.... But I must say that the tinge was enough to last for a lifetime and I think he will agree with me. But actually, let me tell you one thing, even if he doesn't agree, I will make him agree. That small feeling made me realise how much important he is for me. I realised that I am incomplete without him. When he is around I feel secure. The moment we part away, my heart aches with the pain of loneliness. I feel very alone in this so huge a world. He is the only person with whom I can share all my sorrows and happiness. He is the only one who can comfort me in my sorrows. And I have felt it completely in the last few days. The crisis of the last few days made my heart shatter to a thousand more pieces. I have yearned for him almost a thousand times 'cause every time a piece broke off my heart, only his name came to my lips. My heart needed him. I needed him, but yet there was no way to reach up to him or he could reach out to me, for even though we live a few metres apart, we are always separated by an invisible barrier of 1000 kms., physically. Fortunately after being stabbed a thousand times, my heart stopped aching and I felt that it would stop beating also but somehow it managed to live. Slowly and slowly the pain decreased and eventually it vanished. Even after the pain vanished, I felt empty. I wanted to cry but I couldn't cry. It was as if I had undergone a severe 'draught' just now. I couldn't understand what this new feeling was which just now took birth into me, in my heart. I couldn't name it. I 'thought' I was helpless but yet I 'felt' strong and composed. I wanted to laugh and shout out my condition but I couldn't. It was as if my words had left me. I 'thought' I didn't know what it was but yet I 'felt' I knew what it was. But again I couldn't name it. Finally after thinking and feeling much, I gave up. All this mental work had completely exhausted me and I don't know how but I kinda dozed off. It was only after an hour or so that I finally woke up...