🔵22ND APRIL 2007🔵
I couldn't sleep last night. But thanks to Mahiru, she held me tight and we both fell asleep together. In the morning, Mahiru woke up with a big, shiny smile on her face and said, "We're both gonna spend alot of time here together!.."
I'm soooo happy! And so excited! I want to do lots of things, like playing boarding games, drawing and hugging my big sister!
I LOVE YOU, MAHIRU! 🔵
**YUSARI AKABANE**
It's lunch time! I have so much in store right NOW! Mr Shintaru is behind his desk, marking our Math quiz! During break! So, I wanna make lunch for him! Of course! I wasn't stalking around him or anything! But I know EXACTLY what kind of food he likes! So, I've decided to cook rice with miso soup and sushi with veggies.
But, Shintaru doesn't like carrots! So I have to keep that in mind!
I'm in the kitchen right now, preparing for my beloved ' s favourite lunch! ♡ I'm gonna put all of my heart into this.
"Excuse me! We're coming in! " The doors open, there was a girl and a boy entering the kitchen. Oh wait! It's Sayuri!.... And some other guy...! " Hey, do you have some spare ramen? " I completely ignored this douche and went straight for Sayuri! " SAYURI! ! ♡" I grabbed a big hug from her.
"Oh! Hello! You're in my class, right?"
" That's right! I'm Yusari! "
" That's nice well it's - "
" Great! Now can we just get the ramen and leave?" How dare this guy interrupt Sayuri and acts like he owns the place! !
"No" I coldly responded. It's not like I care about this guy. There are two people in this world that I care about!
And that is! SHINTARU SENSEI!
AND. SAYURI♡!
" Uh! Come on! "
"By the way, Sayuri! What are you here for?" I asked excitedly. "I just said it like a hundred times! - "
" Shut up! You dirty, impulsive, knuckle head, pea-brain! " I shouted at him violently and then quickly smiled back at Sayuri.
"Well...We DO need some ramen..."
" Oh! Is that so!?" I turned around. "I'll go, get it for you. "
"...That girl's a bitch..." he dare to whisper such a thing behind my back! But I did nothing of it. I wanted to act nice and proper in front of my sweet Sayuri!
" Hey! Maehara! That's not a nice thing to say! " Oh! So that's his name! Don't worry pal! I'll make sure to hunt you down and never let you go! I'll make a f *cking crime scene out of you!!!!
"Yusari is really nice." I love you Sayuri! I turned around with the tray of ramen in my hands, my heart was filled with overwhelming joy!
" Yeah, right... She's a pain in the ass!" That's it...
" OH JUST YOU WAIT!!" I snapped.
"Argh! You heard?!" He moved aback in shock. "Uh-um! Please stop fighting! " Sayuri yelled holding the tray. I didn't notice her taking it out of my hands, But it's this guys fault!
" Please! Why don't you start over?" She placed the tray on the table before walking over to Maehara, "Here" and lifted the weirdo's hand, then dragged him closer to me and held my hand. I was as shocked as he was, I was completely confused at what she wanted us to do. "Now! Introduce yourselves! " She firmly announced, she was trying to make us shake hands...! But I don't even want to touch him! And I'm sure he doesn't want to either.
" No way! Never in a million years!" He exclaimed while waving his hand away.
" If you're trying to make me be 'friends' with this guy ,then I would rather be dead!" I answered against Sayuri in disgust. "Argh! You're gonna make me puke!"
Both of us started bikkering, back and forth at each other, stating rude and disgusting comments, That finally,
" ENOUGH! Stop it!" Sayuri snapped. We both froze, as we never thought to hear such a loud, fierce voice to come out of a usually sweet girl.
"You both are acting so immature!..please...try to be friends!..."
**HASHIBA MAEHARA**
When I first met her, she had the urge in her eyes to see anything that cannot be expected. She had the power in her heart that will believe anything is possible and she has the purest soul to make her fulfil her dreams. So, there's no wonder, this girl won't stop at nothing to try and make us friends, even if we don't want it...
