A thought that caught your attention that turned into a hellish obsession
Sublime, I'm fine, I'm fine
though there are times where emotions rage
Because I try, yet it is not fast enough
To keep pace with my expectations,
To be human is to be bound in a loop
Of imperfection
And no matter how close
I am reminded of the loos and loss and hardship
And yes, I am grateful to be here, to experience,
But I'm human anD
It's hard seeing my thoughts and who I want to be
And living the now as me
And i try to say I'm enough
But every now and then,
I still feel
And it's hard to be human
Because I was so much more before I fell
I console myself by saying, well, that isn't true,
Because the reason i'm here is to experience life,
Because I wanted to
Take it as a gift or a curse,
It's our thoughts dwell
That make it better or worse
-1.28.2020