It wasn't as bad as Gloria imagined, but despite how pleasurable the sex was, she told him she could only do it that one time.
Most would be thrilled by the pleasure and get lost in it, but she only did it to keep her man, hoping that he would stop feeling frustrated at her refusal now.
Hoping that he would understand that she love him enough to have him something so important.
On the night of their intercourse, he readily agreed to her request to make it one time, but after a week or so, another argument broke out.
Apparently, he feels that she's thinking naively. He claimed they've done it and it's not as if she would become an untouched woman again, so why should they stop?
He claimed he missed how it feels to be inside of her.
He wants more.
She flatly refused. She replied that he promised that since he has claimed her, he would wait till they at least get admitted into the university and then, they could be considered old enough, since they've hit an important verse in their teenagehood.
Why backing out on the promise now?
Why?
She was so pissed at this rate and expected him to calm her, but he exploded and usually, she would quickly feel bad, but not anymore.
Not after she has given him what he wants and no longer feeling guilty of depriving him of his desire.
She could argue with a straight face now and that caused a huge fight.
She boldly told him to call her when he's over the thought that they will turn sex into food and eat it like they need to survive on it.
He walked away before she could even complete her sentence and she did the same without calling him back.
She was surprised to find herself pissed, instead of missing him.
She did things with aggression and got her parents worried.
It was so unlike her.
It didn't help that she confided in her friend about what happened and was told that she's making a big fuss out of something that isn't important.
Hearing the response, she was pissed and immediately regretting the choice she made.
If she knew this is how the next week would be like after losing her virginity….
If only she knew they would both talk about it this casually, when it was made to sound like a big deal before it happens….
If only she knew her guy wouldn't hold her tenderly when she's angry and just walk away right in front of her…..
If only she knew her friend would ask her to stop putting meaning on something meaningless….
If only she knew, she would have just accepted the outcome of rejecting him over and over again.
Perhaps, she wouldn't feel this insulted.
They didn't openly insult her, but everything they are saying felt like being slapped in the face over and over again.
Okay! She's done!
She made the decision in the messed up state she was.
She decided to just pursue her life and let men go screw themselves for now.
She decided to face her studies.
Her parents had told her that if she's successful, whatever makes her feel down wouldn't crumble her completely, but if she's wretched, a small wound might ruin her.
Yes! Better listen to her parents.
She made that resolve and felt at ease with her heartache slowly.
It was even more hurtful that he didn't even call her.
She had vowed to break it off, but she hasn't said it straight to him, so this means that he was also not planning to talk to her.
This led to her doing things with aggression.
She was just angry at everything and everyone.
She hated herself for not being stubborn to the end.
But she loves him. She did it with the man she loves.
She told herself not to regret it, but soon she was goggling online, researching if a woman could become a virgin again if she only did it once.
She felt scared for an unknown reason.
She realized the possible reason why she's feeling scared when she suddenly fainted due to exhaustion after spending a whole day and night at her working place, due to a festival arriving in a few days and so many customers came to get their hair done.
They had to stay overnight. It was the annoying phase of her learning experience.
It's tiring, but their boss would give them money, even though most bosses wouldn't care.
When she opened her eyes, she was met with the angry faces of her parents.
"So, you've been engaging in what was meant for adults?" His father's question made her heart skip a ton.
How did they know?
Did her friend tell them? She was sure Joel would never dare do such.
Her mother looked so enraged, but didn't say anything.
The woman looked very disappointed.
"I'm sorry, father and mother. It was only once. I swear I won't ever do it again." She was already shaking in fear now.
"So, it wasn't that you were sexually harassed. You gave it willingly after all the advice and warning I gave you." Her mother said.
It seems her mother strongly wants to hear a response that would differ from her doing it willingly.
And the next thing her father said made her froze in shock. All blood drained from her face as she went pale.
"I don't want to see you near my house. Go to the house of the person that impregnated you and live with your husband.
You felt like you're old enough right? Well, goodluck on the parental journey, but I curse you, Gloria.
How you humiliated me today, your child will do the same to you." The man left and her mother followed with her head hung low.
She didn't miss the tears that rolled down her father's cheeks before he turned to leave.
He was a proud father.
Being a brilliant girl that passed out of school earlier than most of her mates would, her father would always show off to people that he was blessed to have her.
No!
She exclaimed in disbelief.
No way! She said again.
Please God no!
She quickly got up from the bed and with a heavy thud, she clashed onto the floor again.
She knew she was doomed and her first action was calling the guy that she slept with.
She wanted to wake up from this nightmare so badly.
She got up, using all her strength and ran outside the ward.
Luckily, she met two of her fellow apprentices at her working place. Seems like they were the one who brought her here.
The two were twins, who had graduated and still couldn't secure a job.
They came to learn the same handiwork, but since their boss also expertise in pedicure and manicure, one of them focused on that, while the other just focused on hair.
They both still have ideas of everything, just like her.
Their boss was nice enough to not care that they only pay for a certain skill. She let them learn everything, as long as they are willing.
The two ladies are very mature and easy going. Perhaps because they are the oldest at her working place and once a silly fight broke out, the others would insult them, that upon all their schooling, they still came back to where they thought they'd evolved from.
It was an immature reasoning, but the ladies would always stay calm, as if they know what they are doing.
In short, Gloria was open with them and asked them to please borrow her phone.
One of them gave her a worried look, while the other one quickly handed her phone over.
Gloria dialed the phone number which she could recite even if she was just woken up from deep slumber.
Hearing the familiar voice of her boyfriend, her voice shook. She nearly choked in tears as she broke the news to him.
She knew how everyone looks at her that they wouldn't be pulling a prank on her.
The response she got made her feel like her entire world had just collapsed.
"Who are you kidding. Who told you having sex once results in pregnancy? I'm not responsible for anything, so you should go hold the person you did it with next that made you reject me so harshly."
And then he actually ended the call.
She passes out for the send time in a day.
"I'm doomed."
That was the last world she whispered before giving up to darkness.