March 5, 20XX
Xiu Ying looks so cute today. She's so focused. I want to talk to her...but I don't want to interrupt her. She came late to class this morning. I can't believe the professor pointed out that she was late. She looked so embarrassed. I know she's really shy, I got so mad, I wanted to- "๐๐ธ ๐๐ฑ๐ช๐ฝ ๐ข๐ฑ๐ช๐ท๐๐ฒ?" "Nothing" I say. "Hm?" The guy sitting next to me says, "oh, nothing" I tell him and go back to doing my work. "๐๐ธ ๐๐ฑ๐ช๐ฝ ๐ข๐ฑ๐ช๐ท๐๐ฒ? ๐ฃ๐ฎ๐ต๐ต ๐ถ๐ฎ. ๐'๐ต๐ต ๐ด๐ฎ๐ฎ๐น ๐ฒ๐ฝ ๐ช ๐ผ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ป๐ฎ๐ฝ. ๐จ๐ธ๐พ ๐ด๐ท๐ธ๐ ๐ฝ๐ฑ๐ช๐ฝ ๐ข๐ฑ๐ช๐ท๐๐ฒ..." I keep writing. "๐ฃ๐ฎ๐ต๐ต ๐ถ๐ฎ! ๐ฃ๐ฎ๐ต๐ต ๐ถ๐ฎ! ๐ฃ๐ฎ๐ต๐ต ๐ถ๐ฎ!" I keep writing. "๐ฃ๐ฎ๐ต๐ต ๐ถ๐ฎ! ๐ฃ๐ฎ๐ต๐ต ๐ถ๐ฎ! ๐ฃ๐ฎ๐ต๐ต ๐ถ๐ฎ!" I just keep writing, "Shanxi?" I hear someone say. I come back to my senses, "Hm?" I look up and see the guy that sits next me looking at me. "Are you okay?" He asks. "Yeah, why?" "You were scribbling in your notebook really fast and I couldn't get your attention." I looked down and see you had just scribbled all over your notes. "You're right," I say chuckling "just trying to see if my pen works." "Ah okay," He says and goes back to writing. I pay attention to the rest of the lecture. Once class ends, I head to the restroom. "๐ฃ๐ฎ๐ต๐ต ๐ถ๐ฎ! ๐ฃ๐ฎ๐ต๐ต ๐ถ๐ฎ! ๐ฃ๐ฎ๐ต๐ต ๐ถ๐ฎ! ๐ ๐๐ธ๐ท'๐ฝ ๐ฝ๐ฎ๐ต๐ต ๐ช๐ท๐๐ธ๐ท๐ฎ." I splash water on my face. "๐ฃ๐ฎ๐ต๐ต ๐ถ๐ฎ. ๐ฃ๐ฎ๐ต๐ต ๐ถ๐ฎ. ๐ฃ๐ฎ๐ต๐ต ๐ถ๐ฎ." "Let it go." I say, then someone comes in the restroom. I leave and go sit outside. "๐ฃ๐ฎ๐ต๐ต ๐ถ๐ฎ. ๐ฃ๐ฎ๐ต๐ต ๐ถ๐ฎ. ๐ฃ๐ฎ๐ต๐ต ๐ถ๐ฎ. ๐ฃ๐ฎ๐ต๐ต ๐ถ๐ฎ." "Shut up." I say. I take a pill from my backpack, I feel better now. I walk back inside and see Xiu Ying talking to her friend. Xiu Ying is so beautiful. Her personality is great and she is really smart and intelligent...I love her so much. I want to tell her how I feel but I'm afraid she won't feel the same way. I will talk to her, I want to protect her, I want to make her mine, I will make her fall in love with me, she will be mine.