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Chapter 8 - I Hate You

It's official I hate Will. Honestly how can one guy cause me so much trouble. I have been here less then a complete month since I started school and I see him everywhere. Like seriously if he had been born a women I have no doubt he would also fallow me to the toilet even. But the funny thing is, he is a grade older then me, and he still makes time to keep an eye on me even with all the exams he has to take. Which makes me feel bad in a weird way and I hate that. I never ask for a nanny.

GOD I hate this school even more by the day. I mean couldn't they just pick someone in my class and be done with? No they had to choice someone how loves to fallow the rules. Ironicly the only good thing from this is Will himself. Since he is always keeping an eye on me the teachers (as well as my guardians) are leaving me alone for the most part.

I guess, I can't really hate him, because of this. I mean I later found out that he is like this with everyone. He seems to butt into other people's business but from what I've heard. He only does it when the other person can't get help from anyone else. And only then does he start being a busy body. You can call it... his way of give out a helping hand to those lost souls. The perfect big brother and not just any brother your perfect older brother. The one you wish you never had. GO FIGURE!

But it's so cute in the weirdest level. I mean he ends up doing a lost puppy face when someone wants to tell him to butt out. But no one can bring themselves to do it. I mean you have to see the face it's like a..... oh GOD it's, it's just good. He is the perfect image of a lost puppy, but in reality he is the last boss. Okay, I'll put it this way, think of your favorite person with the best puppy eyes. Now this guy does it ten times better. I mean really, not even his best friend who happens to be you know who can say no to him.

Anyways him being like this seems to also give me an image of a lost cost. AKA it's true, but he doesn't know that right. HA,.... how long do I have to wait until he gets the memo. The 'GET OUT OF MY LIFE' memo. I got to figure out a way to have some me time at school without having a bodyguard waiting for me every time I walk outside the class.

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"Miss Willow did you have any question for me today" ask Will

So much for getting my space. He has been waiting for me outside my classroom, only I repeat ONLY if his class happen to be close to mine. I had to tell him straight to his face in the nicest way to give me some space.

Funny fact, most of his class happen to be really far away from mine and I told him I'm very worried he is getting really late to his class because of me. And only if his classes happen to be in the same building can he come and pick me up. Thankfully he agreed to this. However the condition was that I..... have to wait for him after if we happen to be in the same building. Which still sucks if you ask me,... better than nothing I guess.

"No Will I'm fine" GOD wearing these forces smiles are starting to hurt, "I hope I'm not being much of a bother between all your classes am I?" please say yes

"Ha aren't you the sweetest thing worrying about me like this" Will said showing me his million dollar smile

"HA HA I guess it cause I see you everyday can't help but notice these little things" I said. can't I sound more fake then this

"You really are kind" Will sigh, "I've been worried for nothing"

"You worried about what" I ask showing my best concern face

"We'll I say this not to be rude or anything" Will hesitate for a minute trying to figure out what to say next, "Your smile"

"What about it" ok go on you have my complete attention

"It looks fake" Will answered in a sad voice

A shiver ran down my spin. I have been doing this act for so many years. No one has ever been able to see behind me act before, and now out of nowhere a complete nobody. A guy I've only met not that long ago. Is telling me straight to my face,..... I'm fake. Low blow bro, low blow.

But forget that! How does he know? What right does he have in judging me? I can feel my blood blowing. All my emotions want out of my body shove them in this idiots face, but I won't I've been doing this for so many years I'm not going to let this guy ruin all my hard work. However that won't stop me from being over the top mad at him.

You have no idea how much I want to hit this guys pretty face, but I won't. Let's just say my imagination is taking care of that for me. Oh boy you don't want to know what I'm doing to him. Let's just say it really graphic. Just use your own imagination and you might get it right.

"Are you alright?" Will ask in a now concern tone

GOD is this guy for real? He just called me a fake and now he's talking like he cares about me. How much of a jerk are you?! Calm down he doesn't know you. He doesn't know what you've gone thru. How could he it was one of his kind that made me the person I am today.

"I'm alright" I said showing him another one of my 'FAKE' smiles, but this time. This smile has a different meaning behind it. I only show this smile to those I hate the most to the point I want to hurt them.

"That's good" showing me his gentle smile

I used to like that smile, but now I hate it. How can he call me out like that? Now all I think about when I see it, is hate. I guess it's true what they say. Faces that we see hearts that we don't know.

"Anyways I'll be leaving early today" Will tried to explain but I'm not in the mood to hear excuse from this basterd anymore. Actually I never really lesson to him.

"Don't worry I'll be just fine on my own" I said as calmly as I could

I've done this for years what's going to stop me now.