"Please help, I beg of you to help me, her voice, her hoarse and rigid voice comes every so often. It shakes my being! It shakes my mind! If even I, if even I can't deal with her voice incessantly begging, incessantly screaming! Then who can? 'Bloody murder, bloody murder...' The bell chimes 4. 'A snowy white day such as this should not be wasted indoors.' a whisper sounded in my ears. 'If anything we should be playing outside right? Brother?' Gone! In a flash that memory fled. Who or what spoke to me then? No matter how hard I try to I can't remember. But, I need to. Right? If its what started these days of endless torment I must remember. The alarm rang 6. 'You still do remember me, right? Because no longer how much time passes i'll never leave your side. In sickness and health and all those sweet words of love, but you don't want to hear those words do you?' The image of a smile filled my eyes. What kind of smile was it? What was it that I wished to protect? Was it a sibling? A lover? Why!? Why!? Why can't I remember? Is it so awful that I can't bring myself to recall? A chime sounded as the sun set 'Dear, why is it that when I look at you my mind rages in turmoil? I love you so yet I feel that you don't feel the same.' Why? Why... I truly wish to remember, to remedy this torrent within me! So let it come, whatever horrors await me whether they be adjacent to the gates of heaven or hell I will face it. A moon dimly illuminated the skies of a town abandoned long ago. 'I'm sorry... I'm so truly sorry! Please! Please don't... don't leave me like this! Don't leave us like this! I-I never meant for this to happen! I swear! I swear' Ahh I can feel it once again. Heartbreak right? Yes this is heartbreak, but it is not mine, it's not... it's hers. I see that now. So, I was never the one loved was I? No, I was... I was that snowy day, Yes! Its all coming back! In my state of madness, ha! I never would have realized it! Hahaha. Now riddle me this, would the state of heaven be affected by hell? or would it be separate? I can feel my smile stretching itself more, More! Hahaha, How is it that these intangible things can terrify us, our mind? Even now her voice echoes on and on. What does it say? Well... Nothing I can ever clarify, however it does lead back to a question I asked earlier. Why? Why indeed... I suppose it was a journey, if not a mission of my mind to the lord. Which lord? Decide for yourself, both stand to suffer as a result regardless. One stuck with me and the other judging me. In the same merciless fashion from then. Getting back on track, why? Because... If you truly love someone as pure as she was, why not? Why not claim her for yourself? Its not her that torments me, but a figment of my imagination and what it perceived to be her last wishes. Look now, the time is 9:59 a miss translation of a book, of a culture. And with this I must bid you farewell. For the moon rises once more on my villainous smile, and my hands, stained by the red hue of a winter's snowy love.