Well we head off to town and we were both still laughing about the prior events that had happened in the house. This town is so lively I swear I looked like a kid in a theme park. I was so excited I was going to one of the stands to get the bread from the Baker. All of a sudden Peter stops me dead in my tracks by grabbing hold onto my arm. "Hey it would be a good idea if we stuck together. You are still new to this area. You might get lost and I don't want to lose you. " I look at him blankly for a moment, "y.. yeah your right. I promise I won't get carried away. " He smiled cheerfully, "good now let's do this. " He grabbed my hand and held it firmly. "Umm... what are you doing? He looked at me so shyly and covered his mouth with embellishment. " Well... this is the easiest way to make sure none of us wonder off or anything you know. " I reassured him with a smile and said, " yeah your probably right." This is the first time I had ever held another person's hand, much less a guy. I'm so use to being alone I had forgotten what it feels like when someone is concerned about me. Tears began to roll down my face which fought me by surprised as much as Peter. He jumped to his feet when he noticed that I was crying and pulled me into an empty alleyway just to ask me what was wrong. "Are you ok? Did something happen? " I couldn't help but think, he's still worried about me. He actually cares. I cry even more. Me doing so makes him even more confused and helpless, "hey look, if it was something I said or did I am truly sorry. Please tell me what it is and I'll stop." The moment he said that I sprung into his arms. "No... please don't stop. I'm just... so happy you see. Nobody has ever worried or cared about me in so long. I'm crying because I feel overwhelmed with happiness and it's all thanks to you. I'm sorry for worrying you. " He took in a deep breath, sighed out in relief, and said"geez it's ok, I was just worried if something was wrong. And hey, you don't have to be afraid of being shut out or left behind. You are part of our family now. We take care of each other so you better get use to people caring about you. " He gave me such a warm reassuring smile and I couldn't help but smile back. " Thank you", was all I could manage to say. I am just so speechless. I am so happy here, although, I wonder how he would react when he finds out what my secret is. Would he still accept me and feel the same way. Would he still want me to be part of his family. I hope so, I really hope I found someone who would accept me for me no matter what. We started to walk out of the alleyway and back into the dusty dirt road that ran through town. We stayed together with our hands intertwined. He feels warm and his hands are so strong and large. My stomach feels a bit twisted and my heart is racing. Seriously what the hell is going on with me. We are just holding hands and doing some shopping for his mom.
Time goes on...
It was getting a little late by the time we got everything we needed and he headed back home. I loved the town. It was so lovely and full of new things. It was simply astonishing. Normally, in a new area surrounded by a bunch of strangers I would be really nervous and go into a nerve-wrecking panic. But for some reason with Peter I just felt calm and at ease. I feel at peace but also with a hint of nervousness, but I was nervous for a different reason. One that I am not sure of.