Guys I know I took a recent break between volumes 1 and 2. But some RL stuff has come up and I may have to pause posting for a week or more. I will still be writing though so rest assured the book has not ended.
The inspiration behind the story themes: Fate, Love, Determination and Loss.
DOMINOES
Tossing and turning between sleepless nights and cold sweat mornings. Afraid of the inevitable end. A brave fighter, willing to put my life on the line, but I can't see my way through this. Hugging my knees, staring at my feet. The corner a bit too familiar. A contender contented? But judgement is coming.
Judgement day, like any other the sun was shining. Anxiously walking as anxiety piled on my nerves, a time bomb waiting. A touch could set me off. "Little boy look out for that truck!" They shouted. But I just stood there in a daze. Bang!! "I think we have to talk," she said, my response "I agree…" we each have to find our own wings.
Am I that eagle taking flight? The wind feels cold and lonely, I'm just doing my best not to start a death spiral. Hope appears in a familiar scent. The hunt is on and what's needed now is the appropriate bait. My heart on the line and my emotions are tugging.
Soaring as two with comfort in the familiar? But slowly adjusting my balance, regardless of the stutters, I would be forgiven by my angel of mercy. My prop when I fumble, that signpost when I'm lost. But she could never keep me grounded…
Too much alike to truly know one another? The phone rings… A choice to be made. Am I that brave fighter? Judgement day again! A crisis underway yet the sun shines! The earth shakes with every step. My ears deceive me as the pounding increases with every breath. I'm afraid of what I'm about to do!
She can see it in my eyes! "Just speak," she says… I'd rather die than hurt you. But these are the dominoes I have laid! Her heart my collateral; my soul forever tarnished. Brave again and a hundred times more, but I'll never lay these dominoes again.
By DKALF.
You guys would have read the reworded poem "The Phoenix" in chapter 1 (Hittan's regret).
THE PHOENIX
He laid there waiting as unwillingness could be seen from his eyes. The flames of war burned in his soul. Revolt against death he thought as he grimaced. But like a moth to a flame, he was drawn to that warmth. Beckoning to him as he screamed seemingly his last breath.
Determined to be a phoenix; rising from the ashes. He got to his feet with tears in his eyes, biting his lips as blood could be seen slowly dripping. His consciousness faded but he would not allow it to slip noiselessly.
"I am not done!" He professed as the torment was visibly seen splashed across his face. Sweat dripping, jaw clenched and madness in his eyes! The embers of his memories smouldered as loved ones could be seen stoking his will to live.
A step, as he struggled for another and yet another! "I will not go!" he declared with his arms outstretched to the heavens. His head was tilted back as the rays of sunshine kissed his forehead. A smile appeared then laughter followed. It echoed his will and determination to the heavens!
He would not go, determined to change, to be anew. Rebirth his goal, death only an obstacle. Though he was beaten, battered and left for dead. He was undaunted and unwilling to accept the end. So he dared to change his fate regardless of the suffering! His phoenix call; clear and loud! "Let the heavens tremble as I shall be reborn!"
By DKALF.
Hints for what is to come.
THE WIND
I've never truly seen her. But I've felt her hands moving across my cheeks. Her tender touches as she would wipe the sweat from my brow. Her gentle words blowing past my ear. How insatiable she would be when I laid bare. And when her hands slowly glide over me, chills can be seen running down my spine.
Days when my temper flares and I'm burning with anger, her gentle breeze would keep me from buckling to my knees. My passionate nights would be unbearable without her. Her ever-changing forms are so gentle and warm. My head spins thinking of nothing but her butterfly kisses.
Gently blowing through my hair. As if to reassure me that she would always be there. Though I may never see her, I most certainly feel her. Similar to faith, in believing in the things unseen. However, I'll take it a step further by declaring I love her, the wind. When she hugs me I can take flight. I know her presence is fleeting, but in the moment, she is ever-present. Faithfully by my side faithfully by your side.
By DKALF.
Another Hint:
BURY ME THEN
Bury me when I'm dead! When my heart stops beating with the passion of life. When my world no longer struggles against the insidious currents of time. Bury me when my thoughts are content to worry, bury me then!
Bury me on that hill overlooking my loved ones. As they grow old let me fester there. Let these dry bones feed the watchdog that will forever protect the clan. His howls echo my determination and pride. Bury me there, under that dear moonlight.
But bury me when I'm dead! When my soul stops. Because I've seen my dreams to their destination. Bury me after I've stood on that stage and stared down death! Bury me then! Bury me content, with a smile, having a laugh! Because you bury a man that has lived!
by DKALF.
Hopefully, the RL stuff goes well and reduce the number stresses on me. :)