So, I took it upon myself to lift myself the courage and say the following words.... (After a sigh, of course..!)
"My name is Hashiba Maehara. It's nice to meet you "
the girl opposite me was shocked and unsure of what to say, I didn't feel like getting rejected straight away from her. "What?.." She looked down in shame. Her face started to glow, in her cheeks, a soft blush,her eyes, were a beautiful diamond blue colour. The bangs of her rosie pink hair covered her face and shadowed her sparkled eyes. Looking at her,like this I felt embarrassed. She lifted herself up and shined with that smile as she said, "Nice to meet you too...I'm Yusari.." You know...Now that you see her smile,..she actually looks really cute..I just noticed...I'm blushing! Damn it!
"There you go! You two are friends now!" Sayuri said praising us. I looked at her bright face and smiled back.
I realised that me and Yusari have been holding hands in the same handshake position since! We both apologised and repelled our hands away. It was getting awkward and I didn't know what to say but at the same time, I wanted someone to say something...
" So...What were you doing here,Yusari?" Finally! She broke the deadly silence! I let out a sigh of relief.
"Oh.." She's automatically blushing! I wonder what's pulling on her heartstrings?
"I'm making lunch..For my love..!" Huh?! Love?!...Isn't that too early for her to say that?..How do you know if such a thing exists?!
"Wow! Really?!" Sayuri said with a concerned expression, then suddenly smiled. "Tell us! Who is it?!" She continued, sounding very excited about this...But I couldnt care less...
" Um... Please don't make fun of me if I tell you..." Her whole face is turning red! Don't tell me!.....
...She's in love with with a girl! Oh no! That means she's not straight! She's at that age where she doesn't care to swing THAT way! If it IS a girl then...Who? ..I KNEW IT!! That's the reason why she hates ME! It's because she...
loves...SAYURI!!
My mind is thinking WAY too much! But it IS possible! Those two CAN be a pair! 🍐Them two holding each other! Doing crazy Shit! Like kissing! WAIT! It's the moment of truth! She's gonna confess!
"Of course I won't!"...Wait a minute...Why would she say ["please don't make fun of me.."] When... shit....
"I'm in love with Shintaru Sensei! ♡!!!" What?! OUR FREAKING MATH TEACHER!!
"You mean our teacher! wow!" Sayuri said in surprise. But I don't understand...
"Wait! Isn't he way older than you?!" I spoke out in anger and some kind of resentment feeling was flowing through me. " Well, I'm all up for it!" Sayuri says supporting her.
"Calm down. He's not that older than me..He's what..24 and I'm gonna turn 18 next month..so...we're..." She's loves the maths teacher and she's taking 2 minutes to figure the freakin age difference!
"6 Years apart!!" Her maths is terrible!
"So what? I can't help but keep falling for him.." I can't believe how blind she is, when it comes to love..
"You know..You're only gonna end up being hurt in the end. So, I were you..control your emotions and move on!" I didn't mean to be so harsh but it's the truth, she'll either learn it the easy way or the hard way.
"What? .." She froze in shock, but I don't want her to suffer that way. She stood silent and I was left in her darkness, it felt so terrifying. Yusari then lifted her head up and yelled "You have no right to say that!! You bastard! ! ! I hate YOU!!" She cried as she shrieked out at me. She stormed out and left.
I didn't know what I could do. But I know that instead of trying to help her suffering...I've just only made it worse..My words hut her as a result...it hurt all three of us...
Of course, Sayuri must be hurt that I said something so cruel to my 'friend'. She tried her best trying to make us good friends but because of my stupid mouth, I don't think it's gonna work out. Not now...not ever..
"Maehara" I looked up, following my name being called out by the person whom I've just hurt...
"It's ok..These things happen...But what truely is special about friendship is..The understanding you have for each other. But it's never too late. Make things right and talk your feelings out...That way you'll be able to understand clearly 'why is she hurt?'or'why is she so angry?'...Finding each others feelings is the greatest treasure of all, after friendship." She's right..If I can understand what she's feeling inside then maybe I'll be able to find out my own feelings and understand my mistakes..That means..I'll need to..Apologise to her!
