he suddenly becomes emotionless except with the grin. "Your cotton candy will be customized and it will all be of your choice and we'll do it! It depends on the details on how long will it take! May we get your order please?" He says like a robot and I just told him what sapphire likes.
The guy talks and talks and I just kept getting dizzier so I hold on to the edge of the counter and tried my best to keep the grin. He looked at me suspiciously and I ignored him when my eyes felt heavy and my legs wobbled. Matt noticed because, my hand loosen around his smaller hand, my hold of him is not so secure anymore.
He looked up at me with worried eyes. "Luna, you don't look fine!" I shake my head and looked down at him and gave him a smile that didn't convince him. "Lunaa..." He let my hand go and shakes me so he helps me regain myself and I just grabbed his hand again and hold him.
"Don't...let go." I sighed shakily and looked up, only to see people glaring at me and they started walking towards us slowly.
"L-luna, w-what are they doing?" He grasps my hand tight again but just stood next to me while holding me up. I grinned at the people the best way I can but my eyes and legs were giving off the fact that I'm not exactly one of them, that's when I felt my body completely giving up and I was literally falling like I weak ass I am, on the floor while Matt tried his best to keep me on my feet, when someone entered the store and people were snapped out their terrifying stance and grinned then laughed by themselves, returning back to their happy selves.
"Lu..." Based on the voice it was Alex that was calling me but because of my poor ass blurry vision, I couldn't see him so I just hold Matt's hand tighter even if I'm a weakling at this point. I felt him carrying me and placing a kiss on my forehead. "Let's get out of here before they get all crazy again. Come on, kid."
Matt follows even and he's still holding my hand because no offense to Ace, I don't trust him well enough to let Matt only follow us because what if he gets lost and Ace will be completely oblivious? I don't trust anyone other than myself and Matt.
I just woke up again when I felt someone placing a wet towel on my forehead. I looked around the room and I sighed in relief when I saw I was in the hotel room. I looked beside me and saw Matt, smiling down at me with eyes that are filled with tears and he doesn't want them to fall down his cheeks. "Luna...are you much better now?" He asked with a very shaky voice and he kept his eyes wide open to not let the tears fall because he doesn't want me to be worried about him. I reached out my hand to him and cupped his cheek with a small smile. He blinked and tears started coming down his cheeks while my heart breaks and I rubbed his cheek to comfort him.
"Come here, baby sapphire." I said with my groggy voice like a mother would do when her son is sad and will comfort him with hugs. He immediately hugged me and cried on my shoulder while I rub his back.
"I-I was so worried, Luna. I-I don't know what to do. I-I thought you'll leave me."
"Sapphire, I won't leave you. Remember how I held your hand on the way here even if I'm a weak ass? I won't ever let myself be careless of you, remember that." I told him and he nods with a shaky soft laugh. I smiled. "Besides, you took care of me while I'm sleeping so I'm feeling better now. Thank you, baby sapphire."
He nodded again and looked at me with those sad and concerned eyes so I cupped his cheek again and with my other hand I pinched his nose and he blushed immediately because he has a runny nose but I only laughed. "And if you want to cry, sapphire, don't hold it back. It's okay to cry sometimes, it's okay to be worried, it's okay if you feel different emotions at once but don't keep them inside you because you'll never learn how to cope with your emotions and you'll grow up like those typical bad boy cold guy that shows no emotions at all and you'll be mean to me. It's okay to show it to me and ask me how to deal with them because I'll help you, always."
He nodded and snuggled closer to me again. "Mmm 'kay, Luna."
After a while, my family comes to check on me but they quickly gave us space because of how 'sweet and cute we look' and how I look like a mother but I ignored them and gave them a scowl to which the made fun of me more.