My name is Hoshi Hideyoshi, my first names in Japanese mean star and my last name mean excellence, esteem and good luck.
I was born on St. Patrick's Day.
My name and birthdate always seemed inappropriate because I never felt lucky.
I am a 29-year-old miserable, unhealthy, and overworked software developer.
I am like many other peons work for a large corporation.
I specifically work on mobile development at my job as a senior developer.
Many of my coworkers got sick because of the flu, leaving me and a few others most of the work.
Because of a project deadline approaching, I and a few others have to work into the late night.
I stretched my arms and took a glance at the clock and noticed it getting late and decided to pack up and leave.
As I was leaving, I was thinking about my current situation.
I didn't enjoy what I was doing for a career and regret not pursuing a career as a chef, something I would enjoy.
I had no close friends and felt I should have attempted to get some.
I had no girlfriend or wife waiting for me at home and scorn myself for not reaching out when I had a chance in the past.
I felt trapped, and that it was too late to change anything, that a change now wouldn't make a big difference.
Just as I got outside my workplace, I noticed a couple holding hands walking across the street.
The couple had smiles on their faces, chatting with each other.
They seem to have a happy, fulfilling and successful life based on their expensive-looking clothing.
I got jealous for a slight moment.
Then I gained an epiphany; My inability to take risks causes me most of my problems.
It prevented me from following my dream.
I wanted to become a world-famous chef but believed that it was unrealistic, and only a few succeeded.
I was not happy because I was lonely.
I never put in the effort to make close friends due to my family situation or get a girlfriend because I feared rejection.
I started crying, heavy with emotions.
I let out a small moan as I wiped my tears and noticed a shooting star in the sky.
I wished upon that star for a second chance, a chance to live happily and fulfil my dream.
I want to become a world-famous chef.
I want close friends that would cheer me up whenever I was down.
I want a sexy girlfriend that would later become my loving wife and the mother of my children.
After it disappeared into the horizon, I stood there a moment before heading home.
Once I got home, I cheered myself up by watching some anime.
After my little anime marathon, I went to bed and hoped the next day would be better.