"Thanks for the advise! I'll talk her and make this right!" I have confidence in myself! All I need to do is apologise then if she has a forgiving heart then maybe we can stay as friends..! I sprint out! I'm heading for you Yusari! I wanna better friendship than this!
**TOSHIRO SHINTARU**
Man!~I've finally finished with those kids math Quiz! And let me tell you..they're gonna get some shit real soon!
But it's still lunch, I don't feel like eating today, so I'm gonna take some fresh air. I walk outside to the school yard but at the few stairs desending down to the field, I see a student crying..It's Yusari... I wonder what happened..?
I sat down beside her, she was bent down, crying on her knees. I wanted to say something but I waited a little longer until she finally raised her head up..
" Hey. "I greeted her with a friendly smile. But she looked at me with her teary eyes and runny nose, at first she was at at a wonder..then she freaked out. "E-EH?!!"her face started turning red. "M-Mr-Sh-Shintaru!!"
"Heh..what's up?" Her reaction made me amused.
"Um..Nothing.."She wiped her eyes and face. After a short pause, I went straight to the point. "Why were you crying?.." I hope it's not because of a break up, because if it is then it could've just avoided this stupid situation in the first place. "What?! I-I wasn't! "
"Did something happen..?"
" No! It's nothing. ."She looked down. "Don't worry about me, Mr Shintaru! "She said with a smile but no happiness. I know she's faking it. She was denying the fact that she was upset, when she really needs someone by her side. But because she keeps denying it, her feelings, then she'll just end up through it alone..I can't take it. She can't suffer...but more importantly she must be brave enough to share her suffering with someone else. I want to give her that chance...But it's up to her..
"So the lie to me, Yusari"
"Huh?.."
"If there's something bothering you, then tell me." I smiled at her but from her reaction, I can tell she looks relieved.
"Actually...*sigh*...I don't know how to tell you.."
"It's alright...Whatever is on your mind is fine.." I said trying to reassure her.
"...Ok..I..I'm in love...With someone.." Those words shocked me...I know exactly what that's like..
**HASHIBA MAEHARA**
"Ok...I...I'm in love...With somone..."
Yusari is talking to Mr Shintaru about it? What if she accidently confesses?!..But then after that...What will Shintaru do?! That's my biggest concern..but...I need to know..what she's really feeling..?
I try to keep calm, while standing behind the wall, but my hearts beating fast!
"It's ok...I won't ask you who this person is, but I want you to tell me if he's hurting you.."
"..." It took her a while to respond until finally...
"Yes..He's hurting me all the time!.." She said with tears in her eyes. But I can't believe what I'm hearing! The person she loves is right infront of her yet she's saying all of this to his face! Yusari...You must be dying inside right now..!
"Why?... Why is he hurting you?.." His voice sounds gentle and calm but that doesn't stop the words you can say that can pierce a person's heart.
"Because...Because... I- " She breaks off crying. Mr Shintaru tries to comfort her as much as he can..but I don't think that'll do.
"It's ok...Say it...." Yusari bends down, wiping, tear by tear, as they fall uncontrollably.
"Because...I know I can never have him!.."
Yusari breaks down crying in pain. But everything else, after she said that, just faded away from me... She knew..
She knew that She couldn't have him...
She knew that She would get hurt...
She knew all of that...
Yet she still fell in love with him...
I never thought that a love story between a teacher and a student would be so tragic but now I know why people tend to avoid them so much.
Now I know why I shouldn't have said that,
"You're only gonna end up being hurt in the end, so if I were you, control your emotions and move on..!"
I shouldn't have to repeat the words that are already circling inside her head! From the moment she laid eyes on him, her eyes sparked and she knew she was in love with him. But the reason why she didn't admit it was because she knew that She would get rejected...
I am sorry, Yusari...