Not even in a romantic way he did asked her about be his girlfriend, she didn't even object but reluctantly to accept it.
Why, do I feel scared? Not even in a mood to having a relationship...why?
Wait!
Wait!
Seriously, I did accept it, right?
Did I said yes?
I rewind the last scene in the car with him back, try harder to remember. Hmm... definitely no...I don't even say a word but just a nod.
Other me: That's also considered agree, idiot. Otherwise, you didn't called him boyfriend!
I bulged open my eyes but then crease the eyebrows to frown and blinked a few times.
Me: Hey, it's also a term for a friend of boy so boyfriend still in a term of friends! Am I right?
Other me: Stupid! Did you accept him as a friend, huh?
Me: Err...
Other me: See that?
Me: But I didn't considered him as my boyfriend, a lover...no!
Other me: Really?
Me: I don't know... (with meak voices)
Other me: Give him a chance, okay?
Me: I don't know if I can...
Other me: Please...
Me: But—
Other me: Please...just a tiny chance. Let see him if he capable to be your boyfriend. Who can be your protector, shield you from you know who...
I did a thinking but not to much and if I did that...I will turn to a doubts not trusting both himself and myself. Yeah...he might turn me down when he knows who I was or worse he will humiliate me to others.
Other me: Stopped that Didie...trust in your instincts for this...please...
Me: Should I?
Other me: Yes! (how happy herself begging with Kitty eyes like Puss in Boots on me).
Me: Then...
Me: I'll try...
Other me: Good! (she sighed in relief. Looks how confident she is trying to influence me and...she succeed in her very own mission).
After having my own inner battle, I skipped happily to my front door with happy giggles.
There, the unexpected guests in here. Truly unbelievable.
I know who she was but I don't know about him.
"Before that, meet your new uncle, Darren."
"Hello..." he came closer, pick up my right hand and kiss the back of my hand before walked to his 'wife' then kiss her on the lips.
Me: "..."
My new uncle? I looked away not because shy towards that uncle but shy of myself.
How come she called an aunt can have a young husband but not me? How's she easily having a chance to remarry again and again but I don't even having a husband? Someone should I call love every single day?
What a husband? You just got a boyfriend for couple of moments ago, D!
Why? Why? Why?
Literally, I'm upset with my own self. Internally, jealous and envy with that aunt.
Sad...
Disappointed...
Hmm...I know my face turned ugly and she happy about it. She could show off her new husband purposely on me. What the stupid act!
So unfair!
So cruel!
D....
It's not your time and your time has not arrived, yet. Wait patiently because you will get much better because you can wait for him. The right one. Don't you want that to yourself?
Of course I am...
"Huh...I could see you be having that thoughts again. Who's gonna have you as a wife if you can't even managed yourself properly?" she's mocking and smirking at me.
I didn't say anything. For what?
To splash more oil into the tiny flames? Forget about it because the truth is, that aunt so much jealousy towards me! I don't know why but seems she got unsatisfied whenever I have then she tried to take away what's mine...still called that a jealousy type, right?
Hmm...
"Have a seats, young lady. We need to talk..."
What talk? Just by calling me young lady doesn't mean it's sounds like that! She's mocking me again. What's wrong with this old lady? Trying to pick me up again?
Oh...I'm hoping the surveillance system did wonders again. Yeah, the wonders of her children made before.
I scraped the chair loudly and sit on it but I sit cross-legged put both my hand on my leg and hold on to it with innocent looks.
My supposed uncle just be the watcher on my antics and didn't do anything. But...his eyes looks curious. Did he knew me from somewhere? Of course it isn't because I've never saw him before...
Well...I'm not sure... whatever!
I looked around but her presence. Still waiting for the talk and absolutely, I'm not gonna ask her first. Just let her talk anything she wants to talk about. When needed I will voice out my opinions if not I will remain silent. Not to gave her silent treatment but just to let her know that I'm not interested in talking with her!
Huh! I twitching my lips annoying with all of her inwardly...
From her scrutinized gaze, I could see that she's not even like my silhouette and try hardest not to look how scrutinized even more towards her new husband, maybe.
I don't feel a thing because I used to her treatments not long ago and of course so much similar to the Cinderella story, the fairytale but in my case much to labour forces.
A bit tiny misjudgements when her children around because she wants to look good to them but behind my back I'm not sure enough about that. For sure, she will treat me not as good as a good guardian but still she's the evil one.
Yeah, I stilled remember whenever she brought back a guy much younger than herself to her house, she want me to watch anything they do. First, I don't know what was that but after a few times I knew exactly what they did.
So crazy because having a wild sex while I had been forcefully watching them. It's drives me crazy...not because of the scenes but how terrified I am if she wants me do the same with that guy. No...I can't and I won't...
It happened and she force me to do that dirty deeds with the new guy he brought to her house, again. She kept on saying to kill my other families.
What should I do? I did begging to her to not let the guy take me but she didn't care but instructed the guys to grab me and hold me because she wants to see me through the process.
I was crying like crazy, trembling mess and try anything I could to stop the guy. I did kick him, punch him aimlessly with my tiny arms. What force can I get if I only 12 that time...
Lucky enough for me when some guest came in and see me on the couch with the guy's body pressed against me.
He take me away after a few hours in the study room, talking with her. I don't know and I don't care just let me be free...
Yeah!
I was free from her but my scared meter off limits when that man take me away from there, from the hell hole!
I was pressing to the car door, didn't dare to spare any glanced to the man. He did pry into me, asking a few questions but I just ball myself tightly didn't give him any chance to touch me. I could flinched away or crying like someone hurting me...and finally, he stopped...and leave me alone to myself.
No... this old lady in front of me totally a maniac. She's crazy! I didn't know what I have done to gain her evil treatments. What does did she wants from me? What did I do for my entire life just to be hated by someone that supposed to love me?
The memories did making my body started to shake. My hand..both of them shaking...I had to hold my legs harder not to let them see me how fragile I am whenever she's around. I don't want to let her see, that I remember everything she did because she knew that I lost my memories due to the depressions I had long ago.
So I need to maintain it...I need to hold it tightly just like she was someone new in my life.