"Move." I would demand as I approached Einervaene. Nearly shoving her out of the way as I brought up a different means to open the door. Unlocking it through my exclusive privileges granted by my status as the airship captain. And I would lock it right behind me after slipping on in.
Glaring intently at Nin with fists soon forming as I walked in front of him. Snarling at his stationary form and showing off my claws. But this attempt to scare him went nowhere and he stayed still. No noise was sent my way or care given to me.
"You're pathetic..." I spat out at the incompetent bug whose failure cost me my dad's life. If he just took that wyvern seriously then none of this would have happened. My family would be all here and we could be on our way. And this little thing could have been left behind like it wanted to be.
"I know, weak too." he said back to me with a blank tone. All while those bug claws of his came together and squeezed.
"SHUT UP!" I scream in his face as I get right up in it.
"Why?" he asked with a shudder.
"Why do you think!? No one wants to hear a filthy bug!" I explain to him. Combing my brain for any insults I could throw at him.
"Then what do you want?"
"To see you actually succeed in what you once tried to do!" I tell him as I put my magic-enhanced claws straight to his neck. And his lack of a response only angered me more.
"Might as well, everyone is gone..." he muttered before he broke down crying. And as if he just flicked a switch, I suddenly changed. No longer angry, instead, I just came to a realisation I should have known beforehand.
"All of them...?" I weakly asked as I stumbled backwards.
"None of them made it out... Not neighbour or family..." he barely got out before he buried his face into his hands and fell to his side. And as I watched him break down more and more, my body also became limp. Then, I grabbed a chair so I could sit on it. Huddling my legs close before looking down at them.
"I lost my dad because you didn't kill it quick enough..." I sobbed out myself. As if I was trying to keep my own feelings relevant when it was far worse him.
"I lost everyone because I didn't kill it quick enough..." he then told me as he stopped crying loudly. He just sort of stayed on the bed and covered himself with a thin quilt. Staining it with ash, dirt and dust. Even his own blood...
"Right..." I mutter to him before sighing out what emotions I could. Wiping away some of the tears on my tail before then getting it up. Walking over to him to then offer it to him. But he would refuse it and just stay still under the quilt.
"I'm sorry about your dad..." he somehow managed to get out despite my prior words. Somehow, despite what I had done to him since this all happened, he had managed to offer me condolences...
"I..." I started to say before I just started shaking my head and crying once more. Running off towards the bridge in order to collapse into my chair. Then, two screens appeared before my eyes. One with an image of my family grieving, the other of Nin in that same bed.
I couldn't even be asked to sneer at the two hwardgon in front of me. I just felt... Jealous of them. She still had her dad while mine was gone.
A good man who was in that state because he saved a baby... And this evil creature was still alive along with his daughter!? How was this fair!? What gave him the right to live on!?
"HOW IS THIS FAIR!?" I would then scream at the roof before crying some more. My dad was now in Undwote's arms yet hers was not. Mine was a good man who gave his strength to help a weak newborn... He sold people for mere profit...
It made me angry and I did not even know what to do. What could I even do...? Killing them wouldn't make me happy. It wouldn't help Dad...
He was dead and they got to carry on living. They have done what they have done and they still get to see another day. And the last I ever properly saw of Dad was him thanking me... For getting our family back together.
I then turned on the speaker, "Mom, make some room... I'm coming back." I whimpered out before I started walking. Putting the airship on a low-altitude course back to Jherikra before leaving. Clutching my face once again as the tears came back in force.