"I'm sorry if I said something out of place," I said in a rush, eager to correct my wrong, "but I love Holland very much. She's a special child, and special children need a lot of attention and love. I don't like to see her sad. I want her to get the best and_"
He breathed out loudly, interrupting my rant. I was grateful.
"We both want that, and this is why I am here to offer you a job; of course, you can keep this one. It will just be an extra job, one that will give you more access to Holland than you already have so you can show her all your love. I pray that for the love you seem to have for Holland, you do not reject my offer. We both need you."
I pressed my lips together, trying to restrain myself from blurting out again. I cleared my throat. "What do you have in mind, Julian." I could hear the pounding of my heart in my ears.
"Holland needs a Nanny, and you seem to be the only one suitable. She loves you very much and has already warmed up to you. I've always wanted to get her one, but she doesn't like people and always runs away from anyone who isn't me. Except for my driver, that is." He confided.
I believed him when he said all this because I knew Holland well. She didn't like to be with people; even her classmates were not an exception.
She hardly plays with the other children except for her seat partner, Elizabeth.
"What do you say?"
It was an offer that I could not in good conscience regret. It would be so good to spend more time with her, and the added salary will do me great good. I will also get to spend more time with her hot father. What more could I ask for?
"I'll think about it and give you a reply tomorrow." I finally said.
Julian exhaled. He looked extremely exhausted, as if he required a massage.
I could help with that, I thought shamelessly.
"Thank you for at least thinking about it. I hope you say yes."
Staying in the same house with Julian would make me go insane with desire. What if he doesn't want me?