Miraculously, everything went as planned and nothing bad had happened.
Brother gambled his life to help me be free and things went really well.
We received a warning though. If I lost control of myself and unleashed all my magic, both I and big brother might die.
After that, a month have passed and I became three. I started learning magic and the elders were deeply astounded by the results.
They call me a genius, even better than that of my big brother.
But frankly, I doubt that I could be better than the brother that is four years older than I am. I started learning magic when I first learned to communicate with the trees just by watching my older brother.
I may not have tried doing magic before but I am quite confident with my perception skills, that I learned it easily and could do it quite perfectly.
Magic was very simple the more one gets to see and understand it. However, not that anyone needs to know that. For now, I'll just let then think of whatever they wanted about me.
But because everyone thinks I'm a genius that is even greater than my older brother, everyone was so proud. Everyone, except for my big brother.
He was the only one that was not happy about it. I did not know why, but I couldn't ask him either.
Other than me being free, nothing much had changed.
But I did feel it that big brother was getting even more distant than before. As we went to the guild everyday to play, I could see that he learned to make some friends and wasn't as lonely as before. At some point, I felt that he doesn't need me anymore.
As time passes, the opinion of the clan about it gradually became even more better. It wasn't long and I was crowned as the heir and the elders would personally watch me as I hone my skill and as I study.
A decision was made then that I would be living with the elders. My mom and dad did not agree to it but they couldn't do anything, for the whole clan itself agreed.
Big brother felt the worse. I wished that I could read his mind so that I could understand him, but things aren't that convenient.
I left our home, without him seeing me off, and that made me feel sad but I could not do anything about it.
In the elders' home, I could only train and study. I 'am not allowed to go outside or play with anyone. The only time I get to play was when we went to the guild but the elders aren't really that happy about it.
However, this was one of the conditions they agreed on so that my parents would let me live with them.
The other condition was, I should go home once a week every Sunday.
Sadly, as time passes by, I started to feel awkward speaking with others. And the relationship of us brothers also became awkward that we barely speak to each other anymore.
At one morning after breakfast, I didn't feel like continuing my studying and looked out at the window.
At the ground, I could see other children playing around, I somehow felt a little envious.
From behind, I could feel someone's hand touch my hair. I looked up and saw one of the clan elders. The old guy beamed at me.
"Young one, what are you doing? Shouldn't you be studying right now?"
I remained silent for a while before I answered. "Elder, I don't understand why, but my elder brother doesn't talk to me anymore. I feel like I did something wrong."
The elder's face was blank when he said to me. "Boy, you shouldn't care about the other people. They are all meaning less. You are the most powerful one of all, the child who will carry the future of our family, and the child that will move the nature itself."
"But elder, he isn't just someone else, he is my elder brother."
The old man looked at me again, he said, "your brother you say? Are you even sure he thinks of you the same way? Perhaps he's only envious. That's how most people would feel when someone else is rising higher than them. You should not feel concerned."
I did not believe that elder's words back then. What does he know? My big brother would not abandon me. He never did.
I had faith and did not let that elder's words get into my head, but I'm just being naïve. I 'am just scared to admit it and face the truth.
However, as time passes by, I can't help by think about it so I decided to ask him myself.
"Say away from me will you!" That was the first things he said to me after a very long while that we hadn't spoken to each other.
"Big brother, why are you angry? Did I do something wrong?"
"You being here is what's wrong." His answer stunned me. My heart was terribly broken. Perhaps what the elder said that time was right.
"You think you could just come here and leave whenever you want? You should just stay to those nasty geezers and don't come back here anymore. You don't belong here."
Smirking I said to him without my intention. I got lost in my own emotions I couldn't stop myself. "You're just jealous! Perhaps you regret it now? Letting me free..."
I was so angry I could not stop myself. What did I do wrong to deserve this?
"You!" From his expression, I could tell that he didn't expect that from me. "Just...just who do think you are?!"
"What use of you to know? But perhaps you're right. Maybe I don't belong here. And I don't have a brother who can't even beat a younger brother who is four years younger than him. But it's alright, I won't make trouble for you. I'm only here because mom and dad wanted me to, but honestly, it's not like I wanted to be here."
After that, I left. The following day, I totally regretted it. I wanted to say sorry but I won't have a chance until next week and I can't talk to him when we are at the guild either. Yet there's some part of me that is really reluctant to do it.
He's the one who started it, why should I be the one to say sorry?
But maybe I'm just being prideful. Why would I, the strongest mage there is, would apologize to a person weaker than me.
And I didn't apologize to him at all. I was guilty but I convinced myself. Yes, I'm not like anyone else. I'm strongest in our generation and there are even those adults who cannot beat me. There's no need for me to apologize to a weakling like him. He should be the one to kneel in my feet.
None of the two of us decided to take the lead, thus things only got worse from then. We never talk nor look at each other anymore. At the guild, I was always dragged in with Bubblegum and Rex and sometimes I wondered why. As for him, he was with all those others far away from me.
I learned that Sugar also had a brother, but just like my big brother and me, we cannot be together. I also learned that he was a close friend of my big brother. But not that I really cared.
Things did not change anyway. None of it changed.
Being alone in the elders' home, it was very lonely. But it's not like it's new to me. I'm already as lonely like this since I was born. It's because I was greater than anyone else. That's why.
The only thing that had ever changed in my life was the fact that I'm starting to grow bored of the world. I felt that I already knew about it all, that nothing else is new. I'm not interested in knowing what the world is anymore and I started to get tired of books.
I started to see all the flaws in the world and nothing seems beautiful anymore. All of it was trash, everyone was trash.
I don't want to get involve with the world and I found myself different from everything else that I figured I must not be one with it.
I read books so I wouldn't see or notice anything. I must live in a world of my own without these trashes for I 'am the strongest. And those that stood at the top are always lonely. Because the heights are always a lonely place, and I've been in loneliness for all my life.
Yes, because I 'am the strongest.
No one, no one should beat me. I must be undefeated. So why? Why do I feel so defeated, why do I feel like I've lost a hundred times or more?
*
The magical energy around Lune suddenly rose and became monstrous. Airi and Rex as well as the man quickly understood what was happening and backed out at once.
"This brat..."
"Lune you damn idiot!" Airi shouted in frustration.
Of all those times why does he have to lose control now?
Wobbling, Lune managed to get back to his feet and his eyes were glowing much more than ever. Trees rose from the ground and attacked violently, destroying everything.