It's been a year ever since this breaking point. I found out that the paranoia was caused from stress. I am working on building myself back up to being me again. My man and I are focusing on the basics of the house, finances and the kids. I'd like to work on our relationship a bit more. But I feel like every time I bring it up or suggest something, he just says okay or yeah and that's the end of it.
My son is almost 2 years old. He's walking around and talking and messing the house up. I love him so much. The girls are 10 and 7 now. So they are developing another whole attitude. If anyone out there is or has gone through anything similar to this story, I hope this helps you know that you are not alone.