Since when was it?
Immune to the horrors of a massacre, the apathetic feel of men begging to you, the lingering hatred to life and the joy towards ending a life.
All in one day, I became something.
But what is this something?
A monstrosity?
Was this the true darkness imbedded in me since birth?
Was this what I truly wanted to be?
No it cannot be.
There's no man that can be twisted as such.
The system!
Yes it must be the system!
It changed me,
that's right this wasn't what I truly begged for,
I was just living my life in solitude, after that man went away. Away from the dangers of the world, this was I truly wanted, PEACE!
But all of this was twisted to madness due to this insanity!
The system!
I must get rid of it!
Since it's inside of me.
Then I must get my existence out of this hell.
Death!
Yes, that's my only hope!
"Heh!"
"Hahahaha!"
Thuck~
Thok~
With the sounds of rocks falling,
I soon saw myself standing in front of an abyss.
A huge dark and gaping hole,
ready to accept me.
"Oh yes! Baby!"
I found myself quite excited in all this.
What the hell am I doing, I waved my hands all over the place in a slow and easy manner.
I felt at ease,
I felt invigorated,
Is this what it meant to be truly alive?!
The sudden emptiness within me, suddenly felt a sudden burst of heat.
Warmth for this lonely ash,
dark and miniscule, so cold yet it was once a part of something that gave hope.
My dance kept going as I waved my hand elegantly and smoothly.
In front of this abyss, this death,
felt like I could be what I am!
Facing Death, gives me peace!
Death is peace!
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With my mind suddenly regains itself to reality.
I saw my self standing on the edge of a cliff.
The sweat sliding through my forehead, dripped down to the tip of my nose, till it fell to the through the thick forest below the edge.
"A madman"
With my ears hearing the sound of a dog uttering rubbish, I turned and looked at what it wanted from its master.
Maybe it was because something of my former self left, I sought out a companion, a friend to talk to, and of course I still haven't had the faintest clue as to what world I am in. So the dog with the mangling left leg who fell from his bird seemed like a good candidate so I spared him, and named him Jack.
"Jack! I've a question to ask"
I spoke to my dog, with a demanding voice.
"What did you say?!"
Hmm, this dog's quite unruly, maybe I shouldn't have spared him?
"Just kill me"
"As a Captain of the heroic Silver Hawks"
"Suffering such a defeat is the greatest shame one of my standing could have"
The dog stood up as he tried to bear the pain of his broken leg.
Not a bad dog I must say, though seeing that leg is prickling my frustration.
"And this honorable one's name is Ku'ln"
"Tell me the way how this world works"
Ignoring the brave talking dog's self introduction, I questioned the basics one must learn if ever you would have been through another world, well that's as far as I knew from the light novels that I've read so far.