Chereads / The diary of a girl / Chapter 5 - October 16, 2009

Chapter 5 - October 16, 2009

Dear diary,

Ain't Nobody really fuckin with me like they always say

And all these people hit me up but I know that they be fake

I'm Gonna grab the lawn mower and finally cut off all you snakes

I just wanna one day finally get up out this place

But that's always been the dream, same shit a different day

So I pop a few xans and try to eliminate this pain

But it's never gonna change, and I'll always feel the same

I don't know what to do my life is looking plain

Never feel excited and it's always been this way

I wanna make it out I wanna get up out this rain

And Say you had my back but always saw me in this pain

I'm tired of this shit, and I'm so tired of these days

Sleepless nights, anxiety, just ain't no good for me

Wanna tell my problems but nobody listening

Sleepless nights, anxiety, just ain't no good for me

Wanna tell my problems but nobody listening, yeah

So I smoke up all this dope and I always check my phone

Every 5 minutes even though that I'm alone

Nobody hit me up I'm always feeling like a ghost

I just wanna find some peace but nowhere feels like home

Always smokin up and sippin' on some styrofoam

Yeah I got this guap and that iPhone rose gold

But that don't mean I'm happy I'm just feeling so alone

I just want somebody who would listen and can cope

I don't know what to do cause I can't trust a soul

Sippin all this lean but still these problems overflow

I Ain't got shit to lose like I'm on death row

Say you understand but you don't even fuckin know

Every day I wake up and I'm always feeling low

I just chase this dream and hope that one day I will blow

I've just had enough And hope that one day this can stop

I'll just keep on working and grinding to the top, yeah

So I smoke up all this dope and I always check my phone

Every 5 minutes even though that I'm alone

Nobody hit me up I'm always feeling like a ghost

I just wanna find some peace but nowhere feels like home

Always smokin up and sippin' on some styrofoam

Yeah I got this guap and that iPhone rose gold

But that don't mean I'm happy I'm just feeling so alone

I just want somebody who would listen and can cope

I don't know what to do cause I can't trust a soul

Sippin all this lean but still these problems overflow

I Ain't got shit to lose like I'm on death row

Say you understand but you don't even fuckin know

Every day I wake up and I'm always feeling low

I just chase this dream and hope that one day I will blow

I've just had enough And hope that one day this can stop

I'll just keep on working and grinding to the top, yeah