*YUSARI AKABANE *
After I forgave Maehara, he started to lend me a hand and he's a great help. We were talking alot, it was alot of fun.
The cake has been chilled and decorated. Now, all that's left is the cupcakes, cookies, onigiri and some sushi. Then we can help Sayuri with the decorations. But I'm really excited to surprise Mitsuru and I really want Mr Shintaru to try all of my delicious food!
"Are you excited?" It's like he read my mind! Or maybe it was too obvious.
"Yes! I can't wait for Mr Shintaru to taste my food!"
"But he's already tasted your food, remember?..." Maehara does have a point, but doesn't he get it?! Every girl gets excited about making food for their crush!... Well, he's not a girl...so...
"Yeah! I know... But still! It's exciting!"
Maehara refused to look at me, but it seemed like he was concentrating on mixing the batter. It looked like he wasn't interested, but I really hope that he would help me and Shintaru to get together or something. I really want him to support me and my efforts... but he's not really bothered...
"Hey... How's your dad?" Maehara asked. I felt touched that he was thinking about my father's health.
"He's doing well... I call him everyday now, it's kinda awkward to talk to him..."
"How so?"
"I don't know... We never used to talk much before..."
"I see..." He nodded.
It became awkward silent before anyone could say anything. We were both concentrating on baking and there wasn't anything we could talk about. Even though, I knew something was wrong with him, he seemed troubled, however, I chose to ignore it. Instead, of talking about it, I wanted to sit back and observe.
I decided to go up to him, to talk. I went over and brought the bowl of batter with me. I nudged him with my elbow on his thin arms.
"Wow! You're so fricken skinny!" I exclaimed in surprise. Though, he wore a baggy, tacky jacket on, by a small nudge you can tell that this guy is too thin!
"Ow! That hurt!" It looked like a six year old was crying in pain.
"Seriously... that hurt!? Are you weak or what?!... Come on! Lift some weights!" It was shocking to see a guy weaker than a girl!
"Uh.. I do!" Could this conversation get anymore unbearable?
"Yeah, right!" This guy has got to be bluffing!
"No, I do... It's part of my daily routine.. at home."
"At home?! So... what, you're like super rich and you need a maid to feed you?!" I said sarcastically. I mean, what kind of person has a routine that he only does at home?
"Uh... not to brag or anything..." I looked at him, he had his head on his palm and his elbows on the counter. "But yeah... I'm super rich."
"WHAT?!" Why haven't I heard about this before?! "You didn't tell me this!"
"It's not a big deal!..." He shrugged.
'Not a big deal??' What's that supposed to mean?!
Of course it's a big deal! Coming from someone who grew up in a poor family, my father had to work so hard to get me into this school! He worked for me! To stabilise my future!
Some people are just born with a silver spoon, it makes me feel upset! Why is life like this?
Others find living so hard, while for others it's so easy...
"So... you have money?!" That was a stupid question that had blurt out.
"Yeah..." He looked nervously confused.
"Do you have any dreams... that you want to achieve...?"
That's the thing... people like you can achieve anything you want easily. While others, have a goal, a dream... to achieve and they'll continued moving forward to get it!...
In fact.... I feel sorry for you...
*HASHIBA MAEHARA *
I looked at her in confusion, why would you ask me that? Most of my life, despite being rich, I still wanted to die... As a kid, I was bullied, they thought that I was weird. I tried so hard to get friends, I used different approaches too. However, it lead me to associating myself with fakers, a load of drama.., and bull shit!
I was only being used.... Even though, I allowed them to, I just didn't want to feel so lonely.
As the saying goes, 'you can't buy happiness with money'... Little do you people know... that money is the main reason why we can't long for anything. Rich people just wants success, they don't have 'dreams' since they're already living the dream they were born into...
It must be nice to have nothing... I wish to have the ambition that they do... The ambition to follow their dreams and reach their goals!
"Do you?.." Though the question was directed at me, I was curious to know about Yusari's dreams.
"Well... yeah. As a kid, I've always wanted a horse. All for myself!"
"A horse?!" I exclaimed, although that's not hard to get, it's just not easy to keep.
"Yep! So that I could ride it whenever I wanted!" She's so ambitious already, she has spirit. "But now... I've grown... and all I want... is to walk down the aisle with my dad..." She said it so softly... with a gentle tone.
I can feel that she is fighting her sadness with hope. It felt so sad, the way she said that...
I want her... no... It's not fair. That dream of hers... deserves to come true...
"Your wish is my command!~" I exclaimed, bowing down to her.
She looked surprised and jerked back. "What?! How?!... That's not possible!"
I may not be a real genie, but... I do have money.
"I know... But I'm gonna make an effort. I'll put all of my money into your father's cancer treatment and I'll donate to the cancer research center!... How'd you like that?" I felt confident, she has to accept it!
