With these hands of hers, how many people has she pushed away? How many have left her side, how many people gave up? She already lost count of how many people left. She gave up a long time ago. Rather than expect things, it is better to rely on yourself. Do not let your emotions show on your face; do not show any weakness in front of another person.
It's painful giving your heart to another person, only to have them push you away. Only to have the very people you trust turn their backs on you. She doesn't want to feel such bitter emotions about herself anymore.
She doesn't want to wake up in tears, and that unbearable pain. As long as she stays away and doesn't get attached. She can prevent herself from experiencing that pain ever again.
