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I couldn't stop shaking, I couldn't sleep. I can't eat, I couldn't think, all what was on my mind was JUSTIN! Yes, Justin. You would think he should be at home resting and waiting for doctors order to remove the bandage after the surgery was done, but NO!
It has been Fifty hours, forty seven minutes and three seconds since I've seen Justin and since he had gone for his surgery. I had gone to his house when I saw his parents car, I stopped them from entering the house and inquired about Justin. His mom burst into tears and ran into the house, followed by his brothers, only his dad waited behind to give me an explanation.
'Hmm Kylie, I'm gonna be blunt with you right now', he laid his hand on my left shoulder to brace me for whatever he's gonna say. Justin can't be dead, right? He's OK! He will be fine right? Someone please answer my obnoxious thought, my mind wonder.
'Justin is in a critical condition. He's....', his dad continued.
'Is he dead? Oh my God! Why? Why? Why? He can't be...', I rambled off. Tears already rolling down my eyes. He's my breathing, I can't live without him. I feel suffocated already, my heart seized to beat. I can't breathe! I can't breathe!! I can't..... The last thing I remembered was Justin's dad calling my name as I slumped to the ground.
Bright light illuminate the room I was in as I opened my eyes, closing it simultaneously trying to get used to the brightness that seeped into my eyes. 'Oh my God, she opened her eyes. Kylie baby, are you okay?', my mom voice sound in my ears.
'I-I'm f-f-fine', I croaked out. I cleared my eyes to roam the room I was in, I was in a hospital. I was dressed in a white gown, hospital uniform I guess. I saw Justin's parents trying to come in but my mom refused. 'Mom please, let them in', I say trying to sit up on the bed.
Justin's mom was the first to come in, she raced to come to my side and hugged me tightly, 'I'm so sorry. I was scared when I heard you are in the hospital. Are you okay?', she asked releasing me from her hold.
'I'm fine. What about Justin?', I cried as I saw the hurt expression on his mom's face.
'Emm.. Justin's....', she looked at her husband for support. He nodded at her and she continued, I watched as she gulped her saliva. 'What happened to Justin?', I asked in haste.
'Well you see as we were told, the doctor said that there was a complication during the surgery. The surgeon made a mistake in replacing his whatever he called it. I'm not sure I understand, all I know is that he's gonna undergo another surgery to correct it and its gonna take up to two or three weeks', his mom finally said.
'Two or three'. The word echoed in my head. Another painful existence without him, another week of crying to bed. I couldn't say anything, words refused to form out of my mouth. I kept quiet and just nodded, wiping away the stain of tears on my cheeks.
After spending a few minutes later, they later left due to the insistence of my mother. My parents were too overbearing all over me, I was shocked they stayed with me for a long time. I was tired of their protective me, they told me I was not to be seen around Justin anymore. I just nodded and still kept my mind on the boy that made my heart flutters. I love him so much! But my heartbroken state was replaced by a sudden wash of anger in me.
Yes, I know being angry at Justin is just childish, but he promised me he would coma back to me. He told me he would survive it and come rest in my arms, kiss like it was the first time. But he's not here right now, he left me and I don't know when he's coming back. To ME!
I voiced out what my mom is saying and laid back on the bed, draping the covers over my head. She sighed and kissed my forehead before she left the room. After sleeping for over an hour of two more, the nurse discharged me saying I might have a mild concussion sometimes but its rare. She told my mom to allow me to rest well and eat more. I scoffed, I might be able to rest but eating after I heard what happened to Justin is out of the question.
I left my mom with the nurse talking about what God know, and got into the car. I waited for her, getting myself comfortable in the backseat, leaning down sideways and try to get back to sleep. I was almost in La La La Land but my mom slammed the car door, jolting me from my sleep. We got home in about an hour, my mom got out of the car waiting for me to finish my parade walk.
I was walking slower than a snail, taking steps with caution. My mom didn't say anything but her face said it all that she was barely keeping it in. She was this lenient with me because of the nurse's warning that I must be stressed. Trust me, my mom isn't that patient. That's why she sucks at sucking.
I noticed the look on her face and increased the speed in my walk, I stepped into the house and went to NY room immediately and went back go sleep. I was already drifting off to sleep but not yet unconscious when I heard a knock on my door and jutting of feet, then I felt a pair of lips on my head warming me instantly. I smiled and slept after I heard the door lock.
I woke up late in the morning with a storming headache making me groan in discomfort, the headaches the nurse talked about. After I finished my morning routine, I headed downstairs and joined my parents for a warm breakfast. My dad asked me to rest for at least two days more, I objected and went to school. Students didn't take a glance at me and i appreciated it. I hated noise and attention after I met Justin. Justin, I wonder how he is. I shook my head to clear my thought and went ahead with the day because that's what Justin would have wanted me to do.
I realised there was still few minutes left before class and I walked to my locker and saw Dustin and Hailey eating each others face, beside my very own locker, Yucks! Ha, I forgot. Hailey WAS my locker buddy. I ignored and seethed in anger when I heard Hailey's annoying voice 'Hey Keels, where's your lover boy?', mocking me in front of the whole school.
The students stood still waiting for me to make a comeback but I still continue with getting ready for class. She was angry when I didn't say anything, 'Cat got your tongue? Oh maybe the blind boy did', she mocked in pure anger. I turned and looked at her with tears in my eyes, I saw a flash of hurt but it was replaced by anger and mock.
I ran into the classroom and cried my eye out with the whole school laughing mockingly. I was the school waste and reject now but they couldn't touch me still. I was still the boss even if I wasn't popular anymore and I wasn't crying because of what Hailey said, I was crying because I remembered what happened to Justin. He's not with me and I wasn't OK. I miss him so much. I had already stopped crying before the whole class burst in.
The teacher looked at me with surprise, I ignored him and listened to what he's saying for once in my life. Justin wasn't here, I didn't have any reason not to focus. The day went by quickly. I got home, had a shower and laid in bed glancing at the picture of Justin I took without him knowing. He's beautiful!
I cried all over again and drift off to sleep.
The next day went by with the same action except with Hailey's bickering. Day after Day, I never saw Justin. I wished at night that he would come to meet me and everything never went wrong but its all a lie. It didn't happen.
Two days after, Three days after, Four days and now its the eighth day I've been without Justin. Its over a week now and here I am sitting at the spot Justin and I went to when he came over to my house in the night.
I listened to the birds sings, fluttering in my ears like a melody. I got my dad's call asking me to come home, that it's late already. I got into my car and drive home. After eating dinner, my mom gave me a Goodnight kiss and I went to my room.
I cried to sleep, my heart, head and body hurts.
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