"What?! No way! Are you crazy?!"
"Aren't you happy?..." I accidently blurted my thoughts out loud.
"All of your money!.." She turned her back towards me and muttered to herself. I just glanced at her, tilting my head to have a look of her expression. I was clueless.
After she finished muttering, she turned back and creepily asked me in a slow deadly voice, "How much is that?..."
"One million dollars." I replied bluntly, it's not that much.
"NO!! You can't do that!!"
"So, you don't want me to save other people's lives?..."
"Yeah! Well! No! Wait... You just can't provide for my father! That's supposed to be my job!" She yelled, placing her hand on her chest.
"But, I'm the genie!!~" I followed her actions.
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"What...? IS WRONG WITH YOU?!!" I love it when she screams my eardrums out...
"I don't care what you say, I'm doing it."
"Really? You're being serious? You're not bluffing?..." I nodded.
"I will make sure that you will both down the aisle together..."
I can see tears in her eyes but the smile on her face, is as bright as day. Only she can make such a beautiful smile...
"Thank you!~" She pushed herself on to mine. It was the closest I've ever been with Yusari. "So..much." I could feel her breath, absorbing into my shirt and feeling it on my skin. Her embrace, I wanted to wrap my arms around her but... She repelled back to were she was standing.
Why...? Couldn't she stay with me for a little bit longer?... That's when I realised... that I won't be there on the day she walks down the aisle with her father...
"You're the best friend I've ever had!"
"Sure..."
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After that, my mood went down low. But I had to remain bright and happy for Yusari's sake. I have given her hope... So, for once... I had to be hopeful.
"Hey, you don't mind if I tell Mr Shintaru about this?"
"Why?..." This girl can't stop talking to other people about her obsessed crush....
Nobody really cares!...
"Because... I want to tell him how generous you are!"
That's simply no reason, just an excuse to talk to him... But using me as the excuse?!... pissess me off!
"Why?... what's so special about him?"
"What do you mean? You know I like him... What's going on?"
I should stop... Because I know I'll end up hurting her...
After a brief moment of silence, she realised quickly what's going on in my mind.
"You're still against this, aren't you?!..." Shit... "Don't you want me to be with the person I love..?"
"No, I do!" I lied... it was an obvious lie..
Please stop... I don't want to talk about this... Why do I get to hear of your love... For someone...else?
I needed to speak! I couldn't help it! It's unbearable! I want her! I NEED her! But I'll never have her!!... I don't care if it's selfish... it just hurts so much...
"The, what's wrong?! You can tell me..." But I can't... I can't even be honest with myself! How am I supposed to tell you the truth?!
"It's just.." The words are jumbled in my head. I can't say it.
"What? Trust me..."
I tried to hold back, but Yusari keeps pulling me in. "You will never end up being with him! He will never love you!"
Will breaking her heart, so many times... allow me... to crawl in through the cracks?...
I shouldn't have said that! What's wrong with me?! I can handle physical pain! But I have no control over my emotional pain! Damn it!
"Why?... you think I don't know that..."
No... I know... I just want you to love me... no one else. Shit! Why am I so stupid?!
The tears swelling up in her sky blue eyes, they're shivering to break through and roll down her cheek... Looking at that, felt like a bullet being shot through my heart...
Each time a tear fell... I would bleed out. And when she cries.. it feels like I'm dead!!
"You don't care about me, do you?!" She yelled, fighting back through those tears and shackles, that I created around her heart.
"No. It's because I-"
"You're a liar!! You're not gonna make my dream come true!! Because you're worthless!" I guess we're even.
But... hearing the truth... from someone... from someone you love... kills...
She ran out of the kitchen, crying. I deserve every second of this... This is all my fault...
"MR SHINTARU!!" I heard an echo from outside, in the hallway. I opened the doors and heard...
"I love you!!" She didn't shout it out loud so that everyone could hear her... but her voice was hoarse and weak as it echoed across to... him.
Why?... in front of everyone...
I felt myself shatter. I waited anxiously... along with Yusari. What is he going to say?...
"Yusari... is everything alright?"
She ran passed him and at that brief moment, she disappeared... All that remained were her tears left on the ground.
"Maehara, are you ok?"
The monster inside me.
The world is spinning with endless thoughts.
And I remember... a saying...
"No matter how sad you're feeling...
Wear a mask... and show them that you're strong...
Because they'll never know otherwise...
♠I played the part...
Placed the mask on...
The tears couldn't stop...
If I tried then my face will look distorted and ugly...
But that's not how you
Put on a show...♠
Please... Don't ask me... again and again...
If all you want is for the tears to disappear...
Do me a favour....
Just pretend I'm not here....
"... I'm fine..."
My spirit died... I came back to life... and died a
hundred times...
I realised I was helping you,
Destroy me
By fighting for you...
To be continued. . .