After a long talk, back in the dinner, we decided do to a little midnight walk in the park next to the restaurant. It´s quite refreshing, breathing clean air into my lungs and getting an inner energy kick through the oxygen. "You didn´t answer my question from earlier." Oh, I thought, he would have forgotten about this silly question. A woman around thirty shouldn´t be asked about her sexual experience, even if she didn´t have any. "I really don´t want to press this matter, but I would like to know, where I can start. Some women like it fast, others want it slow. It shouldn´t sound like I´m a womanizer, but in my short life, I had a few lovers." Oh, wow, I always thought of Oliver like the nice guy next door, never as a lover, to say it in a silly way. But it seems behind every face waits a surprise for you.
So, to answer his question. Should I say something about my non-existing sex life? No, yes, no, yes… "You know, I make the whole thing short. I´m a virgin, rather call it a wall flower, I don´t have any experiences with sexual activities, I was even embarrassed by the kiss we shared on Saturday." Maybe it´s the time, because we speak so freely or it´s that we´re feeling comfortable in our presence. Somehow, I trust him more than anybody else.
He looks at me long. "So, you want to tell me, you didn´t had any boyfriends, before? No kisses and other activities? You are a beautiful and smart woman, for true. I can´t understand, why men are not standing around you." Yeah, why not. I would definitely be so overwhelmed, running away is the best option then. Escaping strange situations is my favourite occupation.
"We should return back to the car, it´s getting cool outside", I suggest, hoping he takes my proposal. "I know something to make you warm again", he looks at me while speaking. He expects a reaction from me, but I only look like a deer standing amid headlights. He takes the opportunity and pulls me against his body. I couldn´t react properly, so I let his lips crashing mine. That´s again a way to overcharge me with electricity. Now, we are standing under linden, the leaves are falling down on each side of us. It´s quite a romantic view, I´m feeling sixteen again, but only in my mind.
Kissing him, I have more confidence than on Saturday. I nibble on his under lip, tease him a little bit with my tongue, I taste him, too. He likes to push ahead, but I like to implement a deeper kiss, it´s not only about desire, it´s a way to express art. He leans back, so he can watch every facet of my being, while holding me straight with both hands on my waist. "You are beautiful and a really good kisser." I smile, that´s thanks enough. "You, too", I add, otherwise guilt overcomes me.
Suddenly, he takes me under my bottom and lifts me up, so we are at par, we are looking each other deep into the eyes. To support my weight, because I know I´m heavy, I´m getting pressed against a tree, my legs are around his hips. Outsiders might be a little irritated, if they see us in such an intimately way. I can feel other parts of his body awakening to life, especially if he´s pressing harder and harder against me. A feeling of lust and pleasure overcomes me; I might be becoming addicted to this waves of different emotions. I have never felt them before, not in that extent.
As he focused his kisses on my neck, I can concentrate for the first time, since he started to distract me. Oh, no, what did he do? My belly twitched as he moves his right, very warm hand on my cooled down belly. "We should return to the car; you are really cold." What did I say a few minutes before? Honestly, I´m hot now, really hot. My pulse is around 180 and my skin smoulders from his touches. "Yes, we should go", I give him the indirect answer he wanted.
Back into the car, he starts the engine and turns the car to park out. "Do you want to sleep over? I don´t mind a wonderful personality like you in my bed." Oh, that was nice formulated. I´m feeling honoured. Actually, I want to start our relationship slowly, for the case he wants a relationship, too.
"Is it serious between us, or do you only want to have some fun", I´m asking directly. I have neither the motivation nor time to joke around with a man. I want to have someone to hold on for the future, somebody who can show responsibility. Maybe he´s the one. Maybe.
"I want you, not for any fun, but have something serious – as you said – together. I don´t need anybody only temporal in my life, I need you to stay with me for life together. I´m feeling in my heart, you are the one." Oliver wasn´t that creamy at the beginning, but I only saw the business man in him, not my future lover. Should I trust him? What have I to lose? Nothing, I have nothing to lose. So, sometimes you must risk something to win the first prize.
Oliver parts his lips to say something. "You are my girlfriend now, aren´t you?" Okay, I didn´t expected him to ask this question so soon. We know each other less than ever for three months, but after only two kisses, he wants to start a relationship. Actually, I´m talked about relationships, so I´m the one to blame. But, why not? The time is gone, when I was shy, I´m an independent woman. "Yes, we are in a relationship." "So you can sleep by me tonight?", he asked again, hopefully. I had only nodded, before I noticed it´s dark outside, so he can´t see me. I tell him "Yes" concretely. Only after two minutes, I get along, he got all what he wanted in the last minutes, with only a relationship. Oh no.