No one never made me feel as small as you did
No one made me feel as cursed
I'd lie awake in bed just staring at the ceiling
Wondering if thing would get worst
I was trapped under your thump
Believing when you called it love
But I will forgive myself and start to let it go
Accept that who you chose to be was out of my control
And though it might be hard to begin again
I'll write myself a brand new story with a happy end
I survived
So tonight
I'm taking back my life
And I'll show you that I'm not nothing
I kept my head above the water 'til the moment
When all the elements aligned
And I could fly away to heal my broken spirit
And leave my demons far behind
You always said that I was weak
But the bravest thing I did was leave
So I will forgive myself and start to let it go
Accept that who you chose to be was out of my control
And though it might be hard to begin again
I write myself a brand new story with a happy end
I survived
So tonight
I am taking back my life
And I'll show you that I'm not nothing
Looking up at the sky
I think I see the start of a sunrise
And I will forgive myself and start to let it go
Accept that who you chose to be was out of my control
And though it might be hard to begin again
I'll write myself a brand new story with a happy end
I survived
So tonight
I am taking back my life
And I'll show you that I'm not nothing
And I'll show you that I'm not nothing
On a summer night in a dark small alley, a singing voice can be heard.
"What a lovely song. Did you create it yourself?"
There is no reply. The dark alley is silent and at the end of it based on the moonlight, you will be able to see a young boy silhouette. You can feel that he is staring at you.
"Hey! I mean no harm. I was attracted to your voice. It is so beautiful."
Anyone that sees the man will think that he is talking alone. The man enters the alley and approach the young boy. The young boy feels threatened and climb the wall to escape.
"Wait! Mikayla don't run. I just want to talk to you."
The boy did not hear him and the sound of footsteps echos. Then, he feels someone grabs his hand. He yanks his hand and trying to run once again but the hand that held him did not let him go and hug him from the back.
"I know your father, Samuel. He is my friend."
The boy tries to escape. This is not the first time he heard that sentence. A couple once come to him after his father died to adopt him. It did not go well and decided to get out of the house.
"Let me go! Let me go! So what if you knew my father. He is dead. It is not by knowing him he can live once again."
He struggles once more but the hug is becomes tighter and the man seems like he is shaking. Then, he placed his hand on the boy eyes. The struggles weaken and a steady breath can be heard.
"What happens to him? Didn't the Connor take care of him?"
"The Connor. It is them that made him like this. They cannot accept what happened to Samuel and make sure he did not follow his footsteps."
"Che...che...che."
The boy opens his eyes and found he is in a room. A nice and cosy room. When the last time he sleeps on a bed? About six months, probably. He did not hurry to get out of the bed, the bed is so comfortable.
"You awake."
"What did you want with me?"
"I sorry for what happened with the Connors."
"It already happens. Where is this place, this is not the Connor's."
"You thought I would take you to them? I was at the Connors last week to visit you but they told me you are missing. Now I know why you are running from them."
"So, now you found me what are you going to do?"
"I already arrange for you to stay at the orphanage. It is a good place."
"Orphanage."
On the carriage, Mikayla is thinking. This world is quite advance almost similar to his previous world but why have they not invented cars? Why still using the carriage? They have invent television, mobile phone, they even have internet but no car, bicycle and motorcycle. The people in this world are still using animals as the main transportation.
"We will arrive soon. The orphanage is called Sunshine Orphanage. There are a lot of children there, I am sure you will love it there."
"Kyle, nice to meet you."
"Nice to meet you Teacher Rachel. By the way, this is Mikayla Bell."
"Oh my! nice to meet you, Mikayla. My name is Rachel Summer, I am a teacher and caretakers at this orphanage. You can call me Rachel."
"Nice to meet you Teacher Rachel."
It has been a month since Mikayla stayed at the orphanage. Like what Kyle has been saying that this place is a good place.
Children are happy and all the basic necessity are enough. The patron of this orphanage are sure wealthy. This is not the first time he lives in an orphanage, in his previous world he is also an orphan.
The first family that adopted him is very nice but they died in a car crash. After that, a second family where everything goes wrong. The family are nice and calm on the outside but inside they are twisted. The wife regards him as her died son substitute. There are times when his mother treat him nicely and there are times she will scold and beat him. His father will not do anything, all he cares whether or not his wife happy and never show any loves towards him. He once heard rumours regarding his mother that she is not very stable and killed her son.
The third family are very loving and caring even though they already have their son and daughter. But who would thought their son hate him so much and it almost had him killed in fire.
Through the fire incident at the Connor, he remember about his the previous life. He used to dream his previous life but he did not understand it until the Connors tried to burn him alive.
"The burn mark on your face will be healed after a few times of treatment."
"Thank you, Dr Hanz. It is great, truthfully I am not that concern about my face but the children at the orphanage are scared of me especially girls."
"How is everything at there? Are the children being mean to you?"
"No, they are nice especially Teacher Rachel. Those children except than scared of my face they are good to me."
" It is good then, if there is any problem you can tell me and teacher Rachel."
Mikayla takes a little detour before going back to the orphanage. He decided to take a stroll at the market. He decides to buy a mask to cover his face. As he strolls in the market he found a store that sold mask. He sees a simple and cute wooden fox mask. It has some pretty design and children will love it.
"Whoa, who is it? Look...Look."
The children were shocked seeing Mikayla in his mask.
"Hey! It is me."
"Mika! It is you. The mask is cute, where did you buy it?"
"I buy it in the market after seeing the doctor."
"How is your face, will it heal?"
"Yes, it will heal after a few treatment."
At eleven o'clock all the lamp is being shut down and everyone is already on their bed. It is the same for Mikayla, he falls asleep easily but a few hours later, he has a dream. He saw his father battling with someone but the weirdest thing is both them has wings. His father has black wings while his opponent has lime green wings. Their battle is intense, the battle ended with his father dead. His father heart is being pierced by a spear.
"Nooooo! Father!"
Mikayla is panting, the dream feels so real. His back is sweating, he did not feel good. So, he gets up and goes to the roof. Staring at the moon calmed his mind and he starts singing I Am Not Nothing. He remembers in his previous life that he likes to sing this song.
"It is a beautiful song."
"Teacher Rachel, did I wake you?"
"It is okay, what happened? Why are you here on the roof?"
"It is nothing, I just can't sleep"
Teacher Rachel climb the window and sit beside Mikayla.
"The moon tonight is beautiful is it? The song that you sing before did you create it?"
"No, it just that in my dream I always sing this song. I don't remember who is the singer."
"Oh, is that so. Did you always had dreams. It is that causes you to having difficulty to sleep? You can always tell me, I am all open. Do not keep everything inside you."
"Thank you Teacher Rachel. I just dream about my father."
"You probably miss him that is why you dream of him."
"Yeah, probably."